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crackedramblings · 1 year ago
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Dreams from 19.8.24
Dream 1: I was having surgery on my knees. I wasn’t given anesthesia but had to tough it out awake. I remember having the surgical implement in my knee and being in a lot of pain. Then I was given some time to recover before the other knee was worked on. My husband was there and he said something about how he didn’t think the surgeon was very clean, or was not being properly sanitary, something along those lines. My sense was to shrug it off and just get it over with. [Second dream about having surgery while awake. Wtf?]
Dream 2: It was dads birthday, and he’d been laid off from work on the same day. [He hasn’t worked in 20+ years.] We had a party for him planned with a cake and food being delivered. We told the guy that delivered the food how dad was laid off from work on the same day as his birthday, and the guy was sympathetic. Dad didn’t seem overly worried about the situation but perhaps it was a cover.
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crackedramblings · 1 year ago
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Dream from 14.8.24
We were talking about where we should eat lunch the next day. I threw out an idea, you countered with something else. We tentatively agreed to eat lunch together at a specific place. Then I overslept. I didn’t wake up until noon, or a few minutes after. I hoped you hadn’t already gone to the restaurant. I sent you a text message: “I just woke up.” I worried about standing you up but then realized you probably hadn’t even left home yet. We were in sync enough that you knew to wait until you heard from me. We’d probably be able to eat together after all.
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crackedramblings · 1 year ago
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Dreams from 13.8.24
Dream 1: I was visiting my old workplace, the one I dream about working at so much. But this time I was just visiting. I remember wandering around, feeling sad, or disapproving, about how awful the place was. I remember my mouth was set in a grim line. Particularly I felt worried about a previous co-worker (W) and hoped she would realize how bad of a situation it was. I wanted all of them, however, to realize that they didn't have to tolerate this low vibe shit. They could work together to rise about it.
Dream 2: I was hanging out with a Youtube personality that I watch. A paranormal event began to happen; I saw a child's rocking chair and a doll knocked over by what I knew must have been a spirit. I then physically saw a youngish girl in spirit form and began talking to her; asking her name, when she died, trying to figure out info so I could research her and find out who she was in real life. She dissipated though before I could get a solid grasp of who she was. The YT person seemed taken aback by the whole thing, and perhaps a little frightened. I was more excited than frightened, because I had a witness of the stuff I was seeing.
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crackedramblings · 1 year ago
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Dream from 12.8.24
I was giving a seminar to a group of friends and strangers on why I had such problems with christianity. I was trying to get across that it was okay to have your own belief system but that the structure of the religion causes all sorts of unhealthy issues. I was worried about offending my family but at the same time I knew I had to be honest about my own truth.[This is probably related to my reading material lately which has to do with how the xtian church feels about women.]
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crackedramblings · 1 year ago
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Dream from 11.8.24
I was asleep in my dream and woke up in the dream from a nightmare. I had tried to open the door to the basement in the home I grew up in and a dark force was behind it. Maybe embodied maybe not. I just knew there was a dark force down there. I slammed the door closed [no such door existed irl in that house]. I sent reiki through the door and felt very stubborn about doing it. Like, I could have been afraid and ran away, but I was determined to “love” this darkness away. I was going to “face” it so to speak.
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crackedramblings · 1 year ago
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Dream from 10.8.24
I was in a set of rooms that belonged to my aunt T and uncle J (both deceased). I was poking around looking at different things and found some family stuff that indicated they had four children. But really I only knew about three of them. In the dream there was another daughter, older than the rest of their kids, that was referenced in a family chart. how did I not know about her? Did something happen to the oldest daughter? why was she never mentioned? it was a mystery. I didnt want to ask them about it in case it was some great tragedy.
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crackedramblings · 1 year ago
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Dream from 9.8.24
I was going back to school. It was a college class, but it seemed like only one class. Regardless I was going to move to live there. I wasn’t prepared, nothing was planned out. I had this idea I would just show up on campus and everything would work out. The week classes were supposed to start, I was still living at home with mom. I realized I had missed the first class of the semester because I was not paying attention. Would I still be able to complete it? Would the instructor mind? I hated missing the initial class which covered the syllabus etc. I then found myself in the college town, hunting for a place to live. I felt awkward being so much older than the other students. Who would want to room with me?
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crackedramblings · 1 year ago
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Dream from 5.8.24
We were going to my aunts (now deceased) for thanksgiving. I was carrying a small plate inside the house, it contained some food dish mom had made. i was clumsy, tripping and staggering, and mom admonished me for almost dropping the plate. It was a very special dish, containing our ancestor. I guess she had put the ashes of this unspecified ancestor into the dish itself. i was quite disturbed by this, but shrugged and figured someone must want to eat it. personally i was going to avoid it.
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crackedramblings · 1 year ago
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Dream from 3.8.24
I was preparing to attend a funeral. A friend I’d had in childhood had died (NM). I hadn’t seen her for 30 years so I didn’t feel overly sad about it. In fact I was more concerned with my outfit. It was the middle of the night, pitch black, but I was at the funeral venue. In my long black dress, with a jacket (maybe the denim one I wore in middle school). I went inside in the dark building, no lights were on, and sat down and waited for the funeral to start. I dozed on and off. Eventually the funeral started and the dream ended in the middle of it.
I also dreamed about working at my old job again.
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crackedramblings · 1 year ago
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Dream from 2.8.24
I was working as a secretary or just general help for a family. Were they in politics? Organized crime? They kept having meetings and long distance conference calls, some of which felt like they were in Italian. I wasn’t in on the calls, I just knew about them. One of the younger sons asked me to make some phone calls. He’d had an incident, and now there was a dead body. He asked me to make two calls: the first to a woman, someone older and wiser. Then after that to the authorities. He left to go into a meeting and I forgot about making any calls. As it was nearing the end of the day, I suddenly remembered that I was supposed to do two things. I picked up the phone and somehow got connected to the Italian conference call; that was wrong, so I hung up. Then I called the lady and tried to remember the message, but couldn’t even remember the last name of the family I worked for. I think I got the message across to her, she didn’t sound concerned about the situation though. I don’t remember placing the second call, I think the dream ended there.
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crackedramblings · 1 year ago
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Dreams from 1.8.24
Scene 1: Eating with a friend, or friends, and it seemed as if I was being targeted by a male. Was he poisoning my food? He was trying to act normal but I could tell he was up to something. He was definitely trying to make me sick.
Scene 2: I was in a large communal bathroom which was dirty, very dirty. It felt like a public bathroom at a park or camping location, but it was a normal brick building with flush toilets. So it was “modern” but still gross. I was sitting on the toilet, trying to do my business (it felt related to the poisoning of scene 1) when sewage and water started flooding in. There was no way I was going to stick around for that. I left, knowing that I could have stayed behind to help with cleanup efforts, but I really didn’t want to be bothered. I sort of shrugged internally and assumed that someone would figure it out. After leaving, I discovered that there was a second bathroom, right next to the filthy one, that looked exactly the same but was clean. I decided to use that one.
Scene 3: I was moving into a new bed for college. It was a double or maybe triple bunk bed. I didn’t know anyone that slept there but saw the top bunk was available. One of my male cousins showed up; he either wanted that bunk or the one across from it. I sighed internally, prepared to give him the bunk I’d spotted. But then it wasn’t my cousin, just some random guy. He was nice enough and we were both new to the place. I forgot about the bed somehow. Or it became irrelevant.
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crackedramblings · 1 year ago
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Dream from 28.7.24
All I remember is sitting at the dining room table in the house I grew up in, and trying to draw a graph to show my husband my “philosophy of life.” In the dream I was drawing the ups and downs of life and trying to explain to him that it’s better to look at the pattern as a whole than to focus on the peaks and valleys of the journey. However, while in the middle of my explanation, he got up without saying a word. He opened the sliding glass door and stepped outside onto the deck and went outside. He was “gone.” [BTW I don’t think that’s even my philosophy of life, it was just a dream thing. Also I realized my grandma’s birthday is soon so I presume that’s why I dreamed about her yesterday.]
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crackedramblings · 1 year ago
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Dream from 27.7.24
I don’t remember much but my grandma B (now deceased) was there. She seemed her normal self. Also aunt D and cousin RP. RP was talking about how much she liked living in Illinois (that is not where she lives IRL). I got the vibe that I might end up living in Illinois too. It might be an easier place to deal with than my current state and its politics that I don’t agree with.
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crackedramblings · 1 year ago
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Dreams from 25.7.24
Scene 1: Sister in law spraying me with a new perfume. She doused me in it and I ran away saying it was too much. But the nozzle of the spray bottle has hooked into my clothes and I was tethered to it. I had to walk back to her to free myself. Why would she spray so much perfume on me anyway? I never wear it. Oh wait, maybe years ago she saw me spray fragrance all over my coat and that’s where she got the idea.
Scene 2: Husband was getting a deal from work where we could get items free or discounted. There was a lot of paperwork involved. I found a sweater that I could use, I think it was at Target or a department store. I was going to buy it, but I had second thoughts. How would the discount work at this store? Would they know to give it to me at the register? Would husband’s company reimburse me? Would I not get a discount at all? I decided to put the sweater back.
Scene 3: Brother and I came into a house via a basement door. He went first and I walked in behind him. I went to close the door behind me and wasn’t going to bother with the lock but realized a boy was fiddling with it from the other side. I hesitated but decided the door needed to be locked. I didn’t want some random kid trying to get into the house. People might judge me for locking the kid out and not seeing what he wanted. But I felt the kid was creepy and must have been up to no good by silently trying to undo the lock.
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crackedramblings · 1 year ago
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Dreams from 24.7.24
Scene 1: A basketball game. Co-worker AS (from 23.7 dream) was trying to make the winning shot at the buzzer and he flubbed it. He missed and the other team won. I felt bad for him but talking to him about it later, he didn’t seem too upset. He was already thinking about the next game.
Scene 2: I was at a dinner party sitting by a lady I didn’t know. Turns out she produced a local magazine. I decided to ask her if I could write an article for it. I thought about writing a piece covering a new restaurant in town. I was hesitant because I’d never published before but felt like it was time to do some work again.
Scene 3: A store existed that allowed you to go through a process that would change your reality. The process was fairly arduous and the owner kept trying to talk me out of it. I was persistent and halfway through our conversation I felt my reality shift. My hair looked better, I was cleaner, some of my pain disappeared. Someone else must have gone through the process and somehow it affected me in a positive way. This only increased my interest in doing the process myself. The odd thing was that in the dream I felt I had already done all the hard work, and the only thing missing was the act of the owner or one of his workers “turning the key” to shift my reality to a pleasanter one.
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crackedramblings · 1 year ago
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Dream from 23.7.24
I was hanging out with an old co-worker (AS). We were tinkering with the software I used to use for some work projects. I hadn't done anything with this software in quite some time and had forgotten how to use it. He decided to send me a message through it, and said laughingly "If you ever figure out how to log on again, you'll see it." He then implied that he'd sent me a message long ago to which I'd never responded. After he left, I was able to figure out how he had typed out the message. It was encoded in a basic text file. I could have read it there, and I read at least half of the first sentence. It almost seemed like a love confession. (We were just friends IRL, I was friends with his wife and they were both at my wedding.) Instead of finishing reading the message in the basic text file, I thought I should go to the trouble of actually loading the software and figuring out how it worked again. That way, he would get a notification that I'd received his message. I couldn't figure out how to load it, though. Either I'd forgotten the password or something else was wrong with the configuration.
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crackedramblings · 1 year ago
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Dreams from 22.7.24
I was at my old job and sitting at a desk. One of the owners (LD) passed by and handed me some mail. It was a couple of small envelopes and I could tell they were from me neighbors. Almost like they were sending me little greeting cards as a way of welcoming me to the neighborhood. He made a remark about how popular I was, I said something jokey back about how they all wanted to be my friend. Or something to that effect. On one of the envelopes the sender had written some passive aggressive, faux concerning stuff about my company; I knew the owner must have read it when he handed it to me. Something like, the business I was in was highly suspicious, and wasn't I concerned about being associated with illegal activities? It was a very odd message to write especially on the outside of the envelope that anyone could see.
Later on in the dream I was looking into some investment, and I was putting together some paperwork to invest a chunk of my money in something like a bond. I was suddenly, in the dream, aware that I'd been dating a football player. He and I were out together, and a guy he knew was there. The football player was very much wanting to connect with the other random guy as a friend, but was being brushed off. The vibe was "you're not cool enough for me." I started giving this rude guy a lecture, explaining to him that my boyfriend, as a football player, was going to end up very wealthy and would need close alliances to help him invest his money. Didn't he think it through before brushing him off?
The last dream was at a sort of family farm which sold vehicles. I can't remember what I was doing there and why, but I wasn't part of the family, I was just visiting. I wasn't buying a car either. Perhaps I was helping or advising, or just visiting for its own sake.
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