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You’re in love with him, and he’s in love with you, and it’s like a goddamn tragedy, because you look at him and see the stars, and he looks at you and sees the sun. And you both think the other is just looking at the ground.

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imagine being the first ancient person to realize that the ocean and their tears taste the same. imagine realizing that your sorrow and the waves share a taste. i wouldve gone crazy

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i love unhinged women but i also love women who try so fucking hard to be hinged. clinging to those hinges by her fingernails.

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sorry for being annoying i could kill myself right in front of you if you want

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am i the abusive one?

am i the reason so many people leave?

i am arent i?

i’m the problem

i always have been the problem

i’ll always be the problem

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Being left bc you’re too mentally ill is really something!!😃😃

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ITS A TRAP GET OUT

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*one very very minor inconvenience occurs* oh, that sucks. i should probably go kill myself now

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Lord must have been generous to you. He never answers any of my prayers. I don't know why. What did I do? What is wrong with me? Please just tell me so maybe I can get better. I don't wanna end up like Mama. I want to be dancing up on the screen like the pretty gals in the pictures. I want what they have so badly, to be perfect, to be loved from as many people as possible to make up for all my time spent suffering. Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and the fear washes over me, 'cause what if this is it? What if this is right where I belong?

can we talk about this part of the 8-minute monologue from Pearl (2022) because it currently has me in a chokehold

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Why do I still love you ?

When I hear the song you sung to me all those nights ago I wondered why we couldn’t have strayed together.

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© Breed My Darkness

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Paranoia culture is being deathly afraid of people from the past recognizing you.

I was a bad person, therefore I deserve to get karma for everything I've done. I know that people are plotting their revenge, I know that they won't hesitate to hurt me back if they ever find me again. At any moment. When I least expect it.

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god i used to be so calm and cool and someone people looked to for comfort and now i’m this

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Schizotypal culture is immediately becoming over aware of what I’m doing with my body the moment I notice someone watching me. Am I walking normal? Is my posture normal? Is my breathing normal? What am I doing with my hands? Am I looking with my eyes normal? Can they tell I’m over thinking this? Oh no they’re gonna see I’m bad at being human :( Why can’t I just act natural? :(

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*gripping the bathroom sink, repeating to myself*

it's not your fault. you're not unlovable. your friends don't hate you. no one's mad at you