cowboycaptive

[cowboycaptive]

when i said i'd do anything and everything for you, i meant it. i'd cut myself, let you abuse me, manipulate me, ruin my life. just don't ever leave me alone.

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It would be so lovely having someone look at my bruised up body with satisfaction and love, instead of someone who'd look at it with pity…

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I got that dog in me. (Waiting at your door till you come home.)

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up thinking about fat guys, strong guys, guys who are so much bigger than me and can hold me down, guys who can fight against my squirming and it doesn’t even deter him, if anything it only fuels him

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I'll find a way to keep you alive for as long as possible while I tear you apart. Maybe a mix of meth and epinephrine, that should do it. Or yk, when i was a kid, there was rumor of a drug people were taking that even when they got shot it didn't phase them until the drug wore off, might ask around and find out if it was just a rumor or not.

I'd cut off your arms and legs before I start, maybe let them heal for a couple weeks. Just so you dont bleed out on me too fast.

I'm gonna strap you down by your torso and throat so you can't move at all. And then i'm gonna wrap barbed wire around a dildo and shove it up your virgin ass and fuck you with it, ripping your hole apart until its just that; a hole.

Maybe I'll cut your tongue out so you can't speak, you can only scream.

When I get bored and decide to kill you, I'll cut you open vivisection style. Break your ribs in a down and out motion. And then I'll show you your beating heart before I rip it out of your chest and watch the life leave you. Yk, I've always wanted to fuck the aortic valve of a heart. Maybe that dream can come true with you.

-🐏 hi, ignore me, idk what's wrong with me today

someone’s aggressive today. heya dad.

yeah, keep me drugged up. there’s only so much pain someone can handle before they pass out.

i’ve always liked the idea of vivisection. and my heart? it’d still keep beating for a big, but i’m sure you know that. nice and tight too.

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I wait for your response like a dog waits for its owner, I constantly open and close our messages as if suddenly I'll get a response and if I'm not looking, I'll miss it, I stare at your profile until it turns green, telling me your online.

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the urge to track him down, to learn everything about him, to write down little notes and details till i've made bible-sized books of my beloved.

his presence is surreal. it feels religious, divine; he is an angel from the heavens above. i want to remove the waste around him — those nasty memories, unnecessary friends, mindless people who can't even begin to comprehend his perfection — and keep him for myself.

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02, 05, 09, 13, 20, 26, 31, 64

02 ; who did you last say “I love you” to? — my fp, i believe.

05 ; what is your relationship status? — single.

09 ; do you bite your nails? — surprisingly no. i never developed the habit.

13 ; do you hate anyone at the moment? — hate is a strong emotion that i do not have energy for. i harbour extreme dislike, but not hatred to anyone. so yes, there are people, but hate wouldn't be the right word.

20 ; where was the last place you snogged someone? — a quiet staircase at a park.

26 ; what are you craving right now? — food wise? something rich, maybe a whittaker's coconut chocolate bar or some dark chocolate. in general, warmth. it's very cold right now. craving an obsessed parasocial stalker too but my dreams are just dreams.

31 ; does somebody love you? — romantically? unlikely, though i wish, even if i don't return the feelings. in general? i hope so.

64 ; would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? — no. i enjoy kissing him.

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70 horrible questions ... Fuck it

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? 02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? 03: Do you regret anything? 04: Are you insecure? 05: What is your relationship status? 06: How do you want to die? 07: What did you last eat? 08: Played any sports? 09: Do you bite your nails? 10: When was your last physical fight? 11: Do you like someone? 12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? 13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? 14: Do you miss someone? 15: Have any pets? 16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? 17: Ever made out in the bathroom? 18: Are you scared of spiders? 19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? 20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? 21: What are your plans for this weekend? 22: Do you want to have kids? How many? 23: Do you have piercings? How many? 24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? 25: Do you miss anyone from your past? 26: What are you craving right now? 27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? 28: Have you ever been cheated on? 29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? 30: What’s irritating you right now? 31: Does somebody love you? 32: What is your favourite color? 33: Do you have trust issues? 34: Who/what was your last dream about? 35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? 36: Do you give out second chances too easily? 37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? 38: Is this year the best year of your life? 39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? 51: Favourite food? 52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? 53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? 54: Is cheating ever okay? 55: Are you mean? 56: How many people have you fist fought? 57: Do you believe in true love? 58: Favourite weather? 59: Do you like the snow? 60: Do you wanna get married? 61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? 62: What makes you happy? 63: Would you change your name? 64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? 65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? 66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? 67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? 68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? 69: Do you believe in soulmates? 70: Is there anyone you would die for?

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I deserve attention

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All these notes yet no anons. . . . are people scared of me? . . .

#beparasocial #becreepy #berotten #beweird

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Mutual codependency, obsession, and self destruction until we end up killing one another? :-)

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wanna be your lil found footage horror sex tape star 🌟

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one day someone will treat me like their dog and will abuse and manipulate me, because thats how they show their love for me. break me down until im nothing but a lost, desperate devoted puppy, doing everything and anything they want because they've made me live for them.

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i found an audio porn that sounds very similar to you, like some of the whines and begs are the exact same sounding

-👅

first of all, HELLO?????? second of all, send the link. i need to see how you perceive me.

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giving neck kisses to guys (its just one guy) with sensitive necks is so fun because he's just yapping about something or the other and i'm nodding along and watching his face get redder as every so often he pauses speaking for just a second before acting like nothing is happening... ugh it's so hot having such subtle power over someone

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no please i'm a stay at home husband not a stay at home dad !!

( i am empl*yed FML FML FML )

can't send him reels about male pregnancy ( science related ) because that tboy is trying with all his might to get me pregnant