crmsnrnsghtflwr

[crmsnrnsghtflwr]

[crmsnrnsghtflwr]

I need my f/o to flirt with me. I need my f/o to tell me I'm cute and pretty and hot. I need their hands snaking around my waist and them grabbing at me playfully because they want me. Little kisses on my neck and loving stares because they like to look at me.

[crmsnrnsghtflwr]

"erm actually [character] wouldn't do that!! ☝️🤓"

i wake up to the sight of them laying besides me every morning. i know they like their coffee black with just one sugar packet. their calloused hands are soft against my cheeks and their lips taste like cherry wine in the evening. we watch the stars together and talk about our dreams every night before we fall asleep, embraced in each others arms. i know them better than the author does

[crmsnrnsghtflwr]

Me when I’m stuck in this miserable existence instead of my f/o’s arms

[crmsnrnsghtflwr]

so when was someone gonna tell me that feeling and hearing things that “aren’t there” isn’t a common thing that everyone goes through. being paralysed by fear over things you know are there but can’t see ISN’T a normal thing??? OOOOKAY BUD.

[crmsnrnsghtflwr]

drew infodump (cam and mac friend-ship) as this dumbass meme pic

[crmsnrnsghtflwr]

“You don’t want someone to kidnap you!!! That’s so bad!!! It wouldn’t matter if they loved you it’s still unhealthy!!”

I think you’ve underestimated how utterly deprived I have been of love and comfort in my life. Plus the amount of trauma I’ve been through.

As long as I’m not hurt and I get love and affection would love to be kidnapped and kept in a cabin deep within the woods. Maybe we’d go on nature walks together too.

[crmsnrnsghtflwr]

call me wonky, but the idea of your partner loving you so much that they want to keep you just to themselves, not letting anyone else in or see you, it's so romantic

[crmsnrnsghtflwr]

i can be your prey . i can run from you , stumble through the woods as you calmly take chase . ill scrape my knees & hands on branches , bound over fallen trees like a frightened deer . my breaths will come quickly despite my attempts to control them . once im caught , ill stare at you with wide eyes , frozen in place . dig your teeth into me ; i wont struggle anymore .

i can be your mutt . a nervous dog , previously abandoned & abused . run your fingers through my curls . it will only take some time before im leaning into your touch , as clingy as a pup .

i can be your angel . singularly focused on my god — my savior . i may be divine as well , but i will accept no ones worship . i could never forsake my deity like that . your holiness blinds me & leaves me easy to guide .

i can be your doll . a pretty thing , still & quiet . ill offer my obedience to you , becoming your puppet . you can freely move my strings as you please . id never protest ; after all , you are my beloved puppeteer .

if you let me , i can be or do anything you want . give me a chance to offer you my everything .

[crmsnrnsghtflwr]

the urge to kms so everyone feels bad for ever being rude to me is so strong

[crmsnrnsghtflwr]

"self harm is valid in every way! everyone that does self harm deserves help and respect"

then invalidates ppl that post pics of their fresh cuts or that openly talk abt their self harm

[crmsnrnsghtflwr]

You ever hope to get a horrible diagnosis at the doctor so you finally feel validated?

Because that’s about where I’m at.

[crmsnrnsghtflwr]

Pleeassssseeeeeeee I beg of you don’t talk to mentally ill ppl if your only trying to get them to recover.

I get being worried but it’s so annoying when you get a new friend and all they say is “ plz stwop for me🥺🙏” NO I am gonna cvt and st4řvè more now

LEAVE ME ALONNEEEEE I DONT WANNA HEAAALLLLLLL

[crmsnrnsghtflwr]

the hate of polyamorous people feels so arbitrary to me. like i know bigotry is irrational but like. you understand the appeal of threesomes and foursomes but you can't respect when people love multiple people. even though you have multiple friends. there's gunk in your brain

[crmsnrnsghtflwr]

[crmsnrnsghtflwr]

I rlly need to be kissing my bf rn this is not funny.

*kills all the fraggots including myself*

[crmsnrnsghtflwr]

At the end of the day I'm just a personification of my mom's sadness and my dad's rage.