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01/07/2023

Gonna go back to using this as a personal journal to help me keep track of my headspace these next few months

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I often stay up at night contemplating what people would do or how they would react if I killed myself. I’ve always felt so out of place and numb to everything around me.. what makes me feel alive I can’t have. What do you do when you avoid all mirrors and reflections of yourself? When you hate the sound of your voice or any pictures taken of you? What do you do when you genuinely just hate everything about who you are? I need help.....

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Can’t be around people who say “that’s just the way I am” to avoid growth. Why limit yourself when you can evolve and get better.

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not ok

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anyway

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Listen to this

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happy

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“i broke my rules for you.”

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you know someone loves you when they’re willing to be alone for you

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Everything i loved became everything i lost.