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no one asked for a woefully inaccurate football au yet here i am

edit: es21? yes. es21.

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tsats in a nutshell

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I will admit, even I was thrown off by Nico's new characterization in TSATS, and I have always been lenient when it comes to him.

It's new and unfamiliar. That's a fact. This Nico comes forth like the mixture of that ten-year-old child who told Dr. Thorn to "shove that army---" and the thoroughly traumatized world savior with mental illness to boost.

That is to say, in hindsight, I do think it makes sense.

Firstly, I think we are all forgetting the fact that Nico is, in fact, one who changes the most throughout the series.

Seriously. He went from an innocent, enthusiastic, annoying ten-year-old to a depressed kid blindly looking for his sister in a matter of a few months (IIRC). He, fortunately, got his head out of that and started to get a little happier after Kronos, and then came back even more depressed. A little cold as times when he fought Bryce and Octavian.

Nico is so many things. He is a complex character whose character development fluctuates like a rollercoaster and every facet of his being is a kaleidoscope. If I want to describe him, I'd have to ask first, Which, or rather When, is the Nico I want to dissect?

Secondly, although Rick doesn't spell it out for us, it's clear that Nico has changed. He has healed - surely not fully, but he did heal. And the absence of the usual traumas is new.

Before, all we have come to see of Nico have been blinded by Nico's negative feelings. Even in Nico's POV - scratch that, especially in Nico's POV - we see his traumas weigh on the ten-year-old child that had died the same day Bianca did, and all the rage, sadness, sorrows that are born from said traumas. It's like a veil. It twists my vision. I suppose I have grown accustomed, perhaps attached, to that Nico.

In TSATS, however, canonically, Nico has had a chance to heal.

And seriously, Rick isn't faultless to dump that all to us with no insight into how, exactly, Nico has healed. His healing process is literally just telling and not a bit of showing. It's too fast. It's more like a jump and not a process. Technically, it is. It's only natural that some would feel weirded out when suddenly the grumpy ball of darkness starts making jokes at the same frequency as Leo McSizzle and wants to date Darth Vader.

Nevertheless, when I accept that Nico has healed, it became a lot easier to accept. I've come up with many visions of What if Bianca didn't die and that ten-year-old Nico got to grow up the way he was? Looking back now, perhaps this new Nico in TSATS could have been one among those visions.

He likes a card game. He memorizes his cards down to every stat. He makes jokes with multiple references. He's delighted at Percy's greenish wounds. He thinks Darth Vader is boyfriend material. He asks stupid (but legit) questions. He comes up with adorably dumb names.

I cannot say I enjoy all of Nico's new development, be as it may. I absolutely cannot wrap my head around the Lil Nas X reference. But I like Cocoa Puffs as names for your inner demons.

I think I can grow to love this Nico, too.

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TSATS BOOK REVIEW/ANALYSIS (aka i go over things i feel was misinterpreted in the book)

So I read TSATS book, and I’m realizing that a lot of stuff in the book was misinterpreted so I’m just gonna write this here to drop my 2 cents. 

Beyond this point there is spoilers

Keep reading

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THE SUN AND THE STAR SPOILER

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House of Hades

“Annabeth pressed her lips to Percy’s ear. “I love you.”

She wasn’t sure he could hear her—but if they were going to die she wanted those to be her last words.”

The Sun and the Star

“Nico fought against the darkness… Turning his head took every bit of his energy, but he put his mouth next to Will’s ear, took a measured breath and then said the words he hoped Will could hear. Three words. A promise of hope… ‘I love you.’

And then they fell.”

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SIR THIS IS A MIDDLE GRADE BOOK

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Run away, run away, run away

(Music: "Circles" by Post Malone)

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IMAGINE PUELLA LEAVING A VIDEO MESSAGE FOR ALLURA TELLING HER HOW SHE FELT AND TELLIG HER NOT TO MOURN THEM AND TO SAVE THE UNIVERSE LIKE THEY ALWAYS KNEW SHE WOULD

‘i know you’ll make us all proud’

i’m sorry i just HAD TO

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HOW IS THIS ALOWED?!?!?!?!?!?!?

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Consent in Throne of Glass

I feel that consent is one of those things that Sarah J Maas does wonderfully, so I have decided to compile a list. And it also gave me an excuse to reread some steamy smut scenes…. Spoilers, obviously. 

Let’s start at the beginning. 

-Celaena and Chaol-

-Crown of Midnight, Chapter 23

-Aelin and Rowan-

-Empire of Storms, Chapter 38

-Manon and Dorian-

-Empire of Storms, Chapter 44

-Yrene and Chaol-

- Tower of Dawn, Chapter 45

I hope I didn’t miss one. And I will do the same with A Court of Thorns of Roses in time. Check back here for the link.

@darlingfireheart, I figure you would like to see this, girlie.

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First Official SOHAE Book Update

She's here! She's in my hands! Im screaming and I am crying!

Here is everything that will be available during the pre-order! (currency is USD ofc)

Strung Out Heart, Angel Eyes Book (duh!) ($23.00)

for an extra $2 I will also sign it and draw you a little guy

Set of 3 Polaroids (+$6.00)

this is an add on item. get this adorable set of polaroids with your book order to hang in your room, put in your wallet, stare at while I write SOHAE2, put it on a wall with a "do it for them" sign, or whatever you want.

SOHAE.5 (+$11.00)

this is an add on item. a 12 page prequel to SOHAE available exclusively as physical and e-books.

And of course, you can also get all of these items (a signed copy of SOHAE, SOHAE.5, and the polaroids) for $40.00

E-book pdf and epub files will also be available through my Ko-Fi during pre-orders. I deeply appreciate anyone who buys the e-books despite SOHAE being available on tumblr for free. It really helps fund this project!

SOHAE e-book will be $10.00

SOHAE.5 e-book will be $5.00

I don't have a set date for the start of pre-orders yet but I'm looking at something around early/mid October and running it for approximately a month. I unfortunately don't just have spare money lying around so the pre-order will basically function as a way to fund it so books will be printed and shipped after pre-order closes.

I know that people often have to take some time to save money for something so I wanted to get this information out as soon as possible. I know that shipping needs to be accounted for and now that I have the physical in my hands I can work that out in the next few days. Keep an eye out!

I also really apologize to those not in US/Can who wanted a copy. In the future I will try my best to sort out the tax and shipping deal with international shipping but since I am so busy with a lot of other stuff along with this I think my brain would implode if I tried. Thank you for understanding and I hope I will have something for you in the future.

With love,

ames x

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My Voltron season 7 & 8 rewrite

EDIT: So, this part was written well before Lauren Montgomery and Joaquim Dos Santos came out in recent interviews and and said some wild stuff about the series, causing some of my views below to have changed. I’m not going to get into all my feelings on everything they said, I will only say that I disliked most of it.

Like a majority of the fandom I was disappointed with Voltron’s final season and ending. From the unsettling feeling of watching all the characters act so out of character, to the unfinished arcs and plotlines; for me the whole thing left a lot to be desired.

So, as a healing process to get over the disappointment, I decided to start writing up how I had originally theorized the show might end back when I first saw Season 6. What started as a brief overall summary of my original theory eventually evolved into a complete rewrite of Seasons 7 and 8. And after putting so much time into writing this, I figured I would share it.

Now, I know that not everyone hated the final season, and that some even loved it. That’s completely fine, there’s nothing wrong with loving the canon story as is, and I’m not trying to insult any of the fans who enjoyed it, or the show’s creators. I’m not even saying that this is a better version of what we got. Writing this was just a fun, therapeutic thing for me to do to work though my personal disappointments, and I thought maybe others would find some enjoyment from it.

Truth be told, I don’t hate the creators for what they wrote. In fact, I loved a lot of their early ideas and concepts for the show; I just didn’t care for the path they took the story and characters on towards the end of the series. Though, to be honest, I believe that a lot of what we ended up with on screen was due to circumstances behind the scenes, and that the crew didn’t get to tell the story that they wanted to tell.

Anyhow, just to be clear from the start, I am not going to have any confirmed endgame pairings with any of the Paladins, Shiro, or Romelle in this version. We all have our favorite pairings, but I want to make this something that anyone can enjoy no matter who they ship. This version I am just going to focus on trying to develop all the characters and their relationships platonically.

My plan is to stick to the canon number of episodes the show had. So that’s going to limit me on stuff, but it’s ok, I like a challenge.

Also I want to say a huge thanks to my best friend who’s helped beta some of this for me. Punctuation and sentence structure are my mortal enemies. I try my best, but I fail. She’s taken time out of her life to help me with this, and I love and appreciate her for all she does for me.

I also tend to be long winded and over-explain myself. Sorry.

  So, to start things off, before I actually get into the S7/8 rewrite, there are some changes I need to make in season 6 that will affect things in the other seasons.

First change comes from S6E2 “Razor’s Edge” In the scene where Lance is talking to the mice about his feelings for Allura. The way it canonically goes, is that he makes the comment (in regards to having a broken heart), “I was the one breaking hearts!” This line needs to go.

Reason being is in S8E1 “Launch Date” Lance’s mother tells Allura that Lance’s popularity with women is all talk. Well, what that S8 scene tells us is that in S6 Lance still believes in his made up fantasies of how people view him. That ruins any possible growth he’s had in terms of accepting who he really is and how people see him.

So, in my version of the S6E2 scene, Lance himself tells the mice that his Casanova attitude is something he puts on to mask his insecurities and that he’s never actually had a girlfriend. He shares that as time has gone on he’s come to realize that his feelings for Allura are genuine and he no longer wants to be an act around her. To him Allura has always been so honest with her feelings and who she is, and that’s how he wants to be, not this false persona of “Loverboy Lance.” He just wants to be Lance.

He regrets that it’s taken him so long to realize this, as Allura now seems to have a blooming relationship with Lotor, but he realizes that even if it is too late for a romantic relationship with her, he’s alright with that; he truly cares for Allura, and her happiness is more important to him then his own. If being with Lotor is what makes her happy, then just being Allura’s friend and a part of her life is more than enough for him.

The scene ends with Lance feeling more at ease with himself. He may not get the exact happy ending he wants, but he knows that by just being his true self he will be a happier person, not matter how his story ends.

  Going on from that, in this version the mice would NOT tell Allura about Lance’s feelings; instead Lance would drop his flirtatious ways and persona and be more open and honest about who he is. In the show Allura always reacted negatively, or outright ignored Lance’s come ons; so when he drops all that and is just himself, Allura notices his personal growth without the Mice’s influence.

For instance, in “Monsters & Mana” when Allura is contacted by Lotor about the ships being ready to test; rather than looking upset and sulking after Allura leaves, Lance tells her that if there is anything the two of them need help with, he’d be happy to assist. Lacking any ulterior motives and truly wanting to help them catches Allura’s attention. She declines his offer as it’s only a two person job at the moment, and when Lance graciously accepts that answer without a complaint, Allura really sees something different about him.

Having this scene would work to show the contrast between his character and attitude now compared to the way he acted in S6E2 when he wanted to be “the third wheel” just so Lotor and Allura couldn’t be alone.

For those who ship Lance and Allura, this is not me killing the ship. Even though there will be no official pairings in this version, I still want to develop these two so that if you ship that, the foundation could be there by the end of the story.

Personally, I believe for them to work as a couple, Lance needs to go through personal development and growth before they get together. To sum it up, Lance himself -and not his mother- needs to acknowledge his false persona, and he needs to choose to change, not in order to win Allura, but because her spirit and nature has inspired him to be the true version of himself. This causes him to realize that having a relationship with Allura isn’t about his feelings alone, and he would stop making unwanted advances towards her or getting in the way of any relationship she might want with someone else. All this development is what Allura would become attracted to and is vital for them to ever have a long and healthy relationship.

Now, I will say I think the writers tried to hint to elements of this, but it didn’t really come work to me. As the show stands now, I get an icky feeling from the narrative and way their relationship develops. Like many people, the sudden shift in gears after Lotor’s betrayal and Allura’s heartbreak made it seem like her sudden interest in Lance was her just going for a safe rebound because the mice told her that he liked her. That is in no way, shape, of form fair to either Lance or Allura.

So, now with this change in mind, let’s get to my version of season seven…

S7E1&2 S7E3 S7E4 S7E5 S7E6 S7E7 S7E8 S7E9 S7E10 S7E11 S7E12 S7E13 S8E1 S8E2 S8E3 S8E4 S8E5 S8E6 S8E7 S8E8 S8E9 S8E10 S8E11 S8E12 S8E13

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Huh. So he went there one time and stayed permanently.

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Idk where “Percy is an idiot” came from in the fandom. After rereading the series as an adult it’s remarkable how empathic and self conscious this kid is. You can tell that this is a kid who had to grow up early because he was always facing situations that involved him being punished for his actions. Most of which he can’t help due to his adhd, age, and being a half blood.

He was never carefree. Like ever. Every good day he had, he’s been treating as temporary like he doubts he’d get another one. Counting down till something goes wrong. Every interaction with another person is detailed with analysis of how he is interpreting their feelings and actions.

His impulses stem directly from feelings of injustice, either to himself or for others. He does things irrationally because he feels there isn’t a better choice in his situation than throwing himself in. Boy really hits the “I guess we’ll see if I die” button every time. It’s kinda concerning bc of how suicidal it is.

So no I don’t really see these headcanons of Percy embarking on shenanigan’s with Leo because most of the stupid shit he’s done has been with Annabeth, and the stuff he’s done on his own have been to sacrifice himself or help another person out.

I don’t see him encouraging it either. Especially when it comes to Estelle in the future. No way is he going to let her do half of the stuff he did bc in his head he was really ready to die when he did those things.

This is probably why he is so attached to Annabeth. He loves her rebellious side which is fueled by her pride and confidence, but at the same time is so close to her bc of the amount of times he’s had to save her from herself.

Their flaws are almost foils. His unwavering loyalty stemming from his own worthlessness coupled with her pride that drives her to prove her worth.

Just by reading all their interactions alone Percy has more reason to be stressed by Annabeth than Annabeth about him.

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I know we’re all excited/anxious about Callum and Rayla’s post-TTM relationship.

(To be honest, I’m almost as excited about seeing how the dynamic changes between Rayla and Ez.)

Hands down though, I reckon Bait is going to hold the longest grudge though. And Rayla is going to pretend she doesn’t care about the opinion of a grumpy frog.

But she cares.

She cares big time.

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What's something you wish more people noticed about TDP?

That, despite being primarily a show about characters breaking the cycle of violence and history that their parents had perpetuated, many of the characters are actually largely the way they are because of the influences of their parental figures.

Think about it: suppose that, instead of Sarai, it was Harrow who was killed by Avizandum? How would that affect the main characters?

Well, the biggest change would be to Callum. He has his mother's guidance now mentoring him, leading to a less anxious and insecure Callum to become generally pretty competent at the various princely tasks he was assigned (including, yes, sword-fighting).

The second biggest change would be to Ezran. Now suddenly a king and without his father, Ez would have probably struggled adjusting to his role, and likely be constantly unsure of himself and trying to figure out who he was. He would essentially be like what Callum is in canon.

Now imagine if it was Viren who died instead of Harrow, what changes? Well, Claudia and Soren both return to live with their mother in Del Bar. Claudia never gets introduced to Dark Magic, nor is she driven by the same trauma that her parents' divorce caused. Soren doesn't become a crownguard nor does he get abused by his father. The story largely ends for them here.

Now let's switch to the other side of the Border. Suppose Ethari never actually met Runaan, so Rayla winds up just staying with him. Instead of becoming an assassin, Rayla bonds with Ethari and becomes a blacksmith; perhaps even becoming a mage!

So, switch out three parental figures, and you get five very different main characters. Which shows, even as they try to break away from history, the five protagonists are very much molded by it.

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The Dragon Prince crew joked that the Avatar continent is across the sea from Xadia so you can’t tell me these interactions will never happen

if you see a grammatical mistake... no you didn’t ❤️