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Gee, Jr, you're more popular than your dear ol' pops is, ehe~ Even if that attention may not always be the best? Poor guy's only just stopped bleeding again...

Vince Codred Jr. for @fags-and-freaks ! I wanted to get in the swing of drawing portraits again.

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me when i take 300 years to finish simple sketches... but umm vince jr & ambrose for @fags-and-freaks !

sorry for the wait! i started these *weeks* ago but got busy and then lost that file!! i had the earlier version of the file (which is where the ambrose sketch is from) but i already started rendering ambrose in the other one... i was so annoyed. so that's why he's not fully colored here >.> i didn't want to keep taking forever to draw ocs aghh

but anyway, they were still fun to draw! i love shading in monochrome... and i've said it before, but i like when ocs have their own blogs, it's like they're real! cool guys :D

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Hello Miss Lettie.

I was wondering if you'd be willing to discuss your religion and the way you feel about the temple itself with me? I know you're a busy person, of course, so I'm happy to work around your schedule.

If not, that's perfectly fine as well.

Thank you in advance,

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Hello there!

Of course! I am busy, but I would consider this exactly the kind of thing I am busy with. By which I guess I mean my job? Hehe... And it is an interesting question... Somehow I'm not sure I've really been asked before...

I did notice you speaking with Jordan, by the way! It's always heartening to see new people take interest in the temple c:

As for your question,

I think I may have a different perspective on the temple than most people here? Mostly in that everyone else here has made vows of their own volition and experienced other things, while I've always been here! And in that I have a lot of information that the others here don't. I even need to keep secrets from Brother Jordan ahaha ^^; I'll have to be careful with that sort of thing when I'm sharing my opinion, come to think of it.

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You know, I'm not sure where to start! The temple is all I've ever really known, so as much as I'd like to give you helpful, concise information, it is a bit of a case of trying to explain how I feel about my life as a whole ^^; ... I hope you will forgive me if this is a bit all over the place!

Hmmmm... Firstly, I think I have to make the disclaimer that this is an organised religion, right? I'm not sure there really is such a thing as organised religion without flaws or corruption - and because of my position, I tend to see a lot of it quite up close, which makes me really sad. :< I have a lot of affection for this place and the people in it, so seeing certain individuals use it in such a way truly hurts. I often find myself wondering just what it is about the temple that seems to be enabling the sort of exploitation I keep seeing, but I'm not sure it's something I'm brave enough to bring up to anybody. Maybe one day... I do what I can to make things easier for people for the time being. ^^; The safety of our flock is of the utmost concern, after all. (hehe. flock...)

That aside, I think the temple does a lot of good! In my own experience, I was raised here, so I'm naturally thankful for that. I've been kept very safe from the various dangers and corrupting influences in town and had lots of opportunities to learn and to help people because of it. ^^ (Besides, from what little I've heard of the alternative outcome, I'm not certain that someone with my constitution would cope very well at all.)

One of our main rules is obedience to our elders... I choose to take this to mean that we are allowed to privately question them, but to we are expected to only act on this after the fact. (Unless you find someone older still whose age-authority cancels the other person's out! That's why I have learned the exact ages of everyone at the temple, to avoid those with unclean intent ^^) While there are those who would take advantage of this, in theory, the idea is that we should look up to and respect those with experience - and in the same vein, have a responsibility to guide and care for our juniors. And I think if everyone did that, it would be a lovely world. ^^ So in that sense, I'm quite blessed to have so many elders here.

We also place a heavy emphasis on sexual purity... To my understanding, this temptation is a constant plague that humankind suffers from greatly - especially in this town. I've heard frightful things of what happens outside, perpetrated by those overcome by their sin, so perhaps we are onto something. I myself believe that everyone can grow and improve so long as they truly desire it, so I try to be kind even to people that do bad things, but the temple as a whole is uh... Quite firm in their treatment of sinners as a whole. This is probably good, though ^^ To grow and become pure, people need both harsh correction and balm for their wounds. Otherwise my approach would just be coddling, right?

Ummm... I hope this has been helpful? It's hard to know what to include and what not to! This being my whole life and all. If you ever see me, feel free to approach me to talk, if you should so wish! Or to just ask more questions here, I suppose? Whichever you prefer if you need to.

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i wonder if your cock is as big as your dad's 😍 like father like son and such

In what world would this ever be a reasonable thing to send. I'm his son. Think about what you just said, for even a millisecond.

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y'know? you look a lot like your dad!

...Unfortunately, yes. I am aware.

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i looooove characters who are sacrificial lamb coded. characters who have never lived for themselves. characters born to be a tool, a weapon, a sacrifice, all of the above. a character raised by the heroes to save the world, at any expense, even their own health, even their own life. a character raised by the villains to end the world, at any expense, even their own health, even their own life. characters who are denied personhood so they can be used as tools instead. characters who never even had a chance to be people because they were shaped into something else from the moment they were born. characters who were born to die.

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Haha hey wouldn't it be sooo wild if that creature you saw lived in your walls? Isn't that crazy or what? Anyway have fun with that ♡

How many people watched that man die and did nothing about it.

I hate this town.

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hahahaaa I know you just witnessed something horrible but it'd be so hot if you were covered in that man's blood just saying 🥴😋 wish I could lick it off of you <3333

I was hoping that you had sent the last two asks to the wrong person, but...clearly you haven't.

Please, just. Leave me alone. Please. I don't want any of this. I'm just uncomfortable. I'm not interested, and anything you say won't make me interested. So just. Stop.

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you lament how it hurts to be misunderstood, but do you realize how frightening it will be the moment you are understood. are you ready to not retreat when it happens

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"I don't know! I was just taking a break, and next thing I know some...THING is biting a guys neck and killing him. Why would I lie about that??"

Vince cringed a bit at his own voice, realizing how loud he had gotten. "Look, just. There's blood. I don't think it left a body, but it definitely left blood. I can't describe what it was to you, but...it was out there, okay? You can send people back out there, but I'm not risking it."

Stumbling into Briar's office, obviously panicked and heavily breathing, was Vince.

"Boss. Boss what the fuck do I do if I just saw somebody die. What the fuck. What the fu-"

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Briar was drinking their usual wine though their thoughts were muddled by the past memories that Jordan has surfaced. Thus their guard was lowered as they had locked themselves in their office all day. Late into the night, the office dpor burst open. In came one of his many thugs, though it was that nervous one.

His words caught them off guard. What does he mean by dead body?

"You have to be more specific, Vincent. Did you check for a pulse. You can't just tell me there's a dead body without confirming it with the other security guards. Any wounds, bleeding, any signs of blunt force trauma? Y'know, it could just be one of the dancers who've passed out from exhaustion. Anything could be possible. Now be more specific."

Briar didn't care for Vincent all that much. They only hired him because his father happened to be one of their business partners.

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"No I...I watched it happen. They weren't passed out, they killed him, it- it BIT him, there was so much blood-" Vince blabbered, eyes wide and leaning against the door, like he was scared something was gonna come through it. It was probably the most emotion Briar had ever seen from him, actually.

"I don't...I don't think it even left a body. Just blood. So much blood. I didn't want to get close to it, so I just...ran inside."

Stumbling into Briar's office, obviously panicked and heavily breathing, was Vince.

"Boss. Boss what the fuck do I do if I just saw somebody die. What the fuck. What the fu-"

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Briar was drinking their usual wine though their thoughts were muddled by the past memories that Jordan has surfaced. Thus their guard was lowered as they had locked themselves in their office all day. Late into the night, the office dpor burst open. In came one of his many thugs, though it was that nervous one.

His words caught them off guard. What does he mean by dead body?

"You have to be more specific, Vincent. Did you check for a pulse. You can't just tell me there's a dead body without confirming it with the other security guards. Any wounds, bleeding, any signs of blunt force trauma? Y'know, it could just be one of the dancers who've passed out from exhaustion. Anything could be possible. Now be more specific."

Briar didn't care for Vincent all that much. They only hired him because his father happened to be one of their business partners.

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Vince watched in horror, his expression changing from his usual dead expression to one of shock, mouth hanging open. Vince might be used to violence, sure, but he wasn't used to this. He didn't even know what this was.

Feeling the thing, whatever it was, watching him, he fumbled with the door, pushing a few people out of his way inside. Appearances did not fucking matter right now, and he was deadset on Briar's office.

It was past midnight, overcast and quite frankly a dreadfully awful night.

A kid, looking no older than 18 at the very most, was wondering the streets, almost zombie like. He wandered close to the brothel before pausing, seemingly thinking.

Under the dark of the night, it was hard to tell what those dark stains were on his shirt.

He almost seemed to be waiting for something. Or someone.

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Vince was standing outside, near the brothel's entrance. He had gotten overstimulated by the... everything, to be quite honest. The brothel was the last place Vince wanted to work, but he had been forced into it, so he put up with it. At the very least he was just protection. He didn't think he could handle being an actual worker. He already felt gross enough there as is...

Regardless, he watched the young man stumble about on the street quietly until he got too close to the brothel for Vince to feel comfortable staring him down. He didn't want the kid to actually approach him or think he wanted anything, so he started watching him out of the corner of his eye instead. He didn't look like any of their usual workers. He briefly wondered if he was one of Bailey's new debtors. It didn't matter either way, he supposed.

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It was past midnight, overcast and quite frankly a dreadfully awful night.

A kid, looking no older than 18 at the very most, was wondering the streets, almost zombie like. He wandered close to the brothel before pausing, seemingly thinking.

Under the dark of the night, it was hard to tell what those dark stains were on his shirt.

He almost seemed to be waiting for something. Or someone.

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Vince was standing outside, near the brothel's entrance. He had gotten overstimulated by the... everything, to be quite honest. The brothel was the last place Vince wanted to work, but he had been forced into it, so he put up with it. At the very least he was just protection. He didn't think he could handle being an actual worker. He already felt gross enough there as is...

Regardless, he watched the young man stumble about on the street quietly until he got too close to the brothel for Vince to feel comfortable staring him down. He didn't want the kid to actually approach him or think he wanted anything, so he started watching him out of the corner of his eye instead. He didn't look like any of their usual workers. He briefly wondered if he was one of Bailey's new debtors. It didn't matter either way, he supposed.

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I know it's not your job but I wish you were for sale,,, or even just to rent. I keep imagining how strong you must be with all the protection you do <3 I wish you could put those muscles to good use and choke me out as hard as you'd like hmfmgg. rubbing my legs together just thinking about it 🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤😍🥴🥴😋😋😋😋😋😋😋😋😋😋😋😋😋😋😋😋😋😋😋😋😋

Vince was about to lay down. Really, he was. But the notifications back to back froze him in place. There was another ask. It was probably like the last ask. He should...he should get rid of it now, so it wasn't worse later. He already felt gross. It was better to get this out of the way now, instead of letting it sit there.

...He regretted reading it immediately. He knew he shouldn't have, but he had to. He had to. He just-

It was worse than the last one. Even after deleting the damned ask, the words just repeated like a mantra. I wish you were for sale. I wish you were for sale. I wish you were for sale. I wis-

This time Vince actually threw up, heaving into the small trashcan by his desk. Laying his head against the rim, he waited for the room to finally stop spinning, hiccuping between breathes.

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hey, handsome <3 I don't see you around as often as I'd like :)

i wish I could unbutton your shirt and trace each and every one of your scars with my tongue. I'd be so thorough, especially as I make my way down to your groin <3 id love using my tongue down there the most,,, I can lick it suck it choke on it if you'd like :)

Vince could hear his heart pounding in his chest, a heavy sinking feeling settling into the pit of his stomach as he read the words on screen. They knew about his scars, too. He hid those, he always made sure he hid those, why did they know about his scars-

He deleted the ask, hand shaking, before gripping his worn down jacket, nails digging into the skin of his other arm. Enough to feel, but not draw blood. Maybe...maybe he should go lay down.

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Please please please please gimme your dad's personal number.

I want it for evil reasons

-faceless

No??? No. I'm not being punished for your actions.

Just...don't interact with him. Please.

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I had originally meant in person, but I am thankful for your response regardless. After all, I'm sure this will be an interesting read for anyone wondering about the temple. Also, there's no need to apologize. This was a lot for you to answer, and I'm just happy to hear your thoughts and experiences.

I would have to agree with you on the topic of corruption. Regardless of any precautions put in place, I believe anything of this nature is doomed to eventually slip into such flaws, and I'm happy to see you acknowledge the existence of these issues inside the temple. It's quite refreshing, compared to the usual denial of such things.

However, that does raise a few questions when it comes to things such as listening to our elders, especially in relation to corruption. After all, our elders don't always have our best intentions in mind. How does this work in connection to things such as purity in the temple? Does one's need to listen to their elders outweigh their need to keep their purity?

As for overcoming their sins, is there anything you believe someone could never come back from? Something that makes a person too far gone to be saved? Or is everyone worthy of forgiveness?

Again, I apologize for all these questions. I'm just...curious. Feel free to ignore some of these questions if you feel uncomfortable answering such things.

Hello Miss Lettie.

I was wondering if you'd be willing to discuss your religion and the way you feel about the temple itself with me? I know you're a busy person, of course, so I'm happy to work around your schedule.

If not, that's perfectly fine as well.

Thank you in advance,

- @code-dread

Hello there!

Of course! I am busy, but I would consider this exactly the kind of thing I am busy with. By which I guess I mean my job? Hehe... And it is an interesting question... Somehow I'm not sure I've really been asked before...

I did notice you speaking with Jordan, by the way! It's always heartening to see new people take interest in the temple c:

As for your question,

I think I may have a different perspective on the temple than most people here? Mostly in that everyone else here has made vows of their own volition and experienced other things, while I've always been here! And in that I have a lot of information that the others here don't. I even need to keep secrets from Brother Jordan ahaha ^^; I'll have to be careful with that sort of thing when I'm sharing my opinion, come to think of it.

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You know, I'm not sure where to start! The temple is all I've ever really known, so as much as I'd like to give you helpful, concise information, it is a bit of a case of trying to explain how I feel about my life as a whole ^^; ... I hope you will forgive me if this is a bit all over the place!

Hmmmm... Firstly, I think I have to make the disclaimer that this is an organised religion, right? I'm not sure there really is such a thing as organised religion without flaws or corruption - and because of my position, I tend to see a lot of it quite up close, which makes me really sad. :< I have a lot of affection for this place and the people in it, so seeing certain individuals use it in such a way truly hurts. I often find myself wondering just what it is about the temple that seems to be enabling the sort of exploitation I keep seeing, but I'm not sure it's something I'm brave enough to bring up to anybody. Maybe one day... I do what I can to make things easier for people for the time being. ^^; The safety of our flock is of the utmost concern, after all. (hehe. flock...)

That aside, I think the temple does a lot of good! In my own experience, I was raised here, so I'm naturally thankful for that. I've been kept very safe from the various dangers and corrupting influences in town and had lots of opportunities to learn and to help people because of it. ^^ (Besides, from what little I've heard of the alternative outcome, I'm not certain that someone with my constitution would cope very well at all.)

One of our main rules is obedience to our elders... I choose to take this to mean that we are allowed to privately question them, but to we are expected to only act on this after the fact. (Unless you find someone older still whose age-authority cancels the other person's out! That's why I have learned the exact ages of everyone at the temple, to avoid those with unclean intent ^^) While there are those who would take advantage of this, in theory, the idea is that we should look up to and respect those with experience - and in the same vein, have a responsibility to guide and care for our juniors. And I think if everyone did that, it would be a lovely world. ^^ So in that sense, I'm quite blessed to have so many elders here.

We also place a heavy emphasis on sexual purity... To my understanding, this temptation is a constant plague that humankind suffers from greatly - especially in this town. I've heard frightful things of what happens outside, perpetrated by those overcome by their sin, so perhaps we are onto something. I myself believe that everyone can grow and improve so long as they truly desire it, so I try to be kind even to people that do bad things, but the temple as a whole is uh... Quite firm in their treatment of sinners as a whole. This is probably good, though ^^ To grow and become pure, people need both harsh correction and balm for their wounds. Otherwise my approach would just be coddling, right?

Ummm... I hope this has been helpful? It's hard to know what to include and what not to! This being my whole life and all. If you ever see me, feel free to approach me to talk, if you should so wish! Or to just ask more questions here, I suppose? Whichever you prefer if you need to.