corazoncitodemelon

[corazoncitodemelon]

[corazoncitodemelon]

Lovisa Lager for EKKE FW22

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oh my gosh im back ! (∩ᄑ_ᄑ)⊃━☆ﾟ*･｡*

long time no see and i am probs most def speaking into a void BUT just in case someone is listening soo much has changed since the last time i posted! ok soo i went to go see beyoncé and i am forever changed !!! she was so gorjus and sounded sooo beautiful and what made this experience that much better was that i went with all my friends!! i also got to spend some time with my family and pup which made my heart fullll <3 anyway after that super fun vacation, i had to go back to my new work location and it has not been a fun transition haha (↼_↼) ok so here's the deal i got moved to another location for work and... u guessed it i have to make new friends + get used to the location + generally entertain myself and feel comfy in this new place! and i feel like i have been doing that a lot this year which is making me super worn out and tired :p on TOP of that i think i am entering another depressive episode and this time i am alone and not around my support system which is a little concerning, but I have been using other outlets to kinda make time for myself and just do things i enjoy yk ? but okie i do def have to think of other things to talk about on here to make it a lil more fun ! i want to try a cooking challenge <giving julie and julia yk> OR a baking thing ! i have my eye on the stardew valley cookbook soooo that could be fun... whenever that comes out LOL but also on that note, i have been wanting to find a cookbook for healthy but yummy recipes ! I want to get better at that and also eat scrumptious food to nourish my body ! also did i mention i started the gym ?? (ノωヽ) hehe ik i talked lot about that BUT i have been needed to move my body and i am glad i am taking that time to do that now ! also i go in the morning and its all the girlies and older (senior) people and i love that LOL I feel better about being in that environment w/o feeling judged :3 ok well i have said so much but nothing at all at the same time and its time for me to color ! sooo byee and see you next time ( ´ ∀ `)ノ～ ♡

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ps. i have been styling my hair more and i abs luv it ! it makes me feel gorgeous and like glaMOUR yk also if anyone has any tips on styling straight hair (im talking PIN straight which is def hard to work with when dry and esp after the shower as in it does not hold a curl or have volume or ANYTHING) please let me know ( ◡ ‿ ◡ *)

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Beyoncé for Rolling Stone in 2000･ﾟﾟ･｡☆

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afternoon thoughts  (｡╯︵╰｡)

ok sooo like i mentioned before, i rlly am working on my self esteem and my own relationship with my body and i really don’t like comparing myself to others especially on social media >,< like idk i have been trying to curate my feed so that i see creators that look like me or have my body type so i create a safe space for myself? idk if that’s the right word for it but sure yeah :p... idk if some of my girlies have had similar experiences, but my friends <who are def conventionally attractive> continuously post each other on their social media as the main photo or if its a group pic i tend to get cropped out or <because i’m tall i tend to be the selfie stick of the group> get the real smooshed corner of the pic on insta lol as i’m typing this out it really does seem silly to be “complaining” or venting about this cause i know its not like that <at least i hope> but i can’t help but feel a bit sad about that? almost like they are confirming what i feel about myself and my body (｡•́︿•̀｡) idk just wanted to rant a bit because i feel like its almost every time that this happens sooo yaa but ok trying not to consistently complain on here because i really do want to create a hub for myself to share some silly little thoughts and maybe reach other people who stumble across this smol blog :3 but ok thx for hearing me out and done with that !

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ps. happy international woman’s day (> 3 <)⌒☆ i was really feeling my oats at work today <the company hosted a seminar/panel organized by and for women!> and i just felt so seen and empowered!! anyway i know that COMPLETELY contradicted what i was saying in my daily vent BUT what can i say sdfkjsd i just be talking ok fr bye and sending lots of love to all my ladies *muah (*¯ ³¯*)♡

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walking tyme (ノωヽ)

ok i have been thinking about doing more physical activity this past month mainly because i had been on a consistent gym schedule with my friends back home, but ever since the move i have been slacking !! like i know that its kinda justified cause... i moved cross-country BUT can’t help but feel bad ya know? i am on a self love journey as in these past few yrs i have been dressing more for me and have tried to stop caring about how other people feel about my body but as a plus sized girlie that is always kinda on my mind (・_・) i feel kinda bad about staying in this mindset because its kinda the time to not care all that much or be more comfortable and confident in my body, but it has definitely been a journey getting to where i am now :p i don’t have many plus size friends and i rlllyyy want to meet someone because i never really get to talk about this with my girls, like i love them and they are very supportive, but it can be a bit different ya know? anyways all this to say i want to start walking after work to have some time to unplug and just have some form of physical activity a day, no pressure just walking and taking the new scenery in (´• ω •`) 

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anyway rant over and ready to crochet and watch drag race <more to unpack there when the new ep comes out because... ya lots to say> ok well thats it byeeヾ(・ω・)メ(・ω・)ノ

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welcome wagon (๑˃ᴗ˂)ﻭ

ok so this is my new blog and honestly don’t know what i am going to write about BUT one thing about me is i love to rant about nothing and everything all at the same time >.<3 so i am a girlie <duh> in my 20′s and just moved to pursue a new corporate job that is kinda slay but adjusting to this new routine/ life in a new state is def hard ! i wanna live my carrie fantasy <as in her having a blog/column not literally everything else> and share a bit of everything on here („• ᴗ •„) follow along or don’t cause either way i’m going to run my mouth but not but yes ok i’m done

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ps. i am loving the new kali album rn my fave is worth the wait ft **** ****** like something about it woah like wanna be around me everyday??? YUPP ok now done fr ☆⌒(> _ <)