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BSD VS LITERATURE: NO LONGER HUMAN

The second entry in my long running series to analyze every single book referenced in Bungou Stray Dogs, to try piece together the author’s intended meaning in referencing the work. 

Osamu Dazai’s ability name comes from the author’s final novel “No Longer Human”, you may have heard of it. The novel contains several events from the author’s real life, but is considered semi-autobiographical because it depicts the life of a fictional character “Yozo” who much like the real life author attempted suicide a total of five times in his life before utlimately succeeding. Many believe the book to be his will as Dazai killed himself shortly after the last part of the book was published. As for the connection to the fictional character, more under the cut. 

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[coldvirginbitch]

• The following contains sexual content that may not be suitable for the audience •

Warning:- +18

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Sorry for the grammatical mistakes.

Let's Continue~

He opened the door for you to get in first. You leaned your head inside. One kitchen, the door of the bathroom and the bedroom further at the end.

Taking out your shoes, you walked quietly towards the bedroom. You exhaled and laid flat on the bed. The sheet smelled like him…

How was I able to recognize his smell when I knew him only for a day?

He walked inside after you with a grin on his face, pleased that you had already taken your place.

“It’s my first time”, it seemed more like you monologued this phrase rather than referred to him.

“I am not going to be rough on you…”, his grin over your face as his legs had trapped your body between his muscular hips on the matress.

“Sorry if I dissapoint the experienced…”, you scoffed playfully than to seem hurt by your own confession.

“It’s my first time too!”, he announced.

“How so?”

“I may look like a dog which cannot control itself but that happens only in front of my master”, he explained before smelling a tuft of your hair.

He licked his upper lip and dove on you.

“Do you forget something?”, you blocked his chin with your palm to change the direction of his face. “I am not doing anything without condom”

Surprisingly obediently, he jumped up and stormed out of the apartment.

One minute, you raised up to extend the ends of your body. Two… and the door opened. He must have run but he didn’t seem to have caught up his breath -the maniac of unlimited stamina.

He held it up to his hand.

“How thoughtful of you that it is my first time and we will do it only once-

He let go of the end of the condom and more unwrapped reaching the floor.

“If you feel pain in the morning, I’ll comply”, he walked slowly but more like storming in, yet again on you.

He leaned on.

He stopped. Your stare fixed on his purple eyes intrigued him more. His tongue hanging and scratching the surface of your neck. Yeah… That sensation of burning up lower down your tummy.

He slid up reaching and biting your ear. His eyes signaled one thing «It’s payback time».

Your breath rushed uncontrollably. His tongue arrived at the entrance of your mouth. You opened it embarrased of what you should do.

They tangled and played together without following the rules of the original french kiss. The kiss deepened and you gasped for air after parting ways with him.

His hand caressed your exposed hips under the school uniform. He went further. You had not let a gap between to move further indeed.

He looked up.

You looked away and opened a little. His hand slid between that small opening and caressed your underwear.

With the other hand, he unbuttoned your shirt. Lowering it under your shoulders, your bra straps followed exposing your nipples.

He licked the invisible line separating them on the center of your body. His hand fondled your breasts while his tongue played with each nipple in turns. He bit each and shivers slid with your sweat down your spine.

“Ryi…”, you whispered to avoid your voice ending up in a moan.

It tickled more and more. The burning feeling kept arousing inside you. You wanted it to stop, yet you wanted him to exploit you more and make you explode.

He lowered your underwear. His frustration because of your clothes still covering parts of your body heated up.

You distanced from the corner of the bed. Kneeling at the center, you took out your clothes and opened your arms to welcome him in a hug.

“It’s embarassing to be the only one naked…”, you nagged as he laid you down and placing your legs on his shoulders, he kissed them from toe.

He noticed and leaving you be for a split of second he got completely naked.

“How long are you erected?”

His blushed face smiled paralyzed in the bliss.

“A lot...♪♪♪”

With no remorse, you touched his abds. Kissing him on the neck, you sucked up the spot. A reddish mark was left before his hot breath tickled your forehead.

You planted more kisses on his muscular upper body.

Should I do that?

You gulped and started moving your hand around his member. Looking carefully at his expressions, you continued to please his hidden spots while eleveting the rhythm.

His cum spilled on your chest.

“Sorry…”, he whispered and rested his head on your shoulder.

You patted his head. Curiosity took over you and you painted your finger with his fluids. Like icecream, you licked it.

“Why did you do that?”, he questioned.

“It’s hot… I feel turned on”, you let your mouth open in satisfaction.

“You are cheating!”

His words confused you.

With one move, he roughly threw you down. He dug one finger inside awaiting your reaction.

“I have masturbated before. I don’t feel something with only one finger”, you said blandly.

He dug two and before your adapting to the change, he leveled up the rhythm to the extreme. In and out, so quick, so soon, you could not tell even if a split of a second passed between them.

He got bored after your expression relaxed again.

Your legs were tangled around his neck. He knelt down. This time his tongue was hitting the corners of your insides.

You blocked your mouth from moaning.

You hated porn. Women were constantly moaning like cows to arouse their partners. The small true moans were covered by lies. Let’s not talk about the acting skills… As result, the expectations about sex were abnormal. Women should moan loudly for their partners.

You wouldn’t. You swore you wouldn’t fake it.

“Ahhh♪♪♪”, Ryi moaned after his tongue was filled with your cum. He raised his head. His pupils drown in orgasm were meeting yours.

He wanted you to cum more for him.

He wanted you to make him moan more.

-To be continued-

[coldvirginbitch]

•The following contains bullying and smut that may trigger the reader•

Warning: + 18

If you are a minor, please do not read!!! I am not responsible if you continue.

Please do not steal my work without credits

Sorry for the grammatical mistakes.

Let's begin｡

I swear I wasn’t planning to go to the prom - my last day as a student. But there would be free food so how could I miss that?

The lights were low giving off the vibe of a club. Or actually because the dancing floor was packed with people grouping and kissing their partner rather than dancing. Disgusting. In that situation you would never be noticed at the buffet.

“The food is good”, a boy said after swallowing a big bite. He was not that close to you but you both stood out with you faces towards the buffet and your backs to the dancing floor.

“I find comfort in loneliness. You are ostracized by your class. Don’t confuse things in an attempt to start a conversation with me.”

He looked down embarrassed and his dark hair hid his eyes.

The deafening music died down. The principal scuffed on the microphone with his cough to test if he was heard. An imbecile’s choice because everyone’s ears deafened.

“I welcome all classes of our high school. This night is special especially for the third. Their last day as students. After your hard work and with your fighting spirit not to give up…

And continue fucking in the gym’s closet

…and continue studying for your prominence, you finally achieved in finishing school.

Thankfully.

And now your roads are open to enter the university of your choice and structure your career. But we ought to applaud the best. To give hope and strength to the younger generations to follow the same footsteps. Someone who stood out this year with excellent marks at all subjects!”

What a lame speech.

“It will probably be Stephanie”, the boy beside me exhaled.

“Well, what did you expect, Rei?”

“You know my name?”, his eyes sparked in the dim light.

“Shut up”, you whispered.

“I would like for Y/n S/n to come up to the stage and receive her prize!”

“Am i delusional or I just heard my name?”

“I heard it too…”

“So you are also the delusional…”

“Miss Y/n?”

The dickhead did call me out.

Leaving Rei's side, you adapted your introvert self to look smooth as you ascended the stairs. To no avail, you tangled your hands after you arrived by the principal’s side. Timid as always in front of crowds, no- Anxious would be the correct word.

You shouldn’t look down but you didn’t feel like looking at your classmates. Your eyes moved towards the horizon. At the end of the gym, the door before freedom stood closed. You would gamble that a figure leaned on the wall beside it. Too occupied to bother, you eyed the principal waiting your award.

You just wanted to leave. Even if they were only whispers mixed together, you could feel the disappointment and the disapproval. Everyone wanted Stephanie to get the price and so you did, if you could escape this situation.

“Would you like to say something to your classmates?”

You pressed your lips together thinking how you should sound. Timid? Kind? Inspirational?

You always held back. Even if all that bullying went on and on, you didn’t react.

Fuck that.

Fuck the principal. Fuck my classmates. Fuck the school. Fuck everyone.

⇀ Fuck her ⁠↼

“A lot of people are against this outcome and would prefer this spot to be given to certain someone. But I say to all of you:

Knowledge is power.

The most knowledgeable is the most powerful.

I’m the one on the top of the pyramid.

Suck it up losers.”

Leaving the microphone to a baffled principle, you snatched the price and walked down dynamically. You gave a pat to Rei’s head and said “Good night” before moving towards the exit. However to your surprise the figure did exist.

He moved.

“I thought the whole school was full of pesticides but I was wrong…”, he grinned devilishly.

Shidou Ryusei.

A complete pain in the ass. No sign of self restrain. He could beat up everyone if they weren’t so scared of him. A bully to the weak but especially to those who acted mighty but were deep down double-faced cowards.

One step crashing the distance between us.

“Apologize to Stephanie”, her bestie and loyal puppet shouted at you. Followed by the most beautiful and popular at school, the Majestic Stephanie, along with her boyfriend.

“I will let it slide if you apolog-

“Shut up bitch or I will open your skull”, Shidou interrupted Stephanie.

The woman was too stunned to speak - this meme characterized her expression perfectly.

Her boyfriend as the strongest in basketball team got between them and threatened Shidou.

Not that smart...

Baseless rumors that a demon like him would never been shaken by.

One kick on the stomach and he slid down to the floor. The predator’s eyes traveled back to his target only to find her missing.

As the two girls helped the one on the ground get up and looked frightened at the blonde demon, a big smile appeared on his face.

He was more than satisfied.

!¡!¡

With small smoothing movements with no break, you slowly walked backward to avoid being noticed—one slow push of the door and kindly opening with the same slow rhythm not to creak. You finally exited.

One stop before leaving the school for good and for ever.

“I love my desk”, you exhaled laying your head on it and hugging it.

«Bitch-Slut-Disgusting» and the scratches on it went on. The only attachment was to the phrase «Hope you die» whenever your eyes traced it, you would think “Why wish something that is going to happen anyways?”.

Your heart tightened and you raised your head to rest your chin on your hand. Someone was near.

With a quick jump, more like that of a beast than a human, he landed on your desk. You were taken aback. Ready to push your chair back and get up, his legs trapped you on spot first. Unfortunately.

“You thrill me down to the core”, he announced like he was at the stage of orgasm.

“Why do I always attract the pervents?..”, your thought slid out of your tongue.

He grinned back living in his own ecstasy.

“When it comes to sex…”

He wants to have sex with me?

“…the better you understand the other person, the better it’ll feel”

You averted your eyes from his gaze and anxiously spotted his hands reaching you. He grabbed your palm and tangled it to his.

“Look carefully at their hand”

He then let go and caressed your cheek before touching your ear.

“Their ear…”

With his skin imprinted on your face, he traced down your lips. Touching them with his finger, he opened your mouth slightly.

Your heart skipped a bit. What did he try to accomplish?

“And let your finger be bitten by them…”

His finger had slid into your mouth. Unconsciously, you were taken over by the urge and stuck by his purple eyes, you bit it faintly.

“Harder”, he commanded with a severe tone.

You bit harder.

A fellow Chainsaw man fan.

“Let me go”, you stared at him ferociously.

“But-”, he whined childishly before you shushed his lips shut with your finger.

The beast was captivated by your sight.

“I only accept yes or woof for answers”

“Woof”, he answered back.

You raised up and put your hands on both sides of his body.

“Ryi…”, you whispered nearing him as close as kissing. That teasing combing with the playful cut of his name into a nickname only used by you was enough to excite him even more. “Tell me. Have you kissed someone before?”

He moved his head quickly left and right plenty of times in a row.

“Whenever you do, that’s how you should remember what your kisses taste like”, you took out of your pocket small balls of chocolate wrapped in colorful decorations.

You folded one open and threw it for him to catch.

“Memorize it”

You opened another one. He let his mouth wide open for you to let the piece in and so you did.

His lips touched yours. To your surprise, you gasped leaving yourself uncovered for him to slide the chocolate inside your mouth.

He let go and stared at you awaiting your reaction. You munched and swallowed the sweet.

“Thankfully your saliva didn’t intervene with the taste of chocolate”, you said blandly but he didn’t listen. He continued rubbing his face on your cheek.

“Tell me what you want me to do so I can ask anything from you...”

Like I would let that happen.

You freed him from his chains and moved your legs to exit the class.

“I am ready to come ⁠♡ ”, he opened his hands to welcome the arousal.

“Hold back your orgasm at school at least…”, you halted and turned back to him.

One jump and his face was over your because of your height difference.

(Author’s Note: I hope you're shorter than him)

“It’s past midnight. Rapists roam the streets. Will you return me back to my house?”, you looked up at him.

“But until your door. Afterward, you ought to make my request a reality!”

“What request?”

“Spend the night with me at my house”

“Why would I ask you to escort me to my house when I must come to yours? Futile effort…”

“It’s your choice to make. We can skip your house and go immediately to mine!”, he smiled devilishly yet again.

“I forgot your leash so I will allow it this time”, you offered your hand and he grabbed it.

Why did I imagine us walking together? He sped up and you breathed hard running as fast as possible.

“Slow down!”

“But I am not even running!”, he turned his head to you as you descended the stairs together.

I can tell, this night will be unforgettable. In the worst way possible. For who I cannot tell yet.

-To be continued-

[coldvirginbitch]

When your teacher says that football is a sport about teamwork and friendship and all you think at that moment is egoism and the survival instinct during the match...

Blue Lock has officially brainwashed me! And I love it!

[coldvirginbitch]

It's sad when you get obsessed over a character and you wish to read a smut. Not to fantasize yourself with them necessarily but see the capacity of the fandom to create sexual fanfictions about them. That's what I need!

P.S. If I get enough votes, I will write a shidou x fem!readef smut