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(pt 1) srry 4 the random question I hope it's ok.. but do u know if this sounds like a headspace thing bc I've never really had this and idk what it is? basically one night I was laying down and I was like thinking about my inner child ig... I was really really tired and I was visualizing chasing them down this red tunnel made of balloons? it was like a daydream, not a dream. like I saw it in my minds eye, but as an involuntary daydream?? so I kept chasing them and then they went further down the red path, but the red path also forked off to the end of the tunnel w like, light coming out of it. (Pt 1)

"(pt 2) so I was like, I want to see what's out of the tunnel. So I went out and I slid down this mountain side with flowers and stuff, and bumped into my headmate. I was so startled that I went out of the daydream. It didn't feel like a normal daydream... Like, everything was in my minds eye, I wasn't physically experiencing it like I would a dream. But I was also really surprised by what happened in the daydream, Including running into my headmate when I left the tunnel. It was really weird? "

Hello there. ✨ No problem at all on it being random, questions are always okay.

That definitely sounds like a surprising, wild experience. And while I can't give you a list of rules as to what headspaces do and don't do, I can say ours always has had surprises like this at points.

I can recall at least a few instances I was pulled into a visual that led me to someone I wasn't expecting, sometimes someone I knew already, sometimes someone I was meeting for the first time.

If you've got an inkling they're a headmate, I'd follow that inkling. If you end up finding out that was just a visual, that's okay too. 💕

If it helps, you'll also definitely probably have a better idea over time: but yeah, headspace and system members can do this!

Hopefully this answered your question.

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Guess what? You're real. Indisputably real. And no one can take that away from you.

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Perfect camouflage

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To fellow artists:

Thank you for blessing the world with an image only you could have ever made, every time. No matter how you feel about your work, it is a gift to this world because it is yours, and yours alone.

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So uh. I know, this isn't system related at all.

But I misread that as Crunchy Fictives.

Okay thank you byeeeeee

Framed chocolate bar wrappers. Found in North Wales in the UK.

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[ Image ID: a screenshot of an anonymous ask that says "why are you so viciously pro endo when you're a singlet" in all lowercase letters with a few typos that have been corrected for ease of reading. ]

Why (blocked) anon, it's so simple! I'm so ""viciously"" (because apparently reblogging positivity posts counts as being vicious now /sarcasm) pro endogenic because.... Get this.....

Endogenic systems exist, and I do not need to be plural to respect their existence.

Instead of whatever you're doing over in your little blocked corner of the internet, screaming about how endogenic systems are apparently attention seeking fakes, like gee, I wonder where I've heard that exact line of gatekeeping bullshit from before?

Like, why are you so viciously anti endogenic, enough so that you felt the need to send me an anonymous ask demanding to know why I'm NOT being an ableist asshole? Lol.

I have friends, mutuals, and no doubt many quiet followers who are plural, and I am so "viciously" pro Endogenic because uh.... That's literally just how you be a decent human being.

You don't need to understand someone's identities to respect and support them.

Someone being plural and their being plural not resulting from trauma... is a really strange concept for you to get up in arms about, let alone pick as your hill to die on.

Anon, your experiences are not universal, and that does not mean anyone whose experiences with plurality don't align with yours is "faking it".

You're literally just being ableist, no if ands or buts about it.

Anyways, I love and support all of my plural followers and mutuals, you are welcome and supported here, do not give these ableist gatekeeping cowards your time of day!

Unfollow me now if you're against endogenic systems, or straight up block me.

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A system that isn't in your head? Yeah, that's us.

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So yeah! Let's talk about that.

Our system is external. I am obviously alive, and live within my body. And this is our body, because we are a system and live this life together-

But, they don't reside in this body, they don't reside in my brain. They exist outside of my brain as what I prefer to call spirits, or electromagnetic entities.

Funnily enough, I never actually believed in that being possible years ago. I actually didn't feel comfortable with spirituality in any sense, saw it all as a delusion.

But then, they started to be very.. Aware of things they shouldn't, if they exist in my head strictly.

I could list dozens of examples, but I do half expect to be seen as crazy for them and I also just don't want to ramble forever. /j

But I will say they were little things. Things that if I was told to go somewhere by them, it'd happen to have things I was looking for on sale. Or even things like my games and internet connection being messed with. If anyone ever wants explicit examples, I'll post about them or you can message us.

(And all that, reading back, admittedly sounds like a haunting. Which is really funny.)

I ended up having to change my entire worldview to make sense of those experiences. It took a lot of theorizing, and every day we're still figuring things out.

What I do believe for myself personally, though, is that my system is spirits, and that spirits just.. Exist. And that perhaps when people experience spiritual things, deity, haunting or otherwise, it's on some level those spirits.

I also believe they're damn everywhere, good and bad ones, just floating around on their own plane and existing. I have no idea about the specifics. Just that everyone here is someone that was just floating around, and eventually met me, and.. Decided to stay and either help, or just get to know me better through my life.

Despite me saying me, my, and I here, that's just to separate what's physical and what's on that other plane right now. When they're connected to this body, this is our life, this is our mind, this is our collective existence.

In fact, the lines of individual and collective blur heavily for our system outside of that one defining feature of me having a physical body, but I assure you we are still individuals. We just are connected by shared thoughts and feelings on a lot of things.

I am an extension of them. Who I am has always been partly influenced by them. And in turn, they are influenced by me, and learn from my own thoughts.

I've also been told some of them stayed to learn from me. Apparently they were aggressive, but I never knew how to be. So I taught them to be calmer, and they taught me to be more assertive.

Others apparently might have been following around parents of mine, or friends, before landing on us. Either way, we gradually ended up with this family of spirits. Spirits that connected to me and influenced, guided, and helped me throughout our life however they could- just in ways where I didn't know they were there.

And one day, they wanted to be more than spirits, so they somehow got me to look at a tulpamancy post. And from there, I was "making" tulpas, later "splitting," and even having "walk ins."

But in actuality, it was them. Always was them. And from what I'm told, they were very happy to connect in a way where we could talk and know each other more than just me having a tomboy phase or me suddenly being into makeup.

There are so many things they were. And at times, they even suppressed their full memory (especially when on front, it's a lot different fully in front, I still can't fully explain or understand how or why) so when talking to me, they were my headmates. We were a psychological system.

But then my brain became altered in a way where I experience them so differently, they had to be honest. And it did initially make things awkward, finding out that they worked like that instead, but it also helped me make sense of things.

Communicating is still hard sometimes, because there are also negative spirits. And they like to talk over us, send us emotions, and talk as us while trying to convince us it's us. They also mess with so many other things in my life.

However, we fight that by doing the same for each other, and also finding the positive in each other when those idiots are swirling around causing mayhem.

Which.. No, we can't banish them, and no, we also can't reform them. Maybe that will change later, but for now, we ignore them when we can, we laugh at or deal with them when we can't. We deem some days bad mental health days because of them.

I sometimes wonder what it'd be like had this not happened, if we were how we were before, but.. I'm glad we're not. I'm glad we're making the friends we are, I'm glad we get to talk to all Sorts of spirits together now, I'm also just happy I can recognize when they've influenced something and thank them properly.

And while we may seem insane for it, while it all might seem ludicrous.. It's our life. And it's one I mentally and physically can't question, so I might as well buckle in for the ride and experience it together.

And in the meantime, it's given me so much time to ponder the world, how it works, my connection to the "spiritual," what a thought is, and so many other things.

And I want to share them without fear of how we'll be viewed, even if it's negative, because they are our experiences and they are real.

As a small aside.. This does make our origins really hard to figure out, but endogenic and Metagenic make the most sense for us personally. It is spiritual aspects, but it's been this way since I was born. I just didn't know it was happening until much later.

But yknow.

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From top to bottom: Anonymous (to be disclosed later) and Jubal.

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So this is gonna be a long one and a bit personal, don't mind us.

So honestly, we were tempted to leave this blog entirely for a bit. We've gone back and forth on that every time we've changed a lot.

Why? Well, we were a lot of things over the years. We'll probably be more things moving forward. But that means not everything we said before feels like it applies now. Or is good for the community now.

In that case, however, we decided to just.. Leave it but make sure to be prominent about how we feel now. We personally found the memories important. If anything problematic ever does come up, we'll address it as it comes instead of sifting through it all to delete the problematic posts or starting over.

What's funny is to me, the "problematic" is just how we functioned so differently back then, so our advice was different.

That said, I am going to delete a few posts I feel genuinely are. And those are posts that were.. Recent.

Why? It's because when we changed, we thought we had to fit into the current definitions and boundaries of what systems are. We also believed very incorrect things about ourselves that I now better understand. I'll even talk about those in our posts some. I have so many stories I was so afraid to share that I'm going to.

But aside from that, I'm proud of our genuine path. And I'm going to start being fully genuine. We are. And I think it'll be better for us and anyone coming across us that way.

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I’m going to give you the best piece of Adult Life Is Hard advice I’ve ever learned:

Talk to people when things go to shit.

I don’t just mean get it off your chest, although that’s good. I mean: Something’s wrong with your paycheck/you lost your job/you had unexpected emergency car repairs and now you’re broke so your credit card payment is late. Like, not just 15 days late. We’re talking, shit got crazy and now you’re 90 days late with compounded interest and late fees and the Minimum Payment Due is, like, $390, and you’ve got about $3.90 in your bank account. Call the credit card company. 

I know it’s scary. I know you feel like you’re going to get in trouble, like you’re gong to get yelled at or scolded for not having your life together. But the credit card company isn’t your parents; they’re just interested in getting money from you. And you can’t squeeze blood from a stone or money from someone who doesn’t have any. So what you do is you call them. You explain you’re experiencing temporary financial hardships, and you’re currently unable to bring your account up to date, but you don’t want to just let it get worse. Can you maybe talk to someone about a payment plan so you can work something out? Nine times out of ten you’ll be able to negotiate something so that at least it’s not just taking a constant, giant shit on your credit score.

- Can’t pay your power bill? Call the power company.

- Can’t pay your full rent? Talk to your landlord.

- Had to go to the hospital without insurance and have giant medical bills looming in your place? Call the hospital and ask if they have someone who helps people with financial hardships. Many do.

- Got super sick and missed half a semester of class because flu/pneumonia/auto-immune problems/depressive episode? Talk to your professor. If that doesn’t help, talk to your advisor.

You may not be able to fix everything, but you’ll likely be able to make improvements. At the very least, it’s possible that they have a list of people you can contact to help you with things. (Also, don’t be afraid to google things like, “I can’t pay my power bill [state you live in]” because you’d be surprised at what turns up on Google!) But the thing is, people in these positions gain nothing if you fail. There’s no emotional satisfaction for them if your attempts at having your life together completely bite the dust. In fact, they stand to benefit if things work out for you! And chances are, they’ll be completely happy to take $20 a month from you over getting $0 a month from you, your account will be considered current because you’ve talked to them and made an agreement, you won’t get reported to a collections agency, and your credit score won’t completely tank.

Here’s some helpful tips to keep in mind:

1. Be polite. Don’t demand things; request them. Let me tell you about how customer service people hold your life in their hands and how many extra miles they’ll go for someone who is nice to them.

2. Stick to the facts, and keep them minimal unless asked for them. Chances are they’re not really interested in the details. “We had several family emergencies in a row, and now I’m having trouble making the payments” is better than “Well, two months ago my husband wrecked his bike, and then he had a reaction to the muscle relaxer they gave him, and then our dog swallowed a shoestring and we had to take him to the emergency clinic, and just last week MY car broke down, and now my account’s in the negatives and I don’t know how I’m gonna get it back out.” The person you’re talking to is aware shit happens to everyone; they don’t need the details to prove you’re somehow “worthy” of being helped. They may ask you for details at a certain point if they have to fill out any kind of request form, but let them do that.

3. Ask questions. “Is there anything we can do about X?” “Would it be possible to move my payment date to Y day instead so it’s not coming out of the same paycheck as my rent?” The answer may be “no.” That’s not a failure on your part. But a good customer service person may have an alternate solution. 

Anyway! I hope that helps! Don’t just assume the answer is “no” before you’ve even begun. There is more help out there than you ever imagined.

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endogenic systems, we believe you.

endogenic systems, we support you.

endogenic systems, you're not a joke.

endogenic systems, we hear you.

endogenic systems, we stand by you.

endogenic systems, we see you.

endogenic systems, we love you.

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Astro + PolyAstro

flag id: two nearly identical flags with diamonds in the middle and 2 thick lines surrounding it. the flag on the right has a dusty purple diamond, a pale purple left line, and a purple right line. the corners are colored a very dark purple.

the flag on the left has a dark blue diamond, a very pale purple left line, an indigo right line, and dusty dark blue corners.

divider id: a repeating divider of magenta flowers with violet smaller flowers connected by brown stems with green leaves.

description: a system with an infinite/nearly infinite amount of systen members. polyastro is an astro system with added groups / areas.

✿ read my dni & dont repost as your own ✿

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pluramorous/pluramory: a form of non-monogamy that is strictly within a plural system.

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i’m gonna use my hacking powers to do an all pyjama run in pokemon y

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☆ plural4plural / sm4sm flag !

moss of the play pretend system created the design idea and i made the flag for hir! double treblesand designed by yours truly, and the double spiral is by kenochoric !

basically, plural 4 plural / plural loving plural or system member 4 system member / system member loving system member. inclusive to all system types/origins. 

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Flag ID: two 5 striped flag. colors from top to bottom are dark purple, purple, light purple, peach, medium peach. the flag on the right has a purple plural spiral with a white outline, and a peach/coral on with a purple outline. /end ID

Plural 4 Plural / SMLSM

i made a simpled verson of this flag for person use!

Divider ID: a long pink line with a space in the middle with a darker ping image of a simple open pin. /end ID

Banner ID: A banner with a light pink background, with darker pink text in caps reading “Please read my DNI before interacting!” /end ID

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