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Tinder profile: “values eye contact”

Me: *autistic panic*

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I hate how much I wanna kiss her 🥺

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This really aged well. Guess the vote blue no matter who bots are gonna support the genocider in chief. Don’t you know, Palestinian babies are Hamas?

I wish biden would just fucking die already. I hate having to wish death on boomers because they won’t fucking retire.

right now it’s almost halfway through 2023, and 2024 is an election year in the US. I have started to see a growing proliferation of posts suggesting that there is no difference between the republican and democratic parties–the exact same kind of posts I saw an awful lot of before the last major election here. I am unfollowing folks who post or reblog these sort of posts, as I consider these posts to be fascist propaganda framed as leftist discourse, designed to suppress anti-fascist votes and voters. 

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I once again destroyed a friendship by committing the mortal sin of probably being autistic 😞

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When u go to meet a girl and she’s making out with another girl 😬

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Hmm

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I’ve kinda realized over the past few months that I’m probably autistic… and today is just another day of me being reminded how much I’m the odd one out. Started a new job after crashing and burning at my last one (and now at 34 I’m back to making just above minimum wage 😞) and already everyone pretty much hates me even though I’ve only been here for a week…

I’m bad at making small talk and nobody wants to hear about my special interests. Literally just got told to stfu. Maybe one day the despair will end…

I think my ketamine needs to be upped because I still care too much and want to cry from the endless rejection.

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People be like yOu NeEd HeLp YoU nEeD tO wOrK oN yOuRsElF… ok how??? Howwww???? I can’t get health insurance, I’m broke, and the “help” is chemically beating me into submission to serve capitalism better and be more profitable.

I’ve been living with complex trauma shit for years and nothing has ever helped. I’m exhausted. I’m just done. There’s no help, the cruelty and suffering are the point.

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So fucking depressed and suicidal. Nobody is going to love a miserable and angry person and I can’t exist in any other reality because of neurodivergence.

I just wish I could die already. Life isn’t worth living anymore for me.

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I wish we could get this collapse shit over with so I can die already… still suicidal, still neurodivergent, still living in a world that hates me and abuses me. I’m so tired of living.

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NO. I’m going to be voting for cornel west and the democrats and their braindead apologists can suck my fucking silicone dick. I’m sick of being held hostage by capitalists who use and abuse me and couldn’t give a flying fuck about me, all they want is my money and my vote so they can stab me in the back and enact the same fucking policies as republicans would.

You had FIFTY MOTHERFUCKING YEARS to make roe v Wade law and instead y’all fundraised off it crying wolf the whole time. Fuck you. The democrats are also a fascist party, because capitalism in decay IS FASCISM.

Can’t wait to be blamed yet again for the failures of democrats. Instead of running a YOUNG person who works to meet the needs of the electorate they block any primary challenge and instead force this demented dinosaur who caused this mess onto us?! He voted to make student loans inedible to be discharged in bankruptcy. He voted for the 1994 crime bill. He voted for the Iraq war. He’s been in office for like 50 fucking years and I’m sick and tired of neoliberal bullshit and shaming anyone who dares to criticize the democrat PLANTATION.

Oh and obligatory FUCK REPUBLICANS as well. Stop fucking blaming me for your own fucking ineptitude. You EARN my vote you are not ENTITLED to it.

Holding me HOSTAGE is not a fucking flex dipshits.

right now it’s almost halfway through 2023, and 2024 is an election year in the US. I have started to see a growing proliferation of posts suggesting that there is no difference between the republican and democratic parties–the exact same kind of posts I saw an awful lot of before the last major election here. I am unfollowing folks who post or reblog these sort of posts, as I consider these posts to be fascist propaganda framed as leftist discourse, designed to suppress anti-fascist votes and voters. 

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I wish I had the guts to kill myself… I feel so hopeless

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Nothing quite like the high of feeling an imminent grippy socks vacation in your future 🤪

I keep reminding myself that capitalism has decided that I hold no value and shouldn’t exist because I’m a burden… never good enough… too neurodivergent, too much and not enough at the same damn time. I’m 34, been working for 21 years, never been able to hold a full time job for more than a year, hell, lucky if I make it six months.

The ONLY thing that’s keeping me going right now is fantasizing ways to destroy capitalism, preferably with my bare hands.

Those 8 white men who own more wealth than the rest of the human population have names and addresses. I think more of them need to go explore the titanic…

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Anddddd I lost my job, thanks neurodivergence it’s been real

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Anxiety and loneliness thru the roof 😢

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sure she’s evil but look at those tits