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Does anyone else feel lonesome?

Not lonely. Not alone. Just... lonesome. Like you don't feel connected to anyone. Like you never feel that you will find anyone that understands you, that will see you truly, let alone someone who will even like you. You see friends everywhere, but you don't see yourself in their place, like that is not for you, like you're not made for that and that's not made for you. You see people having fun and laughing and dancing and getting drunk and falling in love and you just... don't feel that for yourself. Like you're not supposed to have that, like you can't because it's not for you and you're not for it.

Like you're supposed to be seeing all these beautiful things in the world but not experience them yourself. Like you want to experience so much, experience everything, but be overwhelmed by it so you don't do any of it.

Like you want to be everywhere and do everything, but you don't belong anywhere and can't do anything. Like you're not supposed to be here. Not in a self-deprecating way but in an incongruous way. You want to live you want to be alive, but you feel you're not supposed to be. Not here at least, not like this. Just a presence in the world, not an active member of it. Even your body doesn't feel like home, your face isn't a face you recognise, like you're not supposed to have either. Like you're just supposed to be.

Like you're supposed to observe, but not experience.

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19/06/2018 oxford, you’re beautiful

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THE MUSKETEERS Anne and Aramis

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EVERY ANNAMIS SCENE 11/?

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i’m in a annamis brain rot rn, i hate hyper fixating on things that aren’t mainstream like where are the edits and fanfics?? this couple’s so underrated and if they were bigger ik for a fact people would love their slow ass burn and forbidden romance tropes

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How is it that you come back to me?

You don’t need the stories of my scars

Or in the stars to tell you nothing’s free

(Josh Ritter, “Right Moves”)

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Knight and Queen

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They don't make couples like this anymore

why did it take me this long to realise guilty as sin? is an annamis song.

"what if the way you hold me is actually what's holy? I choose you and me. religiously."

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so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god

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Spooning with you ❦

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Not to be incredibly vulgar and nasty or anything, but I’d like to close my eyes and rest my head in somebody’s lap while they run their fingers through my hair

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🙏🏿

so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god

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Hoping I pass my exams

so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god

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We're off to battle again, old girl.

HOUSE OF THE DRAGON 2.04 The Red Dragon and the Gold