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i have literally never used this account for years but i’ve managed to keep the app um

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him: what that mouth do girl ?

me: speak 4 languages but none of them well

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It is not your partners job to heal you, rehabilitatate you, or manage you. You are in charge of yourself, you do not get to put your mental illness on the person you love. Go to a therapist or another licensed practitioner. You can and should share your feeling and problems with your partner, but they are not obligated to solve them for you.

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Reminder

Not everyone can handle the same amount of work, and the amount of work you can manage doesn't make you better or worse than anyone else.

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“In einem Jahr passiert so viel, wir alle lernen neue Leute kennen und geben alten Menschen neue Chancen. Wir verlieren uns jedes Jahr, doch finden uns immer wieder. Wir bauen uns Stück für Stück etwas auf, etwas einzigartiges. Wir sind auf viele Dinge angewiesen, doch können auf viele auch verzichten. In einem Jahr passiert so viel, wir lieben, wir hassen, wir lächeln, wir lachen, wir kuscheln, wir küssen, wir halten zusammen und brechen auseinander. Ein kommen und gehen, niemand weiß wie lange man zusammen ein Weg geht. Ich für meinen Teil, habe in diesem Jahr sehr viele Menschen kennen gelernt und gemerkt, habe viele Chancen vergeben und viele Chancen genutzt. Ich bereue vieles, vieles jedoch auch nicht. Obwohl ich Dinge bereue, hätte ich sie niemals anders gemacht, denn das wäre nicht ich. Heute ist kein guter Tag, morgen vielleicht auch nicht, doch irgendwann ist der Tag an dem ich sage, dass alles besser ist. Es wird sich so schnell nichts ändern, ich werde es erst dann merken wenn alles vorbei ist und ich zurückblicke. Erst dann wenn alles anders ist.”

— verbautezukunft (via verbautezukunft)

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self care for when you hit rock bottom

i fucking hate self care posts made by neurotypicals so here’s one from someone who Actually Gets It

-can’t shower or take a bath? me either. dry shampoo can make your hair look and feel cleaner, and baby wipes or makeup wipes work great to get the top layer of grime off your skin.

-can’t wash your sheets and make your bed? i feel you. push your blankets out of the way and shake the crumbs off your sheet. it will at least be a bit more comfortable.

-can’t even change out of your dirty pajamas? been there. hit yourself with some febreeze and a lint roller. if you can, brush your hair. if you can’t, hair ties and bobby pins are fantastic.

-can’t make anything to eat? same. if you can, there’s no shame in ordering food. in fact, it’s probably better you eat something rather than go hungry. if you can’t, try and find something that comes pre-made or takes minimal effort to make. at the very least, drink some water.

can’t respond to messages or reach out for help? yeah, i get that. set an alarm for a few hours from now and respond to any messages you need to once you’ve given yourself time to prepare. if they’re Important Messages that need Professional Responses, you can find fill-in-the-blank format rough drafts on google. as far as personal messages go, don’t feel bad for sending a mass “I’m sorry, I’m in a personal emergency right now. I’ll get back to you as soon as I can.” response to everyone.

-can’t even sleep because it’s so bad? asmr videos always knock me out, personally, but i also watch a lot of bob ross. just try to find something quiet and soothing to use as background noise and take your mind off it, or at least give you a more peaceful environment to think about it.

-can’t go for a walk/drive? try opening the blinds or curtains. you’re still exposing yourself to the outside world. baby steps. (i also play animal crossing or sims; it may be virtual but fuck it. i went on a walk.)

-can’t go into work/school? let people know. let your coworkers or classmates know it’s an emergency and you can’t make it. give yourself up to two days, but then you have to go back. ask to have your work emailed to you so you know what you missed.

-can’t brush your teeth and wash your face? makeup or baby wipes and gum or mouthwash. don’t let yourself physically rot bc you’re rotting emotionally.

-remember that you’ve been here before. if you survived then you can survive now. that’s what this is about- survival. you don’t have to be living your Best Life. right now, it’s more than enough that you’re alive.

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i want someone to look at me & say damn that’s mine & just be so proud to have me

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my dad just exploded into laughter out of nowhere and told me ‘imagine the lion king but with sea lions’ he has been chuckling about it for 5 straight minutes now

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Some words to use when writing things:

winking

clenching

pulsing

fluttering

contracting

twitching

sucking

quivering

pulsating

throbbing

beating

thumping

thudding

pounding

humming

palpitate

vibrate

grinding

crushing

hammering

lashing

knocking

driving

thrusting

pushing

force

injecting

filling

dilate

stretching

lingering

expanding

bouncing

reaming

elongate

enlarge

unfolding

yielding

sternly

firmly

tightly 

harshly

thoroughly

consistently

precision

accuracy

carefully

demanding

strictly

restriction

meticulously

scrupulously

rigorously

rim

edge

lip

circle

band

encircling

enclosing

surrounding

piercing

curl

lock

twist

coil

spiral

whorl

dip

wet

soak

madly

wildly

noisily

rowdily

rambunctiously

decadent

degenerate

immoral

indulgent

accept

take

invite

nook

indentation

niche

depression

indent

depress

delay

tossing

writhing

flailing

squirming

rolling

wriggling

wiggling

thrashing

struggling

grappling

striving

straining

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u kno wen u accidentally frget to drink watr fr a while nd u take a sip nd ur body takes th fuck ovr nd refuses to let u evn breathe cuz ur pounding tht shit back so hard

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🌻 little habits/things to do more of 🌻

dailies

make your bed. (no, really.)

set your top 3 to-dos for the day.

do your top 3 to-dos for the day. (heh)

stretch.

unpack your bag when you get home.

prepare your things for the next day before sleeping.

skincare. (your basic cleanse and moisturize)

sweep the floor of your bedroom.

talk to your plants. (if you have plants)

update your financial report/expense tracker.

take a good photo.

meditate.

hug at least three people. (seriously.)

weeklies

polish your school shoes.

mop your bedroom floor.

dare i say, laundry. (don’t put it off!)

exfoliate.

take a leisure walk.

review your past week and plan your next week accordingly. (a part of your routine may not be working–try something new)

make a piece of art. (a sketch, a collage, a quote in pretty lettering, a god-awful poem..)

sanitize your gadgets. (whip out the wet tissue and wipe away at your phone, your laptop, your mouse, your earphones–just don’t forget to IMMEDIATELY follow that up with a dry cloth to prevent fogging and short circuits)

watch a TED Talk.

make a new playlist.

monthlies

wash your bag.

wash your shoes.

change the sheets of your bed and your pillows.

clip your nails. (honestly)

wax/shave. (if you want. i just really like how fresh my skin feels after i torture it with razors and wax strips)

wipe your shelves/the tops of your furniture clean. (try to avoid dusting. it just scatters the dirt everywhere. use a damp cloth instead)

see if there’s anything in your storage that you don’t need/want anymore and give stuff away or sell them.

review your month and plan the next one accordingly. (just like your weeks. remember to refer to your Life Goal/Year’s Goals page)

finish reading at least one book. (and review it!)

discover new songs.

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the whole thing. the whole entire thing

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oatmeal cookies are better than chocolate chip. fight me if you think otherwise 😤