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Interviewer: where do you see yourself in 5 years?

Me: I used escapist fantasies as a coping mechanism to get through years of trauma and therefore never learned how to plan for a real life future

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I will leave. And I will never speak to you again. 

You won’t know my name. You won’t see me grow. You won’t be there to see me buy my first house. Get married. Flourish. 

You made a bad investment. This one isn’t turning out the way you thought it would. 

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She’s happy to let me die.

Six word stories! Can you write a six word story about abuse? The challenge is to imply a beginning, middle, end in only 6 words. That’s really hard so even if you can’t do all that, totally still participate!

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I hate those moments where I stop moving and suddenly I have to feel every ounce of depression I’ve been trying to power through. 

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house of leaves / tarkovsky 

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i’m entirely capable of being a fucking nightmare.

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The Cat has its Heart on the Outside

Available as a fanzine in Swedish with a translation note here.

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All that matters is you’re trying 

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Fuck this shit

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One minute…

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Destroys everything.

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dont go….

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In a nutshell…

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glitch in the system

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Remember that really like a brief month or two where I was really jazzed about my life and future only to have it all come down and crash around me? That was great. Love that.