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Me realizing that the reason i feel so alive when i listen to music and make art is because my two severed halves are synergizing and I feel whole for a short period of time. It feels like divine madness that I can't live without. I feel I feel like. Garnet

Me realizing that my crazymaking ambivalence about everything and confusion around my personality and jumping back and forth between saying "This is how i am" vs "no THIS is how i am" and decisionmaking that is so difficult that i usually end up in a stalemate are all bc there was a Schism that happened in me when i was traumatized as my four year old self and that four year old self lives in me like a time capsule that contains the missing aspects of my personhood while the rest of me contains all of my experiences after and i fundamentally cannot get all of me to agree bc what made me divide is still unresolved

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I think men should be allowed to be angry and wild in the context of not having power over another person bc it's natural in them just like anger and wildness is natural in us all... it's sexy as hell but it's impossible to find someone who lets themselves be this way because when men allow themselves to they're usually incredibly toxic and far right because theyve found refugee for their rejected emotions in groups that foster them for all of the wrong reasons

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Me realizing that my crazymaking ambivalence about everything and confusion around my personality and jumping back and forth between saying "This is how i am" vs "no THIS is how i am" and decisionmaking that is so difficult that i usually end up in a stalemate are all bc there was a Schism that happened in me when i was traumatized as my four year old self and that four year old self lives in me like a time capsule that contains the missing aspects of my personhood while the rest of me contains all of my experiences after and i fundamentally cannot get all of me to agree bc what made me divide is still unresolved

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I wish that on breath of the wild when the champion abilities recharge it would register as a real sound so that when you could be trying to be stealthy Daruk's Protection Is Ready To Roll would suddenly alert the enemies

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Nothing to see here just three bad bitches looking at eachother

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Some People Just Dont Grow some people look at every situation as something that is affecting them impossibly without seeing themselves as a variable that they can change and i dont understand it Some People Will Just Make Passive Aggressive Comments At You Indefinitely While You Carry The Shift Whilst Waiting for You To Tell Them What To Do. Instead of Catching On. Some people Will make it Your Job to be their Mother while Flinging Resentment In Your Direction.

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Grain of sand stuck in my eye since yesterday

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Going through my mail i wish i had a male to go through

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You can think but can you see

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Busch Lite Icee

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Gets a the kind of computer ive been waiting years to get (the kind i can make art on). Lets it sit in the box

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Dont listen to me im literally volatile and impassioned

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I need Putin to die and for Russia to have a full kawaii esque rebrand. I need like Moscow denim to become a thing and I want to be able to go to a wine bar in St. Petersburg that has a painting of azealia banks or beyonce somewhere. I have a vision for this world

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I cant stand being around people pleasers for a Lot of reasons but i just saw someone on reddit point out that it's exploitative bc they need your engagement and reciprocation in order to feel better about themselves and i agree. It honestly feels like being eaten alive by a sad sad meek dragon . It's a boundary violation . It's energy theft . Ive been in your shoes i frequently AM in your shoes and i still cant stand it . Doesnt mean it's not a violation

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it’s not feminist to allow men to degrade you as a woman and be sexually subservient to them. Of course you are allowed to do that and to want that. You can do whatever you want. It’s just not feminist Lol it’s not morally wrong or anything But claiming that’s somehow empowering is insane.

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Why even work at 6am who the fuck U serving Bitch who the fuck wakes up at 5am and says I'm going to target in an hour Are you fucking insane Nancy you need to die 1 2 and 3 Whoever buying dog food at 6am Waking up at 4:30am Needs to be in Jail nevermind Die