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When’s the last time the conversation was as good as the sex

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Salmon fajita salad boats

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Korean style cream cheese garlic bread

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This man doesn't see me. My feelings are a joke clearly, not to be taken seriously and honestly, that hurts. The fact that I can't honestly speak to him anymore about how I feel regarding us and how I feel he treats me without being seemingly annoying to him, is shocking cause I never thought we'd be like that. If he responded differently, it'd be so different. I want to be heard, seen, and loved in a way that is clear to me. If putting in the work is too much effort for you, then let me know where I stand.

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I really can’t afford to care the way I used to.

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It's always gonna be you for me. Even now ♡

Just be sure that I am who and what you want.

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Me realising why I be into bare minimum niggas is because I've got a bare minimum dad. I've never seen my dad buy my mom flowers. Cook her a meal. Help around the house with cleaning. My sibling and I had to be the one to encourage and beg him to take her on a date or buy her gifts. I know he loves her, but he doesn't show her in ways she will understand. And she spent money on everything, not that he didn't try, his calling doesn't allow for a lot of money right now. I've always wanted my mom to just be taken care of after retirement and not to still have to be the carer

And I find myself asking and hinting and probing for dates, I've only gotten flowers once ever, and I constantly have to ask for affirmation of feelings instead of being told because they feel that way. I've spent a lot of money on people I've cared for. I see many other similarities in characteristics that the people I've been interested in share with my dad. And that I share with my mom in relationships and that scares me. That is not the life I want to lead

I want a compassionate and passionate relationship with someone who is always willing to try just as much as I am. I want to be spoiled rotten by someone who I love to spoil, too. I want to be a team and be successful together. I don't care if they earn less, its about what they do with that money. Where am I on your priority list. When you get something, are you making an effort to love me in a way I understand, or am I expected to beg to be seen?

This epiphany has me a little shook.

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I got my first vibe 😭🥺 and I can't WAIT for him to use it on me WHILE HE'S INSIDE ME !! 🎉🥰🥳🫠⚠️

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Wild how I was just thinking to myself that I know I can be a little difficult in some ways, but that is simply because I refuse to be okay with love that doesn't speak to me especially when I make the effort to love people in ways they have shown or said they enjoy and recognise. I have received and accepted love that didn't cater to me for so long, and it was not what I needed. Today, I don't always know what I need, but I know what I do not need or want. You should do the same.

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I think I am struggling mentally, but I'm also too scared to have that be affirmed on my life...

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Tumblr is for people who love art and sex. It’s beautiful over here.

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This has to be the saddest I've been in my whole life

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No point explaining when you know how it'll go

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the purest form of love is consideration