corncleo

[corncleo]

14th July 2022

12:27am

Here i am again after how many years?

Hmm, do things gt better now?

Maybe.

What am i up to?

Watching one piece again.

I know, i left it years ago but here i am rewatching again and currently @ episode 426 yay!

What an accomplishment bahahaha.

Love this 3 dorks🤣

Whats up with my life?

Nothing much.

Work.room.work.

Guess im still introverted as ever and thats not going to change.

So, this is my journal now since im bad at keeping paper journal , even actually i love writing - in a paper, with pen i mean

[corncleo]

@ the back of my mind

i used to be boyish back then,i mean i still now.

my mum will put a dress on me and i will protest.one time i was so angry i take a knife from the kitchen and try to cut the dress.

i really like short pant.looking back at old picture im so tanned ahaha.i think i wore short everywhere i go😅.

we dont really have much clothes that time and i still go and wear my brother clothing.

one of the memory that i still remember now is when my mum hospitilised.the hospital is pretty far from our village and my father go and take care of her.so my brother and i are left on our own.that time i was around 4 or 5 years old.

we go and sleep at relatives house across the road but you see maybe they grew tired of us being there so we feel they dont really welcome us.my brother and i go back to our house and cook rice.we dont have gas cooker or electricity that time,we only use firewood.

so the rice turned out nicely and we search for drinking water.that time my mum will use used bottle to store our drinking water.so we find a bottle at the back of the table and excitedly pour it at our bowl of rice.turned out it wasnt water but kerosene (they have same colour). so here we are sitting in disbelif.later my brother friends come and we plan to dispose the kerosene rice to the river.we think maybe the fish still can eat it.

my mother was warded quite a long time and my activity include following my brother and his friends around,i mean they are my friends too,isnt i one of the crew then?lol

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Dream

Last night i dream of being robbed.you knows my sit right now , the money is tight and i don't have a job yet,so when the robbery happen i was so upset,even it was just a dream. I Google what the dream mean and here it is

Now that i think of it,its quite true for tbe enthusiasm part.i don't know i think i just don't have that anymore.

What is wrong with me?

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My Journey to Learning Korean

Since i already know how to read 한글 a little i want to take the next step but then im so inconsistent in studying. I find that just memorising vocabulary from internet is quite hard so i decide to make my own flash card.

By doing this i can practice my writing and since i put some illustration i can practice my drawing as well. I don't really have a talent in drawing but the important part here is the word that i try to memorise.

So,here is the 1st one

원숭이

won-sung-i

monkey

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Practicing

i used to really curious how korean alphabet work,everytime im watching variety show and theres text in hangul i really want to know how to read it,

now that i have learned a little im so excited.

i just have to practice a lot hehe.

1 박 2 ㅣㄹ

은 지 원

상 호 동

승 기

수 근

MC 몽

김 C

갓 세 븐

진 영

잭 슨

ㅈㅍ 범

유 겸

마 크

영 재

밤 밤

[corncleo]

finally over!

just scrolling and tumbling.

its already over,yay!

my tb injection finish yesterday.

i survive.

the needle

so i should really find a job now.

the treatment continue with the tablets.but hey,at least i dont have to go visit hospital everyday.

thanks God.

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i work on my self improvement

what i've been up to?i learn korean language.i really love watching variety show and everytime theres a text on screen i really want to know how to read it.its look difficult so im too lazy to study it but then one day i decide to look it up.i install write it!korean and study the alphabet.well its actually not that hard😆

i take a japanese lesson before and sometimes "mismatch" this two languages,because i take japanese classes and watch too many korean show.

for me the important part about learning to write and read is memorising.you have to memorise the alphabet.

tada!😃😃😃

[corncleo]

yoku tulun dusun

mumbal po 'mempost' blog dot mongguna bahasa dusun oi ahaha

otopot bogia boros momolohing do olihuan moti ti boros tokou bang aso nopo sukod wagu do mumbal momoros

dusun ku nga okukurang no sorou di ti tu aso gia koruhang ku mimboros,takkan barasan do orang putih nga simbaron nogi do dusun gia mi? ahaha

jadi iti no matu sorou masalah sukod wagu tokou ti,amu gia yaralo barasan do momogun,lod walai nga mimoloyuan nogi do molohing

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i chop off my hair

and its the best decision ever.

huahaha.

chop it off on 1st march.

the best thing about it?

i rarely comb my hair🙄.

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the king of clumsiness

who?me!

as i got older i think i become more and more clumsy.

i hit a table,it was like bammm!so loud i thought my bone was cracked but in the positive note its not really that hurt.i hurt myself a lots growing up so maybe thats why i dont really feel pain now.

scar is not a stranger to my body.

and each one of it have a story.

an interesting story.

to me.

i dont care about scar,am i normal as a girl for being absent minded about that?

but really,theres nothing to be embarassed about a scar.

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sechskies jang!

because i have too much time tendering this sickness i came upon sechskies and here i am fangirling like a love sick teenager.

well,im actually into variety show and i saw eun ji won a lots and i really like him as eun choding ahaha.then i discover he is in a group,so thats it,i like them.

i wake up this morning and while trying to catch up what happening in the world an article pop up about kang sung hoon being sued for fraud.omg,what happen?i hope everything turn out well.

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bad dream

today i wake up to a really bad dream.its like i have this dream before.

what a scary dream,i want to erase it from my memory.

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my TB treatment

counting days,counting days

so today is the 40th day of my streptomychin injection,20 days to go.

i was diagnosed with TB early this year.trust me it wasnt pretty,regular hospital visit and pills.i quit my job for the time being and here i am tending my sickness ahaha.

the thing is i dont really have all the symptoms,its just i suddenly have chest pain everytime i cough.since it easily spread and i work in a closed environment plus i have weak antibodies then the rest is history.

–> have to swallow this everyday

peoples out there take care of you health.wear mask whenever you go to crowded place or avoid it.its a long recovery you know😂.

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my dog die

yesterday my long time dog die.im not sure how wany years he been with us but its quite a long time,since im in high school until i already in adult world working.

i dont see him regularly since i rarely going back to my village.during semester break i either join campus activities or work part time.money is tight.but the thing about my dog is whenever i come home he still excitedly greet me.

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keep breathing!

- me

[corncleo]

another day

i think after experiencing pain for a long period you go immune with it.of course it still hurt but not as much the early stage.

for the time being maybe its easier to just accept this as my daily routine: swallow a pills and everyday visit to hospital.

i mean its not like i can do anything about it,so i'll summon optimism.

when we think we got it the worst someone,somewhere maybe deal another much worst problem so lets just be grateful.

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since i love writing and i have lots of time now then this is it.

writing was some kind of therapy to me,well i dont have that much friends and my im sure my introverted self and resting b**** face didnt going to help😅.

this year,hmm i think i already spent the first 2 months in a slump.why am i like this?why my life turn out like this?

sick.jobless.broke.

can this get any worse?

still life goes on and im still here fighting.