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i love photoshoot full body photos of Vessel, bc he always just stands there like🧍‍♂️and looks photoshopped in. i mean, look at him:

he is so awkward, i love him sm! ♡

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Having an abusive parent is kinda funny in retrospect like mommy why do you have beef with me im 4 i love you

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I love you artists. I love you fanfic authors. I love you crafters. I love you people who create with your craft of choice. I cherish what you do.

I saw so many people in the tags of a post saying “no one reblogs my stuff” and it broke my heart!

I WILL! I WILL REBLOG YOUR STUFF! I LOVE THAT YOU CREATE! PLEASE KEEP CREATING! IT IS WHAT GIVES US ALL LIFE! THE DESIRE AND LOVE OF A CRAFT AND TO SHARE IT WITH OTHERS! THAT IS WHAT LOVE IS!

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God betraying me blooper reel

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I told my friend about how much Goncharov 1973 has affected me, becoming my favourite movie, and she tried to search it up online. Then, all confused came back to me, asking why isn’t she finding it anywhere, and I think we need to adress this matter.

Goncharov is, despite all criticism, a queer piece of media. Not only that, but it has Russian queer characters, set in a yet Sovietic time-frame.

We all know the tensions between the East and the West during that time, screw it, the tensions are still alive even now. All the “homo propaganda” that Russia tries to silence and ridicule and blame on the West for all its gay people. And sadly, Goncharov 1973, is maybe one if its biggest victim.

Until just a few days, if you searched online Goncharov 1973 dir. Martin Scorsese you would have found nothing. The entire movie was removed from history, all scenes burned and all posters ripped due to the Soviet Union’s pressure for it to be deleted.

[ID a screenshot of a french market application where a rare version of Goncharov is being sold at an overpriced price (150€ when the original price was 15€).

Translation: “Collector version of Martin Scorsese’s 1973 mafia movie.

No more in market, thus the price (not debatable, i won’t answer foolish proposals)

Can be passed in hand in Lile (France) or sent with care” End ID]

Source

Thus the only sources were the limited physical copies created during the short time it was available for sale.

This proves the recent analysis (here too), that men have a hard time escaping the violent environment they were set in, that that’s how it must be. All the queer tendencies having to be silenced because it’s an anomaly (we’ve all seen the goncharov x andrey scenes, idc how you can say they’re just partners in crime, there’s definitely more) or how women must, despite their own preferences, stand next to a man. How their worth is based solely on their support to another man, unable to chose their own life path (the katya and sofia scenes touched me more than almost any GLs i might have read fr).

The movie did mock these stereotypes, that’s why it rubbed the Soviet Union the wrong way and it stirred such a controversy.

But in the end, the ones who suffer the most are the queer people from there. Just because they don’t have a voice anymore it doesn’t mean there never existed, or still exist, queer people in Russia. Just open a history book my friend, there are endless examples: Tchaikovsky was a gay man who is thought to have been assassinated because of his orientation. [ID a famous picture of Piotr Tchaikovsky next to Iosif Kotek, said to be the composer’s partner End ID]

Konstantin Somov, whose connection with Methodiy is said to be just “friendship” despite his writings in his journal. [ID a painting done by Konstantin Somov depicting Methodiy Lukyanov in PJs, said to be the “one who loved Somov the most” as Somov wrote End ID]

Rudolf Nureyev, bisexual, who was even expulsed from the Soviet Union during that time and who was never able to see his mother until the moment she died… [ID a portrait of the famous Russian ballet dancer, Rudolf Nureyev, who was in a long term relationship with Danish ballet dancer Erik Bruhn, until the latter’s death End ID]

They existed, they exist. They people who suffer the most. Stop silencing queer media and queer people! It is important…

Let’s spam Goncharov everywhere. Goncharov and Andrey and Katya and Sofia. They are all valid. Let’s not leave their story fade in vain.

UPDATE: I have found a reliable site where you can watch Goncharov (1973) for free.

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No, but you actually do need to be someone's priority. You do need to be chosen. You do need someone to intentionally make time for you. You do need someone to care about what you want and need, and be willing and wanting to meet those wants and needs. This is what relationships are for. This is why we exist: to provide and care for each other.

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guardian angels are born from tragedy.

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Thankssss! This night i've been vibing to Bosquito - "Întuneric în culori" and a lot more songs from bosquito, it's awesome i recommend

Song you’re vibing to right know. I’ll go first.

Rolling in the deep (Adele)

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