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BPD culture is today is what would've been my anniversary with my fp. but they abandoned me when i was at my lowest and now its only 4 in the morning and im in tears grieving them. grieving us.

i finally blocked them.

i cant keep hanging on to someone who never cared for me.

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what the actual fuck ever i bet i could kill myself and nobody would even notice. maybe this is good. its getting closer to october and im becoming more offline……..this might work.

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“you never do anything” wow im sure its not related to the fact that i wake up every morning wishing i hadnt

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im about to be paranoid for the rest of my life

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im gonna fucking kill myself WHY ARE YOU SUCH A BITCH. IM SO FUCKING SORRY I WAS BORN BUT WHOS FAULT IS THAT???

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bpd culture is PLEASE COME BACK ILL BE BETTER FOR YOU I WONT TELL YOU HOW I FEEL OR VENT TO YOU OR EVEN TALK TO YOU UNTIL YOU TEXT FIRST JUST PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME. WHY WOULD YOU SPEND YEARS CONVINCING ME THAT YOU WONT LEAVE IF YOURE JUST GOING TO FUCKING DO THAT ANYWAY!!!! PLEASE IM BEGGING ILL DO ANYTHING JUST PLEASE GRACE ME WITH YOUR PRESENCE ONE MORE TIME. I CANT DO THIS WITHOUT YOU. PLEASE

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SHUT UP YOU FILTHY FUCK IF YOU SAY ANOTHER WORD YOURE GOING RIGHT BACK TO FUCKING MIND PRISON. THATS RIGHT. ILL FUCKING GROUND YOU CUNT

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Okay like in retrospect that was also probably Not Really Great but like 1. Im better for it 2. Major flex 3. I had significantly bigger issues at the time

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dedication to a person so insane that i turn off the shower to pick up a call