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Finally done with this! I planned this around Thunder saga but go to lazy/busy to finish it 🤡 so here it is now.

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u ever read a fanfic so good that you want. fanfic of the fanfic

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“concept: every word that’s thought about you appears on your skin like a tattoo. there’s your best friend, aromantic and proud of it, the kindest person you’ve ever met. she knows everybody in your grade by name and she has more friends than anyone you know. she won’t ever wear shorts because she’s embarrassed of showing her legs where she’s covered in compliments, proof that she is loved a thousand times over. there’s the boy who loves reading and drawing and other boys. he comes to school with sharpied artwork all over his skin to cover up the words that scream QUEER over and over and over. he holds himself tall and smiles at everyone and when people see him, they think masterpiece before they think gay. there’s the most popular girl in high school, four-time homecoming queen, who harbors a secret love for math. at lunch her friend wrinkles his nose at her calculus homework - “damn, you’re such a nerd.” she laughs it off and every time her heart breaks a little. NICE and PRETTY dot her skin like freckles, but she’d burn all of them off just for one SMART. there’s the boy you sit behind in english class with soft eyes and a tragic smile. one day his sleeves slip back and you see JUST KILL YOURSELF ALREADY snaking across his arm and between the slits on his wrist. so for a week you concentrate on the same thought, and on friday you finally see the product of your labor: YOU ARE LOVED YOU ARE LOVED all across his hand and crowding out the words on his wrist. he touches it every few minutes, gently, like he can’t believe it’s really there, and you smile so hard you almost cry. and there’s you, with a patchwork of compliments intertwined with the insults: your hipbones read FAT and your ankles read I WISH I WERE YOUR FRIEND. some nights you spend hours in front of the mirror, fingers tracing over the constellations patterned across your skin, wondering which words came from whom. sometimes you find an extra I LOVE YOU tucked into the curve of your elbow and you’re ecstatic, but when it fades away days later you feel like you’ve lost something. most of the words come and go, but always, over your heart, there’s this: YOU WILL MAKE IT. and on the bad days when all you want is to fall onto your bed and cry your eyes out and never get back up, you look in the mirror instead and think, you will make it. you will make it, i swear. you will.”

— little bird, i promise you will fly | paperharbors

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WAIT I'M NOT OVER THIS YET

How SO MUCH of Tsubasa (and xxxHolic) is based around trades. About giving up things in exchange for what you want or what you need. About willingly (or unwillingly) giving up something important in order to get something you want even more.

How this is the first time any character has essentially been given a refund. How the magic was stolen from him - but it also kind of wasn't.

How in Acid Tokyo Fai let his eye get eaten in an attempt to help repair Syaoran's soul. He essentially GAVE his eye and magic to Syaoran on purpose to save him.

And it worked, in a way, eventually! Syaoran had a soul in the end! He was in there! He was making choices! He was alive!

BUT NOW HE'S NOT AND FAI JUST, GETS THE MAGIC BACK. THE PRICE HE PAID IS JUST GIVEN RIGHT BACK TO HIM AS IF NONE OF IT EVER HAPPENED - SYAORAN IS JUST AS DEAD AND GONE AS WHEN HIS SOUL BROKE IN ACID TOKYO, BUT WORSE NOW, BECAUSE NOW THEY ALL KNOW HE CAN'T BE SAVED.

HOW FAI WOULD HAVE BEEN HAPPY IF HE NEVER HAD THAT MAGIC BACK, IF IT MEANT SYAORAN GOT TO LIVE.

HOW HE LOVED HIS SON AND WANTED HIM TO LIVE AND THAT WAS MORE IMPORTANT THAN THE MAGIC THAT HAD DEFINED HIS WHOLE LIFE. IT WAS A TRADE HE MADE ON PURPOSE.

AND NOW HE JUST... GETS IT BACK.

AND IT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAVE HAPPENED.

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Okay no but seriously what the fuck is going on with Ryunosuke's family situation???

Like basically every major character has shit going on with their family members (kazuma, susato, Iris, van zieks, maria to name a few). Even Gina ACKNOWLEDGES her parents or lack thereof, and it plays into her initial distrust of adults and to some degree how her relationship with Iris develops but like. I don't think at any point in the game Ryunosuke even mentions his family?? Like even as a concept he engages with. This man could have just risen from the seafoam of waves crashing on the beach as far as everyone else knows. There was a pile of moss in the woods and then Ryunosuke sat up from it and he's just here now.

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Me: “Man, can’t wait to see what my favorite Unhinged Lad, Shinn Asuka, is up to in the new movie.”

Trailer Shinn: *In a sword-fight with some smiling European pretty-boy. They’re not in Mobile Suits or anything, just looks like Shinn really wanted to kick this guy’s ass and there happened to be swords nearby*

Me: “Sasuga Shinn…”

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had a locked tomb nightmare the other night that atn was dropped and it ended up being the entirety of gtn from babs perspective and i still havent recovered

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I made something so goofy, but absolutely necessary

From ep 2 of Burrow’s End

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(id in alt)

orchestrated sister procurement (completely legal)

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PEAK MOM ENERGY

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I👏love👏this👏family👏

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hi, i am jaysonh. i am small, and i'm siobhan thompson. that's my real name but i'm playing jaysonh, i am also doing really well. i prepared for this. four people went before me and i got thrown. i'm siobhan thompson and i'm playing jaysonh, who is an astral self monk.

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Hebden Bridge, Calderdale, West Yorkshire (England)