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Redraw of an old comic to celebrate 3K followers on twitter!

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being happy and feeling alive requires some imagination... and it really does mean noticing the little things in life too

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krusie making me recover a niche (josuyasu type) I thought I had lost... reconnecting to my past... with what I've learned recently, it could be interesting to shed more wisdom on it. maybe turn it into something fictionally creative, or even something non-fictionally creative.

something to think about tomorrow, goodnight

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currently watching resident alien. i think i like it. it’s not like i’m dying of laughter or enamoured with the drama or the characters; it’s not why i like it. i just really enjoy it when alan tudyk does something unbelievably weird and other characters take him seriously anyway. like he says something weird but people ignore the weirdness and take his medical advice. he does something bad cuz he didn’t realise he wasn’t supposed to do that and they hold him accountable for it. his laugh is SO fake but they let him pretend and act like nothing’s wrong. idk it’s so comforting. they acknowledge his weirdness but don’t dehumanise or infantilise him for it. i only watch it for how good this makes me feel (and for alan tudyk cuz i saw him in firefly in 2018 and missed him ever since)

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having deltarune thoughts

relationship dynamics

my understanding is that kris and susie are good friends and have a bromance (which I love)

noelle and susie like each other romantically but aren't close enough yet

ralsei likes the player romantically, and likes everyone else as a friend, but he's insecure, keeps secrets (likely the same as kris but also why is he asriel), mainly puts up a nice front (I don't doubt he's genuinely kind, but it's a character trait that kris and susie don't inherently gel with)

kris doesn't like ralsei, and I think it's because of ^ That, but also I imagine meeting some stranger who resembles your absent brother but even less relatable would not be very appealing for you, on top of ralsei having a crush on the player. which, personally, if I was kris, would make me sooo uncomfortable

kris and susie have amazing chemistry because they're so similar. they're the same kind of "monster" inside, even if kris is biologically human (and is struggling with the whole soul thing rn) ... monster is an allegory for being an outcast

noelle knows the past kris. that was 100% kris, but also kris before trauma and adolescence. kris, as a kid, sometimes scared or played pranks on noelle, and kris likely felt bad about this at some point. kris and noelle care about each other genuinely as close friends, and I do think kris had/has a crush on noelle that they can't pursue because they don't gel together with noelle in a way that lets kris truly express themself around noelle without inhibitions and fear. but kris feels that way around susie

susie knows both the real kris and the kris under the player's control. therefore kris is always comfortable around susie.

ralsei, as stated, has feelings for the player, which is like the opposite of noelle's perspective. both ralsei and noelle are kind and can incite pity if they are hurt. especially considering the circumstances with the ralsei x player thing and the snowgrave route thing. not fun

oh and sorry for the lack of suselle thoughts. i liked them first before i liked krusie. it's good yuri. but i do think it's in a typical early stage therefore we can't be sure of where it goes. but i sure am enjoying every second of it!!! krusie makes me feel fulfilled, but suselle makes me feel more excited and uneasy. it's a good roster. i like the canon as-is and i think i understand kris' perspective pretty well right now, and funny i think i share their feelings on all of the characters now too...

the player's control of kris as an allegory for depersonalization/repression due to trauma

i have a personal reading that the whole soul/kris rivalry thing is an allegory for depersonalization and masking out of fear of hurting others (particularly noelle). following the absence of kris' older brother asriel, and the divorce of kris' parents, and kris' closest friend noelle being unsuited to kris' "wild" personality... it's no wonder such a thing could happen honestly, I've been there

also, some theorize that the need for escapism is why kris opened the first fountain. i like that idea too, because when you need to cope it usually manifests in multiple things, not just one (so, depersonalization, dissociation, and escapism)

i just think the first impression the player had of kris in ch1 being "that's chara!!!111" fits in with the whole narrative that kris sees themself as capable of monstrous actions.

unlike frisk who is more submissive to your will and subjective in identity depending on your actions, kris already has a stable identity and friendships in deltarune before we possess them. therefore kris has a degree of separation between their actions and their true desires. and their perception of themself changes. the dressing up as a devil as a kid likely plays into this.

i also think escapism and depersonalization is a common thing for people who identify as therian/furry, which kris seems to be. and is another reason why kris gets along with susie. they're both animalistic and uninhibited when they are comfortable

the player's experience differs fundamentally from kris', since we are separate entities... however. i think a reading of the soul as allegorically also kris and just a metaphor for depersonalization or denial of self is also valid. i don't think it means you can say kris would actually do that stuff, but hey maybe they would if they were going through a difficult time and dissociating. maybe they would put the thornring on if they thought hurting noelle anytime they get close to her is inevitable. maybe they do have an investment in escapism. maybe it's destructive ("genocidal") in a way. the monstrous behavior

it's not a happy thought that the situations and people kris finds themself in/around could influence them to be in that moment a better or worse person depending on the perspective. but for many people it does feel like that, if not all people who hold an insecurity about their identity. especially young people with trauma, which applies to kris.

but the option of choice, even if it changes nothing, is still proof of free will. idc if theres a prophecy on what will happen, bc you can choose for kris to be happy and do good things. :)

appreciation

i'm becoming really fond of dr. it's nostalgia for ut but also for my real life. not just my youth at the time when i was interested in ut, or the memories i made associated, or what the places in utdr remind me of... but the characterizations and depictions and themes in dr feels so genuinely relatable. it actually feels like a projection of any time i have wanted to make a story based on my friendships, especially online ones (the dark world feels like playing an mmo or roleplay with friends hehe) i treasure this media for this reason

its funny because I felt like I didn't "get" the recent chapters until someone explained to me the overarching narrative. and then I instantly understood. it was a very rich explanation that I hadn't seen anywhere online. I like that this game somehow got me to talk about it hahaha. both ut and dr have a great "social life" theme. and it got me to integrate it into my social life; the value of my experience with the game was improved by other fans. the "Indie Game makes you Feel Things for fictional videogame characters" classic. i do really love media that makes you softer and more empathetic and hopeful while still somehow kicking ass

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damn that's real

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those new angel designs (polyester and polyurethane) fit so well into paswg. because they're cocky twinky boy idols. but also because it's totally something I would design (mostly by the haircuts and color palette, not inherently the idol premise) back when I watched paswg in 2016. It also reminds me of how I used to imagine male idols in splatoon before splatoon 3 dropped

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someone has likely done this already but here's the full bodies of both polyester & polyurethane straight from the trailer & a gif of them too

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"madocta" dump

Nocta (green) & Madoct (blonde), sonas I drew for my friend and I in 2021.

Nocta is based on Yugioh, Zoro Roronoa, etc.

Madoct is based on Power, Denji & Gyro Zeppeli

^ The sun/moon (or eclipse) motif is based on our astrological moons or whatever. I'm Pisces and they are Virgo

^ Traffic Jam outfits

^ Alt designs, prototypes...

bonus: various art where I used direct quotes from my chats w this same friend

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i am 100% confident that the greatest game ever written is currently in the itch.io yuri tag, currently sitting at a 3.5 star rating, waiting to be found

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at least the colour green exists

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Ethos (fka f.e/fractal-everything) and Molly dump

disturbing imagery / gore

^ Ethos

^ Ethos and Molly interacting

^ Molly

^ here Ethos looks the most Laithies-esque, so...

it would be at that point in time

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Laithies / JSSH dump (incl. Clara, Aurena, Solippse)

BODY HORROR + BLOOD + EYE GORE

^ Solippse, Clara, Laithies, Aurena (in that order)

^ Laithies doing his thing

^ intro; Aurena wakes up as an undead and meets Solippse

^ Clara

^ mysterious codependency/abuse power dynamic (priest x zombie) triangle. clara is excluded which is why she can become an angel and be free of this Hellish realm

Aurena knew Laithies when they were both human, but since Aurena was too much of a weak link for Laithies' life of devotion to the "Church" (evil space parasites) Laithies was ordered to kill & sacrifice him (I drew him doing this but I need to fix it before posting)

A parasite (they operate on a hivemind, presumably) in Laithies' brain which is why it spills out and mutates- it grows bigger and bigger because it is now connected to a realm of infinity. based on Cosmo from Chainsaw Man part 1 btw

Laithies is mostly based on Griffith and Kai Dorohedoro so that may make sense in context of this if you have extensive knowledge of those characters

The overgrown brain design is called the Rosehead event, I think it would happen after Laithies kills Solippse and loses his last thread of a grasp on human sentimentality and desire

Solippse was a close follower of Laithies before, kind of like Dokuga to Kai. Solippse is more helpless and depersonalized due to brain damage, which leads to them having a lack of regard for themselves. Both Laithies and Solippse struggle with a selflessness / selfishness paradox

general oc timeline spoilery lore

JSSH is the era after city era when Protagon awakens Laithies. Laithies ("Church" ; cult brainwashing) & Feldemo ("Entertainment" ; capitalism) rival monopolizing the city (& world) for a while, until Laithies wins and kills Feldemo. That leads to an apocalyptic world where almost all people left are cast narratively as violent monsters.

Petrified Love (working title) is my RPGmaker story idea where you play as a petrified human and spectate the drama between female Gorgons. Humans would be turned into statues, turned into monsters, or eaten. *Death by other means is possible but rarely fully eradicates someone in my universe

That story takes place in that apocalyptic time period.

After the apocalypse, there would be something like the end of that comic happening again. And it would repeat, like a cycle. Ethos* is Laithies

*and Protagon, in a sense. And maybe a few others like Em, but more illegitimately; through cloning/splicing

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rinny (fka fiddich) & ronny dump. i see them as twin sisters currently. also similar to solippse from jssh

here's ronny and other city gang members

fiddich rinny time (suggestive)

all 3 of these characters r kinda inspired by that cover art for csh cute thing;

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oc world / misc

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hourly comic 2023