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25-30

Last 5 days for this challenge. The routine is fun but keeping track of it and writing is not. But I went for a run and I did the sprinting workout 3x100 at around 80% speed. Intense but also not the worst. Little unfocused because something happened with my friend but I still got it done and to clear my mind I did some mindfulness the next day because I slept like crazy after that 3x100. I walked around my house and focused on my body and my hands and my feet and focused on the textures and it felt very weird. Didn’t really understand this exercise but I felt relaxed. I did another run long distance 2 laps full sprint. Listened to music before I hopped in the shower the next day to calm me down before school, and that was that to wrap it up.

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Days 18-24

I was given the book “Living with a Seal” and it’s very funny. I would recommend giving it a read but just for the record I hate reading and I’ll avoid it at all costs. But I do agree that it calms me down a lot. Especially with the right environment it’s like magic. The next day this was more of a personal goal but I decided to converse with my peers to see how this challenge has effected me and to see if it was easier. I’m more open with my emotions with myself and others. I’m still anxious but no where near as much as in the past. Music also. I’ve always listened to music but it is a way of reducing stress if you listen to music you thoroughly enjoy. https://pplprs.co.uk/health-wellbeing/music-reduce-stress/#:~:text=Happy%2C%20upbeat%20music%20causes%20our,the%20mind%20and%20the%20body.

I know this as a personal experience that this can work. But it is also said in this article here. I listened to music while running the next day which I usually don’t because my headphones always fall out but I ran a mile… I know I said I was against them but this one felt good, I think I got a runners high or whatever. But after while trying to catch my breath I was gasping for air. I felt very relaxed to be fair. I sleep of the pain and next morning I wake up for school. I called it “Meditation Monday”. Ew right? Okay but I woke up at 6:00am sharp. The house was quiet but during the meditation I fell asleep while just thinking. I was so relaxed and all my emotions were at bay. But come 30 minutes later I would have to start getting ready for school. It was heartbreaking when my alarm went off. And on day 24 I did some research and found out that a conversation can help with emotions. https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/your-personal-renaissance/201906/why-talking-about-our-problems-makes-us-feel-better?amp

I will always stand by the fact that therapist are not real people to talk too. I can’t get the fact out of my head that they are paid to listen to my problems. Who says they really care? My brother and sister? So much cheaper and so much more reliable. They understand me and it’s a deeper level. Even if it’s just a few words conversing helps with the right person I believe. But if a therapist is your way then that’s the way for you.

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Days 12-18

It was 1/30/22. Just needed to say even though I’m doing this for a 30 day challenge. I do run everyday. Unless it snows outside. But this was the first time I ran a mile in this challenge. It was hell, as I’m a short distance sprinter. But I was so drained that at the end I felt super accomplished and I felt at peace. Also picked up a new hobby AKA mindfulness. I’m kidding I’ve hated mindfulness ever since they brought it up in like middle school. Never understood it but I turned my LED lights on and sat in my room in silence while having music from my ps4 playing on low. The plan was do this for around 20 minutes but in the end I did do it for around 5 minutes then I had so many intrusive thoughts like “Where’s my phone right now?” or “How far is Friday?” I need to work on focus. Come the next day I realized it was getting repetitive. The whole routine, so I decided to lookup other activities to help control emotions. It said video games were a nice outlet. With that being said I disagree because all video games have brung me is agony. For example rainbow six siege. Not the right game to play for some sort of mind calming stimulation. But instead I played Minecraft. This game has calmed me down ever since I was young and I can say it 100% works for me.

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Days 6-12

I sort of added a few things but I’ve mostly made up a routine so the 30 days go easier and more smoothly. I added mindfulness into the mix even though it’s so lame. It was in between good and bad because I would focus for 5 minutes then the rest of the 10 I would daze off and think about other things. Also talked to my brother about my emotions which then he responded with some of his which helped with the conversation. As you know I’m a track kid so I ran the usual 2 laps to get my heart going to work on my breathing. It’s been warm this week so it’s nice but tomorrow is prolly going to snow. 57 degrees to 15 in like one night. Other than that I got this book from my class I have to read so I did that as a form of calming myself before thinking about my emotions. I hate reading but this book is so fire so it did calm me down. Next day it’s January 28th and my mom was blending some weird vegetables so later at around 4pm I got to mediate for about 15 minutes. Yes I do see improvement with this. I’ve been more focused on my school work and days don’t feel like as much of a drag anymore. And for the 12th day I did some research and found this article about what to do when breaking down. https://www.healthline.com/health/how-to-control-your-emotions .It says to ask myself question like “what do I wanna do about the feelings” and to gather my thoughts and accept how I’m feeling in that moment. Easier said than done obviously.

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Days 1-6

This was the start of my 30 day challenge which is controlling emotions. I setup a time regimen where I wake up at 6:00 to meditate. Watched a few videos on balance/breathing control by BRIGHTSIDE https://youtu.be/ayfe4XWCZdg

I’m on the track team but I do sprints. So instead I did a long run to work on breathing techniques. It was pretty rough.