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connor->veronica💗: you may have mentioned it and im so glad to hear its not just me. connor->veronica💗: lol oh you'll easily get me distracted. i could talk to and about you forever.

veronica 🠮 connor💗: awww, have i ever told you that you make my heart melt? veronica 🠮 connor💗: ohhh you shouldn't have shared your weakness with me. i'm going to have to get you into a yap session now.

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Connor puts the previous feelings of their conversation on pause in the back of his mind as he gives his sister all his attention. Listening to her, understanding her to a point. Specially now that the woman he had ever felt this deeply for had been turned and that future chance stollen from her. "Because life is crap and the worst things happen to the people who least deserve it. I've already told Dad this so, you wouldn't be crushing him to mention it. But yeah, he got a son. A son that got kidnapped at a couple months old by a lunatic and raised in the Quor'toth.. the darkest of the hell dimensions. So it's not like it was a happy experience." He offers with a shrug. The young man had made such improvements since he first got out of that realm. "Cute, sis." Connor says with an unamused tone. "Don't change the subject when you're opening up with me here."

"Because I'm trying to understand." She snapped. "Do you know what it's like, seeing him get the chance to have a family when it's something Spike and I can only dream of? Especially after everything he did." She placed a hand over her unbeating heart. "It's like a knife. Why him?" It wasn't fair, but things rarely were in her life. "The destroyer? I'm quaking in my boots." She shrugged. "I'm not regularly tuned in to the Connor Cable Channel, but it's love, isn't it? It always is."

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connor->veronica💗: im so glad. ive seen what my dad has gone through and thats not something you deserve. connor->veronica💗: i don't know about that, my mom was faster than my dad and i do take after her with that. my problem will be talking too much and getting distracted. 😂

veronica 🠮 connor💗: you don't have to worry about that. my soul is totally in tact. veronica 🠮 connor💗: you may be a better tracker, but i bet i'm faster so good luck handsome. 😉

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connor->veronica💗: the ones i'm used to, they lose their soul. i'm so thankful that didn't happen to you. connor->veronica💗: oh bring it on lodge. 😉 im a master tracker too. only benefits of growing up in a hell dimension.

veronica 🠮 connor💗: don't be sorry. this sucks all around. i don't think there was any right or wrong way to react and feel about it. veronica 🠮 connor💗: only if you want me to kick your ass 😉

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connor->veronica: I know, I'm sorry if my reaction was too strong. connor->veronica: Vampires are a bit different back home.. I guess it just worried me. connor->veronica: But you're still you and I know we can handle anything together. connor->veronica: Wanna race? 😉

MEME CLEANOUT!!

@connor-a-reilly asked: [ TXT ] : you are always going to be my priority. (Connor to Veronica)

veronica 🠮 connor💗: i really appreciate you for that. veronica 🠮 connor💗: i just don't want you to be super wrapped up in the fact i'm a vampire now. because i promise i'll be okay in the end.

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"You really are desperate for chaos, aren't you? Looking for it where it you can't find it." Connor says with a roll of his eyes. He figured, the more he just avoided the topic or acted like it wasn't a problem, she'd eventually give up. If he did inherit anything from Darla, it was being good at pulling off a convincing act. "Oh, I hit a nerve." He responds with a bit of a chuckle while being unconcerned about her expression or closeness. "Don't give it if you can't take it too, sis." Connor did have a slight urge to get even and go so far as to say that Spike had a thing for Buffy in his time; but he wasn't going to put Buffy at risk. "Searching for forgiveness is painful and exhausting, but it's worth it. I've gone through my own, just not as verbally as Dad has."

"Fine for now. Obviously it's another story once she finds out about you. Bit young to be a stepmother for such a... strapping young lad." Dru hummed. What she would give to be a fly on the wall for that conversation between Angel and Buffy. Her expression darkened at Connor's next words. "What did you just say?" She took a step closer. "Spike doesn't have their soul. They'd never want it." Hadn't Buffy tried this line of conversation with her before? "I don't know what happened where you're from, brother, but my Spike — the one who is here, is perfectly content without their soul, as am I. Dear old dad's the only one who got cursed for being too naughty. Sloppy work, really. But all his boohooing is tiresome. Forgiveness this, forgiveness that... give me a fucking break."

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[ TXT ]  :   do i sense sarcasm in your tone? (Angel x Connor)

Connor->Dad: 😄 dad, come on, you can't get my sarcasm in person.

Connor->Dad: But no, I'm serious. I couldn't have gotten a better Dad.

Connor->Dad: You're doing great. Have more confidence in yourself, old man.👴

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"If you didn't care than why talk to me at all?" Connor asks with furrowed brows. When she teased him about having some fight in him, he coldly chuckled before looking over to her. "I didn't earn the title the destroyer for nothing." He responds before nodding. "So you're a psychic. You should already know why I'm angry then." The young man was tempted to argue the difference between Angel and Angelus, but chose not to. Dru was annoying and soulless but Connor still had respect for her as a sister.

"No, I don't. Nor do I care to." It still bitterly stung that Angel and Darla had been able to have a child, something Dru and Spike could only dream of. And it seemed as if she'd be constantly running into her brother in a city of millions. It wasn't fair. "There's fight in you." She laughed. "Mmm, I'll find out soon enough, I have my ways, Connor. I see what's to come, when the stars wish me to. I saw my beloved Spike before we met, I saw dear old dad... couldn't stop what he was to do. Think I should have been Cassandra and not Drusilla."

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Connor heard her teasing tone but could tell the way she was holding onto him that it was probably true. He continues to hold her and be sweetly loving, hoping she would let at least a little of her pain out. The man knew all too well how holding onto pain can poison you. When he feels her grip tighter he in turn, hold her more securely as one hand softly rubs her upper back. "I've never met anyone like you before. I adore you more than I know how to say." He was fully devoted to her at this point and would do nearly anything to help her. "It isn't fair at all and I hate your sire with everything in me. Let it out, hold as tight as you need to. Letting it out doesn't mean you're losing control. With me you'll always have your strength." He says hoping he made sense as he continues to hold her and places a long, soft kiss upon the side of her head.

the second his arms wrapped around her and held her closed she wrapped her arms around him in return, resting her forehead against him. she didn't truly knw how much she needed this until they were in the moment. this alone almost brought her to tears. "stop it or it's going to be right now," she tried to tease but it was true. this whole time had been her personal battle to tough this all out and if he kept being sweet like this she was going to break. especially after speaking with the person who made her this way. the façade seemed to break when he said she had him. tears filled her eyes as she gripped him tighter, her emotions feeling so much more powerful and she couldn't hold it in anymore. "i adore you so much, connor," she admitted as she sniffled softly. "this isn't fair. i'm not supposed to be like this. i hate feeling like i'm not in control of anything anymore."

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Connor felt a powerful need to just fully have her in his arms. Specially at her words about potentially losing it. "You're so strong, but even the strongest person loses it sometimes...If you ever feel yourself getting there, I'll drop everything to be there." He whispers even more softly as he holds her close. The young man knew how hard and far he fell when he hit his breaking point and he didn't want that for her. Connor nods softly as he remembers the sweet sound her heart made; it would now live safely within his memory. "I know its too soon to be saying more but, you have me. You have me completely, Veronica."

in all of this she was thankful she had connor. he had become her rock in this situation; something that was desperately needed. as he places a kiss against her forehead she closes her eyes a moment, taking in his words. a sigh escaped her. "i appreciate the sentiment," she muttered softly. "but---if i'm not strong i'm going to lose it." she knew if she didn't keep a brave face she was going to absolute break. the tears wouldn't stop and she was so sure she would scream. no, she had to keep the reigns on the feelings that roared inside her like a hurricane. "maybe so, but there is nothing we can do about that now. this is the reality." it wasn't the reality she pictured and she wasn't sure what she was meant to do. "we can get through this, i know we can."

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Connor gives a sigh and a soft roll of his eyes. "You don't know my life sis. That's a lesson I learned early so you can skip that whole talk." He responds in a tone that wasn't harsh but just simply a bit annoyed. There had been too many moments of pain, terror and sadness in his life to count. All Connor had hoped for was for a life of a different tune here. But regardless, Veronica was worth it to him. "Well sis, I guess you're right. You can't always get what you want." The younger man retorts with a shrug as he looks to his sister with a look of apathy in his eyes.

"Get in line, little brother. We're all tired of many things. But we don't get everything we want." If that was true then Spike and Dru would have been free of Angel much earlier than they had ended up being. "I like information. You look too much like dear old dad for me to be overly fond of you."

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Connor could tell his dad was trying to relieve the tension and he appreciated the effort. A small quick turn up of the corners of his lips appeared briefly in an attempt to smile at Angel. Sitting beside his father made it easier to talk about. "I know... I'm thankful she at least still has her soul.. she's still the woman I'm..." Connor pauses as he thinks, maybe she should be the first person to hear him say the words that were about to pass his lips. "She's still her." The young man adds before shaking his head. "Dru was trying to get me to say why I was upset... I've pulled a lot of dumb moves but, I know better than to trust her." He continues to remark with a roll of his eyes. Though when Angel said he would help Veronica where he could, a heavy breath of relief comes out of Connor and he leans over to give his father a hug. "Thank you, Dad." Connor nods and there was some sniffle sounds coming from him but he was holding it together. "I know. It's been one of your biggest lessons to me. There was time I...I didn't see myself worthy of it so I believed no one, not you, not mom, no one, actually loved me. But you never gave up and you helped me turn my life around." The young man says looking at his father. "You gotta do what you can to protect your family. I learned that from you."

"Try talking to me. If that doesn't work we will explore the idea of a punching bag." Angel tried to relieve the tension a little bit and brought Connor into the apartment to have a seat. He listened to Connor talk about what happened to his girlfriend. It was difficult. Having gone through it himself, turning and becoming a monster. "She is going to be alright. What I've learned here is not all vampires here are the same as myself, Dru or Spike. They have their souls, it is easier to control." He rubbed his chin in thought. "It is good that she doesn't want to hurt anyone. I am happy to help her where possible." He wasn't sure how much help he'd be. "Love is a powerful thing, Connor. It's a good thing."

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Connor was amazed by her, and yet, while he knew she was strong, he did worry about that strength breaking. He leans in and places a kiss upon her forehead and whispers against her skin. "You're handling this a lot better than I would... you're so strong it's amazing, but... you're safe with me. You don't have to always be the strong one." The man says as he worried about the effects of holding in emotions. Affects he had experienced many times in his past. "You deserved better than this. You deserved to wake up to something better. I still believe in what you said... we can get through anything together here."

slowly veronica placed a hand over his. though she was sure his voice was soft, to her it sounded so loud. she was adjusting to it though. "hey..." there was a sense of trying to reassure him, keep him calm along with her. "i'm fine. i'm perfect. i promise." okay so maybe perfect wasn't the right word seeing as she was a vampire and she had dropped dead, but... it was fine. "yeah. it's really weird. i remember my life before i got here. where i'm really from. kind of hard to grapple returning memories and vampirism but guess that's just the crappy roll of the dice."

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"I feel like I need to either hit something or break down crying...but I'll try." Connor admits to his father but not looking up from the floor. "I don't know how it happened yet. She's blaming herself. She said she let her guard down, was too trusting and her... sire... turned her." The young man says before shutting his eyes tightly trying not to cry for her. "She's fighting it, she's so strong but, she's going to need help getting control. She doesn't want to hurt anyone, she's still, she's still her. The amazing woman I've been..." He stops to open his eyes and look to his father. "I'm falling in love with her."

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"Alright, it's calmer here. Just us. Walk me through what happened." Maybe the event hadn't been the best place to talk about such a topic, especially with the cupid thing happening. "Slowly and calmly."

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Smelling her scent on the wind behind him, Connor turned to look at Veronica in a worried stare. "Veronica." He says in a whisper, knowing her newly heightened senses would catch it. Connor approaches her and softly cups her cheek in his hand. "You're alright? I saw you drop...I tried to wake you up but...wait, you remember me?" The young man asks as it starts to click in his mind. "Have you been without your memories this whole time?"

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"hey..." the night had maybe turned out more chaotic than she had planned. not only did it reveal that she was a vampire to the person she was pretty sure she was in love with, but she sort of just dropped dead? and when she woke up she remembered everything. riverdale, everyone from home... there was a lot she had to reconcile with. but first she needed to see connor. so there she was, awkward smile and all. "so... last night was a bit wild huh?" how was she supposed to approach everything that happened?

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"I'm tired. I'm tired of it all." Connor admits to being done with the family chaos in his veins. He had been done with the fighting, the whole good vs evil war and being manipulated over and over again. And yet, he'd still do anything for Veronica. "It's not your business. I'm not stupid enough to believe you actually care, sis."

She ignored the half-hearted attempt to dislodge her arm. Her eyes lit up. "That's where you're wrong, silly boy. Starting a fight is always fun. Chaos is in our blood. You have to accept that." It was all she had known from the moment she had been sired until she and Spike had been able to break free; chaos and pain. "If it's no one that either of us know then why have they got such a bee in your bonnet?"

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Although Connor's initial reaction was to pull his hand away from his father's grasp; he fought it as the touch was actually a bit grounding. He felt like he was drowning in emotion. His eyes close and head tilts down as a heavy sigh escapes him. "They got her..." Tears start to roll down his face as his eyes open again. "Someone turned her..." Connor looks to his father. "Dad, I need your help to help her. She has her soul. She's refusing to eat because she doesn't want to hurt anyone. Is there any way you have extra at your place from hunting?"

Angel walked through the crowd and arrived to see Connor punching the wall. "Hey, easy now." He stopped his son's fist before he could land another one on the wall. "Tell me what happened." His tone calm hoping it would calm Connor down.