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(person who learned from childhood to make themself as small and unimportant as possible to avoid being a burden) yeah its okay we dont have to do my thing if you dont want i dont mind

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yeah this is where this was always gonna fuckin go, unfortunately

she’s 35 years old, by the way

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“Masculinity is always rewarded in girls/vagina holders”

I wanna tell you all about my mom. I know this is a sentence used against transmascs, and im a transman, so I wanna use my voice to tell you about my mom.

My mom is a cis woman, a gender nonconforming woman. (I had to teach her gnc recently actually, because she couldn’t find a term that she felt accurate.)

My mom has always hung out with mostly guys, she can fix cars, we half-joke (because its true) that every time she breaks up with a man they steal her toolbox (they do). We’re going to negate her current relationship because my stepdad is a feminist who adores her, but not all of her exes where like that.

My mom has faced SO MUCH misogyny over her clothing, her makeup, her hobbies. When she was building her tiny model car, her ex would drunkly rant how thats a “boys hobby” and “she shouldn’t be doing that”. Her and my dad used to renovate houses when they were married, Dad would plaster, and mom would plaster alongside him. While also fixing doors and windows, and floors, and ceilings, and painting the damn thing. When she goes to autoparts stores, or car lots, they always talk to her like shes stupid. Recently shes been bringing her husband, so the associate will ramble his ear off, and when theyre finally done, her husband turns to her and goes “babe I don’t know a thing hes talking about, what do you suggest?” because theyre both just so pissed off about it.

Don’t get me wrong, my moms for the girls too! She’ll give her enemy a tampon type of person. But the girls turn their backs on her, quite frequently. Mom used to have a friend, a male friend, who would go to the bar with her. I knew him well. They’re not friends anymore because he used her hobbies and interests to try to sleep with her. He would always try to change her too. Mom likes cooking, so he would try to push her away from things like watching fantasy TV (he thought that was a more ‘male’ genre) or fixing up the house for things like cooking and cleaning.

And so when I came out as trans, it was a really hard time for my mom. She understands now, and shes a HUGE HUGE ally and advocate for me, and I couldn’t fathom having a more supportive mother, but she was really confused. Mom was worried I wanted to transition because the misogyny gnc/masculine women face. I didn’t shave, I liked playing with knives and multitools, when I did makeup it was always more Kiss/Marilyn Manson style, when my sisters did a Marilyn Monroe.

I remember her driving us home from the clothing shop I came out to her in, and the talk we had. She asked me if I was confused, and I said I was sure. She said that I could just be a tomboy, like her. That it didn’t matter what everyone else said about being a masculine woman. Having talked later as adults, she thought I thought the only option for the type of masculinity I have was to be a man. She was so scared for me and my safety because of how punished masculinity is in women.

So now, as I’m 23, and its 2025, Mom is still the gender nonconforming woman she always has been. Mom taught me how to fish, how to use a hatchet, knife safety, and how to cook and sew. I’m a man who picks up heavy things for her now that shes too disabled too, who wears makeup and nail polish with my denim cutoffs and binder, who still has to call my mommy when I can’t get this screw to screw in right mom, I dont know your tips and tricks.

And masculine women can exist alongside trans men. My mom goes to my hormone appointments with me to make sure these doctors are listening to me, she yells at me when I take my shots late, she picks up my hormones if I’m at work. Mom takes me to Pride every year, and god rest the soul of any transphobes that cross my mothers path. My moms for the girls and the gays, the he’s and the they’s, the its and the lesbians and everyone between. Mom will fix you dinner and your car, and we give her gifts on fathers day too because she was Mom and Dad growing up.

So no. Masculinity isn’t always rewarded in female-presenting people or people with vaginas. My very cis mother could tell you that much.

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‘no one is coming to save you’ okay fine I agree but can I even get a hug at least

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Sucks to see someone else living your dream.

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extremely funny to me that harley quinns real name is apparently harleen quinzel, a name that sounds less real that harley quinn. they should do that with more comic characters. batman real name batthew manning. daredevil real name darius devilson. doctor strange real name. well okay that one doesnt count.

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Penelope: Yeah, this shroud is taking me 20 years.

Suitors:

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do any of you remember that gumball episode where darwin becomes mega paranoid after watching a health and safety video so to quell his anxiety he goes out of his way to make everything kid friendly and inoffensive by propositioning it as being for the children and then he becomes a fascist at the end

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A random thing that annoys me, is when people insist that Minecraft has no lore. No, it doesn't have a story, but there is lore to the world. It is a game in a fantasy setting, by nature it has lore. To say something has lore, is not to say that it has a story. Like yeah, the specifics of the lore aren't specified by Mojang, because it's a sandbox game, you can do whatever you want, and part of that is interpreting the world in which you play. You can choose to ignore the lore implications that things in the game have, it's a sandbox game and that's a valid way to play, but it annoys me when people insist that there is no lore in the game at all. Because there's so much stuff with lore implications for the game. There is a zombification virus in the world, only villagers can be healed from it, the most common zombies in the overworld, look like the default player model, you're the last of a race that cannot be healed. Zombified piglins roam the nether, but piglins (and hoglins) also turn to zombies immediately upon entering the overworld. There's so many buildings, desert temples, ocean temples, ancient cities, etc, that are so much larger in scale and vision than the villager houses you see. Endermen are trying to talk to you. There's literally a dimension called "The End" that's made up of sporadic Islands floating in an endless void. There are the igloos with the chambers for healing zombie villagers under them. All these things have their lore implications. And people will say that oh, Minecraft doesn't have lore, because all the things people say are only theories, it's all made up. But. That. Is. The. Point. It is a sandbox game! That's part of the game, should you choose to play that way, to make theories, make stuff up, to draw conclusions, based on what the world you play in shows. Just because it doesn't have a strict story, or strict Canon lore, doesn't mean that it is absent of lore in its entirety. It's like that on purpose because that's how you play a sandbox game! You make stuff and you make stuff up!

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For the Taken and the Remaining: DREAM

Yesterday I went to a vigil for yet another murdered Black trans woman here in Washington DC, victim of a hate crime. Dream Johnson should still be here, and her family shouldn’t be mourning her loss. Her family said they wanted her to be known worldwide, that they didn’t want her to be erased like so many other Black trans women’s deaths. So here, as long as this site is up, we will say her name and remember her: DREAM.

A GoFundMe has been made for Dream’s family. Please go donate as long as it’s open, and reblog this so that they can get more funds to survive: https://www.gofundme.com/f/honor-dream-johnson-support-her-memorial

Below is an article I've written that speaks more about how trans people of color, especially Black and Hispanic trans women, suffer in our current society. It also contains modified non-religious versions of Cole Arthur Riley's Black Liturgies, as I know a lot of trans and queer folks have Issues around religion and spirituality.

While I write this with the loss of Black transfemmes in mind, I hope that you may find comfort in the liturgies for the passing of any trans or queer person. I hope that you'll remember Dream, A'nee, Skylar, every Black transfemme that has been taken from us.

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Lighting a cigarette - Yangshuo, 2019

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Paramount is not having a good day today

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the paul mccartney is dead conspiracy theory is the funniest thing in the world because i feel like if he did die and the beatles did replace him like parents replace a gold fish and the new guy managed to look exactly like him and play left handed bass, piano, and vocals in the same style and produce the same quality of music consistently for 30+ years then it'd be honestly rude to mention it at that point. like he's earned it let him have it

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we love koichi!!!!!!