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2017 Goals & Dreams

G O O D vibes only Be INTENTIONAL Spread J O Y everywhere I go RUN a half marathon (!!) Spend more time with L E O TRAVEL to Europe Fall in L O V E Go to more concerts C O O K more meals at home SAVE $2,500+ Find a new H O B B Y Start doing YOGA again Find ways to S I M P L I F Y my life Write at least one THANK YOU note or letter a month Make being ON TIME a priority Invest in EXPERIENCES instead of things Get a credit card $$$

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Hope, it is the only thing stronger than fear.

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There's a blessing in the storm.

Here we are again, my love. I have broken your heart and now you have broken mine. This is so hard. But there is a blessing in this storm. I think that somewhere along the way we lost ourselves in each other - we need to find ourselves again, each in our own way. I know there is so much healing that needs to take place here - healing that will require time and patience. You are tired - I am tired too. I am so sorry that I put us here. 

There is so much that I want you to know but for now, you are right - it is best that we are apart. I hope that this absence brings us both the clarity we so desperately need. As sad and hurt as I am by all of this, I hope you know that I want nothing more than for you to be happy. I hope someday I get the chance to be the happiness in your life again. When that day comes, I know that I will be ready. 

I have so much faith in the love between us - it is the only thing that gets me through the day sometimes. Our love is real. It is rare. And as hard as we try to let it go, it is always still here. Sometimes it scares me. It is a terrifying feeling to love someone so much. 

I cannot say these things to you and I cannot hold them in, so I will write them here. Someday you will read them and I hope that they make you smile.

All my love,

Sarah

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You write so beautifully, the inside of your mind must be a terrible place.

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“My Dearest Allie. I couldn’t sleep last night because I know that it’s over between us. I’m not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I’ll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent a summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. And that’s what you’ve given me. That’s what I’d hoped to give to you forever. I love you. I’ll be seeing you. Noah.”

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To me, Fearless is not the absense of fear. It's not being completely unafraid. To me, Fearless is having fears. Fearless is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, Fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death.

Taylor Swift

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Improversation.

The process of applying to grad schools has started! Step One has been to pick which ones I want to apply to...which has been very difficult thus far. Researching colleges and universities is like navigating through a maze. Every school is different...some have great psych departments but not the degree I want, some have the degree I want but not the specific area. Quite confusing. My main focus for picking schools has been geographical area...specifically Florida and California (eeeeeee). In case you couldn't tell, wherever I end up, I want to make sure I'm WARM! Florida and Cali are on complete opposite ends of the US, so I guess my next decision is how close I want to be to my family and friends...tough decisions, but I guess I'll cross those bridges when I come to them.

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blah blah blah blog.

Nine months post-grad and I am starting to lose my mind. I thought that maybe a blog would help - write down some of my thoughts daily and get stuff off my chest that for whatever reason I don't actually want to talk about. The process of applying to grad schools starts tomorrow (eek!) and I can only imagine how frustrating it will be! BUT, that's life, and it just so happens to be my life, so it's time to stop procrastinating and actually make some plans. So here we go....