cosmama

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hey. i love cosmos.

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its been 84 years

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i got sailor moon super live tickets hehe

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UPDATE : 1/17/25 .

I was really trying to avoid this, but I'm just at a point where I don't know what to do. I am currently -$104.71 in the bank and I am not making enough money to bring it back into the positive.

Here is the current situation with my job:

Last year, in October, I began working for my local newspaper. However, I am not an official employee. Instead, I am working through a vocational rehabilitation program set up by my local Workforce Center. This means that while I work for the paper, I am actually getting paid my wages through the Workforce Center. This is a 12-week program, wherein after the 12 weeks, I am to go under review to see if I qualify for another 12 weeks. After which, the paper will either have to hire me on as an official employee or I will have to look elsewhere for work.

As of December 31, 2024, my first 12 weeks has ended and I am currently waiting on review. In the meantime, I am still writing an article here and there and proofreading, but not nearly at the capacity I was prior.

I live in income-based housing, and have reduced my bills as much as I can, and I am receiving SNAP benefits and going to local food banks when I can. I am also looking for other work in case I am not approved for another 12-week program. In the interim, however, I am desperately trying to get my balance out of the negatives.

Unfortunately, with my current mental and physical health ( which I am in the process of applying for disability ), I cannot reliably offer graphic commissions right now. However, since it is my day job anyway, I can offer proofreading and editing services. I have a bachelor's degree in English and completed an online course in proofreading and copyediting.

If there's something you've written and plan to publish or submit ( online or otherwise ), please hit me up — I'd be happy to help! This can be anything! Academic papers ( I will proofread academic papers, but I will not edit them for you ), manuscripts, blog posts, websites, magazine articles, legal transcripts, resume writing, etc. I've been trying to bulk up my portfolio, so this would be a great opportunity for me to do that. We can discuss rates and pay privately either through Tumblr IMs or Discord, which you can ask me for.

If proofreading and editing services don't interest you and any of you would be willing to help out by donating, I would be truly appreciative and will include PayPal and CashApp links below. Even just spreading this around would help.

Thank you, guys.

PAYPAL : https://www.paypal.me/etherealfae

CASHAPP : $ethaeryal

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                            MERRY CHRISTMAS, AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!

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grown ass woman

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Something a bit brighter than normal! To be honest, I nearly gave up on this one entirely D: The original sketch I did (three years ago almost to the day, actually!) was really popular and I get fairly regular notes asking if I’ll ever finish it, but…I was kinda terrified of ruining it. I’m glad I persevered, though.

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📑 Favorite part of your muse’s backstory? // ⌨ What’s a situation you’ve always wanted to RP with the muse? 

summer talks about cosmos ( except even harder because i talk about cosmos a lot anyway ) // accepting.

📑 favorite part of your muse’s backstory? 

that she's a relatable character. sailor cosmos is cool because of her design and the mystery and her powers and all that sure, but it's not the coolest part about her. i don't think that's why fans have latched onto the character for decades. in a series of teenagers who have it together all the time, the last few pages of the series show the main character as a confused, broken adult. an adult who wants to protect her younger self from the harshness of the world she's had to experience. an adult who forgot how strong she used to be but reclaims her power again. that's incredibly human and relatable. the older i get and the more i learn things in life, i think that's the coolest part about the character. makenai forever.

⌨ What’s a situation you’ve always wanted to RP with the muse? 

easier to bullet point this:

cosmos and chaos are supposed to be 'equals' and while most of the villains of the series have been forms of chaos (or manipulated by it), i've been interested in seeing what happens when things skew too much in cosmos' favor. do you end up in a shadowbringers situation or

teenage akari in her early senshi days - hot pink hair and all ( and yes, my headcanon is her natural hair color before turning silver falls somewhere between chibiusa and chibi chibi's ). in my head, she's kind of a know-it-all mess aka usagi but like, what if she read a book?? her and xehanort should never meet.

sometimes i want to do sailor war stuff but i'm not really sure where it would go except 'war bad. akari sad. other senshi probably dies'. + there's not a lot of SM blogs that really write in that timeline anyway for me to make the effort.

that said i do like akari violence! :D mostly because i feel like fandom doesn't really talk about the implication of this woman being in war for years ( and seems implied to be a one woman army ). so if i can write her fighting or killing someone, i enjoy it ( even if she does not! ).

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Mun talks about the Muse

Send one of the following to ask the mun… (please specify muse for multis)

✍ Favorite thing about writing the muse? 👀Favorite thing about the muse’s appearance? 🌌Favorite alternate version of the muse? 💕Favorite ship for the muse?  💔Least favorite ship for the muse? 💢Something about the muse that annoys you? 😈Worst thing you’ve ever done to your muse?  😂Funniest thing that’s ever happened to your muse?  💡 What inspires you to write the muse?  📷 Favorite picture/screencap of your muse? 📑 Favorite part of your muse’s backstory?  📝 Favorite headcanon for your muse?  😒 Is there anything canon about your muse that you ignore?  🔮 What do you see in your muse’s future?  🔥 Unpopular opinion about your muse?  💭 Favorite memory of the muse?  😩 Hardest thing about writing the muse?  ⌨ What’s a situation you’ve always wanted to RP with the muse?  🎭 How similar are you and the muse? 

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*writes two things*

me:

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❛  here, you can have my scarf.  ❜ ( if you wish !!! 🥺🥺🥺 all of the soft and bittersweet interactions... )

holiday meme i accidently deleted rip // in which nyx tries to understand and accept ryoji, the person.

she's never known coldness before - at least not until now. nyx 'akari' quickly determines she does not like it. at all. a frown is set firmly on the entity's face as she observes the snow with barely hidden distaste. ryoji, on the other hand, was completely enthralled by it: he was too busy catching the falling snow in his hands to concern himself with her displeasure, happily admiring each snowflake before throwing the white fluff back into the air with a joyful laugh. akari silently watches in curiosity when he pauses briefly in thought...before excitedly sticking out his tongue to catch snow in his mouth.

she nearly chides him from her where she sits on nearby a park bench, a ' stop that. you will get sick. ' on the edge of her tongue before she chokes it down.

akari can only blink in confusion, wondering where the foreign feeling that nearly burst forth even came from. she's never 'watched' or worry overed thanathos before; she's never had to. they were bound together by forces beyond the limits of human comprehension since the dawn of time. she has always inherently understood him as much as she understood herself. with ryoji though, it was as if that link had been severed. she did not 'know' him. that thought frustrates her more than she likes to admit.

her brooding doesn't go unnoticed and akari soon feels a hand tenderly touching her arm - where she is aware that it's been becoming increasingly translucent. she has been stubbornly ignoring her unstable form for the past hour. ' i am alright. just cold, it makes it hard to keep up appearances here. ' it's a lie, and he probably knows it, but she offers him nothing more nor does he push her for more either. they sit in silence together, a half-moon watching over them before the quiet is broken with a gentle offer. once again, she finds herself blinking in confusion as she stares between ryoji and his scarf. a ' why? ' on the tip of her tongue.

as nyx, she's been asking that to him a lot lately: why do you insist we live amongst humans? why do you want to learn from them? why can't i understand you anymore?

she stops herself from asking the question. swallowing it deep before slowly accepting his scarf, mumbling a soft ' thank you. ' because he told her that's what humans do once it is in her hands. if he's surprised by that, he doesn't make it obvious when he leaps up with a cheerful ' you're welcome ! '. akari watches expressionless as he runs off to go leap into the snow again, leaving her with a bundle of knitted wool sitting in her lap awkwardly. she sits there for few minutes while pondering on what to do with it. was she supposed to wear it like he did?

carefully, one of her pale hands lifts it to her face and she wearily inspects it with a squint - probably an odd sight to any late-night onlooker passing by. after her thorough inspection of it is done, akari softly begins to wrap the scarf around her neck...until the entirety of it is not only around it but is also covering her mouth and chin. now a little less grumpy and a bit warmer, the 'mother' refocuses her attention on her 'son', who was now busying himself with making snow angels. she sighs and closes her eyes, frowning at the thought of having to wash his icy, wet clothes later.

if ryoji was going to have her out in the cold like this, she was going to at least tell him to go buy some of that nice hot milk with the soft, fluffy things in it soon...

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i was going to say it's weird akari keeps attracting kids associated with death or who like, try to destroy the world and other little things but then i remember chibs turned into black lady. so yea

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unfinished cosmos piece from a few months back. Didn’t like the direction so I never finished it (or plan to)

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i don't know when it happened because i don't check the sm wikipedia pages but i happened to be on usagi's page for something and chibi-chibi / sailor cosmos was listed in the section under her forms lol

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expect some unprompted asks from me

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assigning you a celestial entity.

like stars, you are effervescent and indefinable. stars somehow feel simultaneously within your grasp but infinitely far. people devotedly pour all their hopes and dreams out to you, spill their secrets, and bare their souls for the unique, special joy of gaining your favor. you are a special person to be around. being with you is like flying—weightless and exciting. you are sympathetic and can’t help trying to help everyone even when you’ve already got enough on your plate. you try to make everyone else’s dreams come true at the same time as yours.

you are warm—not in an outwardly radiating way but at your very core. in your thoughts, and intentions, and desires. like stars, you can be fickle, shifting according to the season and twinkling like you might wink out of existence at any moment. however, you make up for it in your extraordinary qualities — stars guide sailors to new lands, remind us to keep dreaming, and give us a reason to keep looking up. you are a beautiful and extraordinary person. even if people don't quite understand you, they admire and appreciate you. you inspire them to keep dreaming.

you sometimes miss what once was and have a hard time letting go. you find nostalgia simultaneously comforting and heartbreaking. yet you still manage to move forward. you also have a hard time seeing the value of your own innate brightness, yet still, think highly of yourself and what you have to offer the world. you somehow never manage to lose your spirit.

you are the light that never goes out, against all the odds.

you are the essence of art, creation, and beauty. the lightness of laughter. the shaky peace following a good cry. you are simultaneously cold-tempered with a warm core. you are beautiful and beloved and faithfully enduring. remember to take care of yourself the same way you do others. don’t burn out on us, we need you around.

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