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Campal isn't problematic because they're second cousins or Necro-Cav. It's problematic because Camilla is three months older

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She's here, she's queer, she's ready to wreck your shit 🖤🗡

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i miss her like a mf...🚬

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kachow

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Nona's birthday 🐩🐕🐕‍🦺

Commission for @bensavagae

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picturing griddlehark college/otherwise normal aus is so fucking funny. like. you meet this lesbian couple, right. one of them is on a full sports scholarship, she's big, beefy, a little lacking in social skills but obviously happy to try. she swears every other sentence, has a poster of megan fox in transformers in her bedroom like a 13 year old boy. she's got an anime girl phone background. she wears a black choker all the time which does NOT match her otherwise purely sun's-out-guns-out-paired-with-cargo-shorts type wardrobe.

the other one is a full head shorter than her and shaped like a stick, wears exclusively big, shapeless cardigans and skirts that reach her ankles, will not speak to anyone but the beefcake in full sentences if she can avoid it, and visibly has not slept in a week. the one time you convince her to speak, she ends up insulting you in the most unnecessarily graphic and specific terms you have ever heard, gives you a look which singlehandedly curdles every ounce of self-esteem you've ever possessed, and immediately returns her attention to studying.

one day, you finally work up the courage to ask how the fuck they met and why they're dating. they tell you that they both grew up in a small-town christian cult which the stick figure's parents actually led, beat the shit out of each other daily for their entire childhoods, and finally resolved their differences in their late teens and immediately ran away together. the stick figure twitches up a sleeve of her oversize black cardigan to reveal a bracelet made of the beefcake's baby teeth that she personally knocked out of her skull. the beefcake smiles at her like this is the height of romance. the only issue they will acknowledge in their relationship is that when she was little, the stick figure fell madly in love with a painting of the virgin mary and has never quite recovered. they've been married for 3 years. they are 20 years old.

also the beefcake wears the choker because the stick figure said "no" to dog collars in public.

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What's cool about Gideon I think is that she's actually, in-universe non-conforming, rather than just being "butch" or "masc" to our sensibilities but relatively passé within the universe. We read Gideon as masculine, yes, but it's not like Gideon acts like Ortus, or Mortus, or Crux. Nor does she act like Aiglamene, for that matter. The Ninth to me presents a kind of monastic androgyny - everyone shaves their head, everyone wears baggy black robes, everyone paints their face. Gideon, with her "ridiculous" hair and aversion to skull paint, is therefore non-conforming to the gender of Ninth. She's also non-conforming to the gender of cavalier, it's not something she was raised in, it's something she struggles to "pass" as. Gideon is basically transcavalier. And I think that's cool! I've seen a lot of people posit basically "what would it even mean to be 'butch' in a post-gender society" and I think Gideon solves that equation nicely by being "butch" to us in the real world and being decidedly nonstandard for both Ninth cavalier and a cavalier in general within the text. You need to look beyond what we consider arbitrarily "masculine" and "feminine" in order to effectively analyze gender in tlt, and I for one think that's very interesting

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Gideon Nav somehow has a 20 perception and a 6 insight and idk how she did that but God she notices everything and interprets it entirely wrong every time

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Paul The Apostle (Redux)

Update of an old illustration I did of Paul from 2022

love never fails. but where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

Saint Paul, First Corinthians 13:8

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i’d say “sorry for swinging a bat at the hornet’s nest,” but i’m not, actually! it’s been almost five years since harrow the ninth was released, and i STILL see people insist that harrow isn’t schizophrenic; she’s just being haunted. fandom takes representation of an intensely stigmatized mental illness (that the author candidly says she has!) and ignores it!!!

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jodybeth for @thelockedtombcfp !!

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“She said, Did you know? Every birthday we got to have one person we’d invite and our mother and father would invite the rest, and Ianthe always invited whoever Babs didn’t want to see at the time, and I always invited you.

I said, I assumed your parents made me the invitation.

She said, it was always me.”

(brb going insane over As Yet Unsent bc I can’t resist doomed yuri)

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Happy pride month everyone! Here's some silly gh drawings to celebrate (vague college au?)

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as if you actually were inside a saltwater room

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is this anything

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Poor harrow

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solidarity with osha. i love a good railing