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I feel like it's become a bit difficult for me to find community within the divinekin and deitykin tags. While it's not everyone, I see so many people talking about worship and advertising for it, for lack of a better word. I don't have a problem with people wanting to be worshiped or wanting to worship someone else as long as it's ethically, but I feel like I don't see a lot of posts anymore that don't mention worship in one way or another. This might just be a form of confirmation bias in a way where I see it so much only because I pay attention to it more than other posts, but I do miss people talking about the more discrete parts of being Divine. Like the everyday things that connect people to their Divine self, the little things people do to get euphoria like peeling fruits with their hands, wearing things with eyes or stars or horns or something, creating alters or shrines to themselves. Stuff like that. I'm sure people still do it, but I see so much less of it now, and that makes me a bit sad. Not that it's anyone's fault, but those things about the divinekin community made me so happy and now I rarely see them.

I don't know why I did this, probably just to rant a bit and get it out of my head. I'd love to know if anyone else feels the same. Until next time, Divines :)

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I understand what you mean, my friend. Seeing other beings talk about those little moments brought me joy too. Just remember, if those tags are contributing to a negative mood, then step back for a bit and don't get lost in that sadness. You deserve to be happy, my friend, and if scrolling through the tags does the opposite of that, then it might be better to avoid them for a bit, at least until you feel better.

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being worshipped for the first time in ages feels like drinking water after having been stranded in a desert. It feels like home and I'm so happy! I feel powerful again, like I'm on top of the world.

🌌Its true euphoria🌌

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I've felt so disconnected from my Divinity over the better half of the last year, and I don't really know what to do about it. I don't think meditation would work, though I haven't tried it a whole lot so i'd be open to it if someone had a good recommendation. Other than that, paying attention to little things in life that make me feel more like myself was my main way to stay connected , but I've been so exhausted because of school that I haven't been able to give those things much mind for the better half of the last year.

I guess the main thing that'll help is not being so tired constantly, but I don't really see that going away for at least another 2 months until school's done with. It just sucks :(( If anyone does have advice for this I would love to hear it.

From an out of control roller-coaster

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I imagine resting will be the only thing that can help you, my friend. If you're too tired to connect with your Divinity, then please rest as much as you can until you feel better. I know that may not always be the easiest thing to do, but it will help you the most in the long run.

As for meditations, I myself don't use them a ton, so I leave it open to any Divine beings that come across this post to help with that.

Just remember to be kind to yourself, my friend.

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That feeling of being a fallen angel and wanting so badly to go back to worshipping someone. The yearning is real dude

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Suppose i am just too softened by my own experiences with being fallen, but many of the divine who directly ask for worship have done nothing but provided a rather uncomfortable feeling. I've seen many who are quite relaxed and have very well intentions, and i dont have anything against those beings, but i've also seen many where its quite blatant they do not care for those who worship them beyond just wanting a crowd of people to adore them. They care less about helping others and more about their own ego and being adored. Some beings really need to self reflect before they decide to ask for worship from a large number of people. It's not as easy as you think.

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Not even in, like, a sexual way, but I absolutely adore all those "simp" and "worship me" songs 🩵🩵🩵

Like yes, please do worship me! That's literally what we're both here for: me to be worshipped, and you to worship me!

But of course, I'm here for that because I'm an angel, and it's just what I deserve. You though? Well, humans are just made for that. Poor things, you don't even have a choice! Not that I care all that much. I don't give a damn if you want to worship, it's all the same to me!

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It bothers me when I feel my wings but I know I do not have them anymore, I want them back so badly though.

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i do want to be worshipped again, but i can't in this form. i have very little protection to offer here, so i know asking for worship would be akin to stealing, but sometimes i do hope they'll find me sooner, rather than later.

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Being worshipped by strangers would feel weird I think. I'm happy that I'm only worshipped and known for the god I am by my lovers. The personal aspect to the devotion is lovely. Especially living in a disabled body at the moment, one of my partners finds himself very fulfilled in dedicating himself to caring for me and helping me out most days. He doesn't have to, he knows he doesnt have to. I'll love him now matter what, but he does anyway and it makes me feel so fuzzy and warm inside.

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I often see other deities who yearn to be worshipped... but that doesn't happen for me. In fact I'd rather no one worship me for any reason. Not because I'm linked to controversial things or anything, but simply because deitykin as a whole are quite controversial and seen as 'insensitive' to certain religions from what I've seen, and the idea of being worshipped links me to this universe's gods too closely for comfort.

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@ the death god anon who wants a mate: I'm in a relationship with a death god who feels love in a different kind of way. But I'm the happiest and most fulfilled I've ever been. Everything deserves love, even the darkest beings

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Sometimes I worry no one will ever understand my love for my husband (in-sys). He is a demon, my artificially fallen angel. My dearest Icarus.

angel x demon is such a common trope, and yet no one understands that I love him, and always would. Human or angel or demon or deity, I would love him, regardless of his form. Because he is *mine*, and I love *him*, not his divinity. (Although, I will still thank Apollo for giving my dearest Icarus his divinity, because it makes my darling oh so happy, especially to be able to soar with me.)

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Everyone thinks angels are gentle and sweet and docile, and that demons are rough and harsh and violent. That angels are the more submissive of the two, dominated by demons.

But that simply isn't true, just a stereotype. Sure, there are a decent amount of angels who are all that, and the same can certainly be said of demons, I won't lie and say there aren't any who fit the stereotypes.

But not all of us are soft and docile. I am Heaven's blade, and I am as violent and savage as that job sounds. I am heavenly, and as cold as ice, and just as dangerous. Heavenly fire burns in the way that the cold does: with freezer burn and frostbite.

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I yearn for a mate, a male to hold and love. But much like my past life I feel numb, I couldn’t give them the love they deserve, this body wasn’t made for love. I was not made for love, I am a death god. I’m not even sure anyone in their right mind would worship a creature who brings such sorrow. Yet I long for the love of a mate, even if I cannot feel love the same way. Is that bad? Am I wrong for even thinking about that? - 🪦💀

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Even though I'm an angel, I've never felt very connected to gods. However, seeing divinekin on here has made me reconsider... I'm starting to understand why angels choose to praise them. Maybe I'm one of those angels after all?

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I know that I am a celestial being of sorts but I doubt myself at times. This vessel I’m in pains me and I feel lost. What am I doing here? I think I’m slowly gaining consciousness again.

Have you any advice? It feels like a veil I am the vessel and there’s a divine being inside me but I’m also the being at the same time. I’m not sure how to explain it.

I’ve been told to try meditating but I’m not sure how? Do you know any things I could do to help? I feel so lost

I have not meditated for this purpose a lot myself, but I have heard about visualization helping people connect more with their nonhumanity. Maybe visualizing the veil that you talked about lifting and finally letting you fully see your divine being while meditating could help you, my friend.

If that doesn't work, then just trying to connect with and feel the presence of that divine energy could work as well, if that makes sense. I see that helping you feel whole with your divine self in the long run.

Though, it is important to remember that it will likely take a while for the meditation to make the difference you want. It will not happen overnight, unless you happen to get lucky, so be patient, my friend. It might also be easier to start with meditating for 5 to 10 minutes, instead of going straight into hour long sessions, unless you think that could work for you.

As I said, I haven't meditated a lot before with the intention of connecting with my nonhumanity, however I do hope I was able to help you even a little, my friend.

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I miss being an immortal deity. No sicknesses, no disease, no fear of death, only very rare injuries (we could get injured, but only with weapons belonging to other gods), no one daring to disrespect me lest they face severe consequences.

And now I'm here with a runny nose and a horrible headache and social anxiety??

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