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forever grateful i was simply too lazy to let the makeup industrial complex get its hooks in me. I was just like im not doing all of that. in fact. im doing none of that

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a lot of people say "Silver *knows* he's in a story" as in he knows he's a fictional character in the show Black Sails. imo what he really does is actively turn himself into a fictional character that he inserts into other people's stories, and that's so much more fucked up, like John Silver only exists bc John Silver made him up

....until other people start to put him into their stories on their own

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they should invent an apartment that has huge windows but is never too hot and is near everything i like and all my friends but is also quiet when i want it to be and costs zero dollars or perhaps they pay me to live in. and they save it just for me so i dont have to look for it :)

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Black Sails & Text Posts (3/?)

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i asked my therapist how to deal with chronic depression, since i was informed that i'm going to deal with it for the rest of my life and that it won't just magically go away, because i'm schizophrenic and bipolar. she informed me that depression gets worse the more you feed it- the more you give into it, the worst it gets. you DO have the choice to refuse to do what your depression wants, even though it's hard. most things in life are hard, giving up when things get even slightly hard make it so much worse. we all face hardships in life and we can't just give up at every single one of them.

whenever your brain tells you you "can't" do what you want to do for literally no reason, you have to fight it. whenever your brain tells you you should just sleep the day away, you have to fight it. whenever your brain tells you that you don't deserve kindness, friends, love, or whatever it may be, you have to fight it. whenever your brain tells you you deserve to be miserable or sad, you have to fight it. when your brain tells you you're a burden and better off dead, you have to fight it. caving in and giving it what it wants is what makes it so overwhelming and impossible feeling to deal with in the first place.

you are in fact allowed to fight back against your mental illness. you are allowed to put your foot down and say no. rolling over and letting it take control of your life makes it even harder to fight. giving up will never help improve a tough situation. keep fighting, it gets easier the more you do it. giving up and doing nothing is why you feel so miserable. giving up and doing nothing will not help you do those things in life that you're pining to do, but feeling like they're impossible. you're literally fighting for your life when you're battling depression. fight like hell, surrendering never results in a victory for you.

i think people are misguided when they say "choose happiness" for the most part, however, you literally have to choose happiness when it comes to depression. you have to choose pursuing happiness instead of allowing yourself to wallow in misery. you have to choose to fight for what you love and want out of life. that's the actual meaning of "choose happiness." you have the choice to fight back and fight for what you want and love. do it.

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South Carolina followers: free green beans on I-95!

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me on black sails season 1: silverflint is not real, people need to retire their shipping goggles

me on black sails season 4:

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the 🫡 emoji shouldn't be smiling. this is deadly fucking serious business. is this a joke to you? your duty? your obligations sir? your responsibility to your comrades sir? to go post penis or whatever you just promised your buddies on discord

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neowiganism. pey wet revival

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The friends that are chronically 30 minutes late are so important to have because they teach u patience and the meaning of loving someone so much u let ur anger go. I have not mastered either yet but I’m sure it’s coming

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For every man in your camp, there are thousands somewhere in the West Indies living under the same yoke, chained in fields, pressed on ships, sold into indenture. When they see a sitting governor protected by His Majesty’s Navy, deposed by an alliance of pirates and slaves, how many consider joining that fight? How many thousands of men will flock to Nassau, join your ranks, and help you defend it? What does a colonial power do when the men whose toil powers it lay down their shovels, take up swords, and say, “No more?” Bring down Nassau, maybe you bring it all down.

James Flint Appreciation Week || favorite season

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today i learned theres guys out there committing locksmith fraud

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reminder that gazafunds is a great website.

each time you load the site, it shows one randomly selected, verified fundraiser that's low on funds.

extremely straightforward, & an easy to remember url. it's my go-to when I'm able to give; removes any room for procrastination or overthinking.

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Ok breaking containment for this one because I need everyone who will listen to hear this.

Women who suffer bad cramps are told cramps shouldn't affect school/work/etc, but no one ever investigates further because no one can possibly know if what someone experiences is just typical pain or something much worse.

Well after 15 years of stage 4 treatment-resistant endometriosis that came with pain as bad as, if not worse than, actual labor contractions every month, all the while being told I was 'typical' and 'just had bad cramps', I've finally been healed (another post for another time). I have had what everyone describes as the elusive 'normal period pain' for several months now, and I am begging you to look me in the eyes and listen because I need everyone who can hear this to hear this.

I have been on both sides of this. I have the hard-earned knowledge of what a period 'should' feel like.

If you have to put in any effort to hide your cramps, you need to get help.

Even during of the PEAK OF CRAMPING (i.e., as bad as your cramps possibly get), you should still be able to stand, speak, walk, eat, work, and sleep with no problems. These tasks should require very-little-to-no extra effort beyond what you would normally do when you aren't on your period. When you do these things, you should feel grumpy and a little bit icky and maybe a twinge of nerves and NOTHING MORE.

If you have to sit in the corner and hope no one approaches you because you can't speak or stand without showing pain, even slightly, you need to get help. If your pain is showing on your face, you need to get help. And most importantly, IF YOUR PAIN DOES NOT RESPOND TO 1-2 TYLENOL OR IBUPROFEN, YOU NEED TO GET HELP.

Your period cramps should make you grumpy. Your period cramps should make you feel a little icky and tired. Your period cramps should make you feel your insides existing/moving a bit and a twinge of nerves that makes you groan slightly then the "pain" should stop there, NOTHING MORE.

If your cramps put you on the floor but you make believe you're the captain of a ship who has just been stabbed and has to hide it to fight on, and you force yourself to power through the day, please understand: you are not okay, that does not make you okay. Just because you can power through the pain doesn't mean you aren't sick. If you have to force yourself through any basic task beyond the effort it takes you to do when you aren't on your period, and I am holding your face and looking you in the eye as I say this because I need you to hear me: You aren't normal. You don't 'just have bad cramps'. You are sick and you need to get help.

Now most people will tell you if your cramps are beyond a 3 out of 10 on the pain scale, you should see a doctor. While this is usually true, you have to consider chronic pain CAN AND WILL BREAK YOUR PAIN SCALE. Most people will only compare pain they currently feel to pain they may experience one day but probably never will. "Sure these cramps feel bad now, but if I had a leg amputated with no anesthesia, that would hurt WAY worse, so this pain can't be that bad-" No. Your pain is what it is, objectively, full stop. My cramps were at a 10 out of 10 every. Single. Time. And nobody told me claiming they were a 6-8 because I thought to myself 'what if I lose a limb one day?' was completely wrong. 10 pain is 10 pain. And if there's something that hurts worse than that, guess what. The thing you are experiencing right now is still a 10 out of 10 on the pain scale. Just because you experience it every month doesn't mean it's magically not as bad is it is. And if your pain is worse than a 3 out of 10, you need to get help.

Now when I say get help, I mean find the root cause of your pain. You can't just throw drugs and hormones at it without knowing what it causing your pain. Endometriosis, fibroids, pcos, cancer, adenomyosis, polyps, thyroid issues, there is always a cause. And if you leave it untreated, it will grow and get worse to the point where it resists treatment and the drugs and hormones you've been throwing at it for years don't work anymore. You have to find a doctor that will investigate. If your doctor tells you you 'just have bad cramps' get a new doctor. I know you've been told that but please hear me: no one ever just has bad cramps. A healthy human body doesn't spontaneously cause itself pain so bad you can't stand up; there is ALWAYS a cause.

I was sick for more than 15 years. My entire life was put on hold and now I'm in my late 20s trying desperately to play catch up for everything I missed. I want to pick up 12yo me, spin her around, and tell her she doesn't have to die before she finally stops hurting. I don't want anyone to suffer the same fate I did simply because everyone told them they were normal. A little twinge of pain here and there is normal, suffering is not. I promise you your pain is real, it is not normal, and dear heavenly day I am begging you you need to get help now.

TL;DR: There is no such thing as 'just bad cramps.' If you feel anything more than grumpy, icky, and pain greater than a 3 out of 10, you need to find out what's wrong with you before it gets worse.

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