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Do you even call yourself a parent?

How could you always use my name to gain profit from our relatives

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a place where people actually take a good read without saying anything

everytime I get hurt, it will always just be a small thing with people around me. everything is just falling apart my school, my family, my state of my mind and even my relationship. Am I just too sad that everything seems to hurt me that bad? at such a young age, Why am I experiencing this kind of things? In times like this I would always hope that I'm with my dad..... My dad won't make me this sad...

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i don’t want to fall apart all over again .....

am I not allowed to be mad....

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yeah this pass days

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depression

why am i crying i know hot to feel sorry but why am i only feeling sadness, nothing going through me its just pure sadness why am I crying if I feel that I think that I havent do anything wrong its just im not feeling anything but sadness right now so this is how depression is like its been like this since the start of the year sadness haunts you......

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Tomorrow

No one knows what tomorrow has instore for us.

In my current age I should still be fantasizing on how good could life be. But instead in such a young age I’ve gone through different trials in life that made me rather realistic than idealistic. Being idealistic, shouldn’t one side of the family of your partner be welcoming to both of you while in reality each of your family is falling apart. Being idealistic, I should get everything I want from my dad since I’m the youngest anyway so he should provide well while in reality I couldn’t because I once saw on how tired he was getting off from work and it breaks my heart. Ideally I should finish faster because I enrolled in an institute that has a quarterm system but in reality I didn’t handle the pressure well and got delayed. 

Behind all the things I've gone through, I somewhat secretly hoping that at one day it could be both ideally and reality. Like being a perfect family ideally but with inevitable challenges reality kicks in.

Ideal could be a playground

Real is where you toughen up

It would be boring and impossible to be perfect and it would be depressing to just go down entirely with reality.

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Walang mawawala pero sayang kasi yung pera eh

two quizzes pasado

two quizzes bagsak

madadagdagan nanaman ba yung singko sa T.O.R. ko

why is it so unfair..... for the other section, the exam was so easy then for us it might be easy for those who are great at physics but I’m not one of them. Why is it boring... My grades depend on my prof when it comes with physics.....

why did I get it in the first place ....

wala ng tigili yung singko ko :(

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Building is really hard not only in this board game but also in life. Building our future is damn hard but like in the game when it done by two people, it becomes easier :). 

until now, it is so difficult to adjust with Mapúa, Im used to study less but still have good grades, I still could do it on lower subjects but with this majors coming in my way, it just frustrates me...I envy thos frosh particulary rowick fudge, its an easy road for them welp yeah its still a basic course.... Its just Im been pressured to do well lately not only for my dad but I just dont want a failing grade anymore :( Its really sad to be delayed :( 

anyhow gota do do do 

This is for our future , I'm sorry that I'm reluctant to talk, about the future kids and all because now I'm focused on the present, wanting for us to do well :) 

I hope ahorro will give a rightful grade to you :) I see na, you excel not that much sa coloring but on drawings and with the vector you really did wel. sorry for like bullying the shark, its just I already saw how good you could draw, I believe you can do better than that.

sorry for not replying earlier, I believe I feel more at ease right now, know that I am just inside the campus and nothing could happen especially if Im not sick. just know Ill call you right away if something happens. 

3 more years makakataks na rin tayi sa mapua :)

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jealousy is just a feeling that is inevitable 

But with all the things we had gone its just not that 

Influential in the flow of our relationship.  Its just not worth of our attention :) thank you for thinking before reacting irrational earlier

Honestly, Im quite insecure or something with the new girl, I mean sky of rod is cool but with rowicks chick idk, kean describe her as a chicks kasi but at the end of the day I hope she’s cool too. i hate fancy girls oh pls be cool plus why didnt she come when i was there. Gotta bully her pa hahahahaha

Anyhow I just wanted to be someone who is the best for you yun tipong maiinggit sila, someone you could boast around . for some reason insecure about that . Ewan ganun sa babae eh if may new girl. 

But like in the picture ill always be this unique bubbie the soldier type of a woman :)  . ready to fight for you and all. Thats something i know, no one could take away from you, you had this best kind of a girl . Besides what simportant above al is the love and sacrfices that we made for each other. 

Sorry for staying up late had to fix stuffs 

Fucked up logics already 

In the end I just want to be the best woman for you. 

Health is more important than grades. Were going to through this. Were both masipag naman :) were going to attain our goals :) SOON :) 

Hmph am I a bit too snob nakakakonsensya ung ginagawa ko sa friends mo </3 

My image nooooo hahaha but at least I got my bestong tuhog tuhog hahahahhahahaha

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My hubby. :) 

Yes we cant have it all in this world but maybe thats why we are given this kind of challenges in our younger selves because the future holds the greatest gift life has to offer . Our own family. 

remember our goals. 

-your wifey- 

I chose this path with you. its nice to continue grow and learn different lessons of life with you. i actually want a mini you and mini me but ughh thats in the way way way way far furure okay haha oh please surrogate tummy pls hahaha

Sorry for being a hot headed person, thats why i chose silence but you should always rember how muvh  I your bubbie would always be perfect with you only  my bestong

I love you

PS YOU REALLY DID WELL ON UR CHAR DES IT WAS CLEAN, YOULL IMPROVE , KEAN HAS BEEN DRAWINGFOR YRS AND YOU ARE STILL A BEGINNER AND HET YOU COULD MANAGE TO DO THE TASK . LIKE ME SHITTY IN CODING BUT IM LEARNING BEC THEY SAY THE SALARY IS REALLY WORTH IT PLUS ITS FUN TOO.  Love youuuu my spoiled bestong 

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thankful - promise ring

just came by this thought your not perfect at all you have so many flaws but your the sweetest among the rest while those girls keep on tagging their boyfriends on that pic I didn't with the taught of it being mainstream but you said at least Youll wear it to me and theyll just be stuck up asking for it It just came through how sweet it is besides me and you, we barely ask for things to each other, we both just give what we think what could make the other half the happiness :) thank you for constantly understanding me I just don't like being ignored :/ or the feeling of being ignored :/ I dont want to say words out of anger anymore I chose silence the ring is not that important whats important is the thought behind it I am just thankful with that :) so don't feel shy recieving things from me :) I just want to make you feel happy and loved of course my bestong

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What kind of foolishness is that 

i forgot the password of my tumblr 

But gues what I remmbered it

Your goingg to fix this by what

By being depressed 

By being sorry 

By asking my schedule in a freaking site 

Do you really think after everything you did to me 

I would easily give it to you

For what for your sched to match up with mine? 

Guess what, that doesn’t matter anymore  

What I want is to freaking catch up 

i have been freaking delayed 

Yes you were my “partner in crime” 

 Yes we clicked 

But what you are doing right now doesnt helps

Grow up 

Being depressed for what 

Im freaking tired kf you being depressed for nothing 

Thats what ended us 

You think too much

Without even doing nothing 

Im really angry right now 

Angry because of still talking to you 

Angry because i still care 

Angry because I freaking want to hang out with you 

Angry because of that kind od mindset you have 

I want a lifetime partner 

Not a childish kind of relationship 

Dedicate your time for me by what ? Affixing your sched to mine? i dont think like that anymore 

im used to being alone 

Stop saying sorry

Im so pissed off

Just let me see how worth it is to let you in my life again 

But just stop being depressed its tiring

Again it was what ended us 

If youre still that weak 

Dont you dare come into my life because for sure youll just give up again

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Ive heard your sorry for a thousand times already it makes me feel so bad it doesn't lighten up my mood or anything maybe I should stop posting things just promise me youll take care okay Im signing off and I dont remember this password so yeah bye for now

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nothing to be sorry of

but its just 

were not even in a relationship where

I could give it to you

besides I could only be found in one place for sure

told you 

I don’t want it to be a cycle 

asking for my schedule

didn’t you ask for it before too

then we met then you easily took my hand

it would not be easy as that anymore

I don’t even know how should I act in front of you anymore

win me back by what

asking my schedule in a freaking site 

like the way you did before

telling me then that it wouldn’t be as before

I don’t know how would I believe in that again 

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why should I let you see it anyway

besides its not final

still have to get physics included

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Pixels

entertaining but a fucked up plot O.o

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So not me

I am freaking kinda wasting my vacation being a homebody 

but yeah it saves money 

more movies to go

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