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Heyy as of like a month ago I chose to recover and I’ve been so out of control and sad I’ve come back I miss Ana too much to let her go need some more comfort back I’m definitely not going to be as high res as I used to be due to the fact I did nearly end up In hospital with my the being about 28 bpm but res is so back probably about 1000-1200 a day not as harsh as it used to be but let’s see where I end up🩷

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I’ve been so inactive on here what the heck I’m still alive guys dw😭

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I hit gw3 and need a reward SOMEONE GIMME REWARD INSPOO (that’s not gonna break the bank🫡🫡)

My last gw I got my belly button pierced and I don’t reward myself with food so that’s a huge no no. But rewardspoo I need

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112.6 today smashed gw3 out the parkkkk🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

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I love the way my stomach rumbles while I’m in bed getting ready to sleep

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I actually don’t know how people eat 2k+ cals a day like how did I used to be able to do that it’s so much

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How is everyone I hope yall are gooodddddd

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I would actually rather die than go back to looking what I used to look like it’s disgusting how ugly and fat I was and nobody told me to loose weight ever like what is wrong with people.

However right now I would literally rather die than do anything else I literally don’t see myself having a future I’m just taking life every day that it comes right now I’m literally floating

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Right I’m having a pure internal panic right now and I need everyone’s advice!

So I have my set plan that I’m fine with that I do every week workout the same eat whatever as long as it’s in my limit (and reasonable). I’m great locked in and well. BUT I know I’m loosing at minimum 2 Ibs a week mainly because I don’t think I’m Ana but Mia as my net cals for the day are always in the minus (but not my point). It’s getting obvious. UGH I hate to say it but it is. And it’s getting to the point of people constantly asking what I do/ how I started and I obviously can’t just be like yeah my ed relapsed. But these people are the mums in my dance group, competitions start in March and my mum also comes to these competitions I don’t want to be caught out in the big ordeal of where I’ve told these mums something but my mother tells them otherwise. But also I know that the way I split my cals in the day, would have people batting eyes and watching what I eat ext..

So how would I go about increasing my limit to a point where I’m still loosing but don’t gain from my cw like do I gradually increase by like 10 cals every week so my highest day currently is 650, so having that be like more 800 ext… or would I start gaining because I know my exercise can’t keep up with that.

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Why is it actors in tv shows who’s characters have 3ds just portray the character as not eating anything and using other things like meds and cigs to get by. Thats literally not the case tf like I eat and to be honest I eat “well” like I’ll smash a omad full meal for 200-300 cals 40g of protein and be done for a day and nobody bats a eye because it looks normal. They make it so obvious in the shows it’s almost cringey to watch like stop it

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I’ve been such a junkorexic today tf

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I’m ill again yay😩

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I res my intake so much that I actually just don’t get hunger pains no more I’m literally eating to live lmao and you know what I say to that? Good.

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My 26’ skirt came today ready for the dance season IT FIT LMFAOOO im ready to have 24 then I’d have lost 10 inches from my waist wooo

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WHY IS TUMBLR SO DRY LIKE WHAT HAPPENED TO EVERYONE😭

I hope everyone is still okay though! I’ve deff moved away from tumblr and am living on 3d TikTok rn but deff come here when I need a bit more of a toxic environment they’re all too nice loll😭😂

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127.4 today that’s -2 pounds in 6 days 🎉🎉

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I haven’t weighed in in what feels like forever but I haven’t 💩in so long I feel like a balloon😭