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i’ve returned to say one thing. MOLLYMAUK FUCKING TEALEAF LADYS GENts and NON BINARY FOLKS.

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mmmm i’ve somehow gathered a bit of a social life. in addition to barely reading because kdramas exist? and atm if i came back i’m afraid i’d write a muse no one knew. the top contenders for returning to a solo blog are as. followed : katniss, haymitch, cardan greenbriar ( is the heavy favourite of mine), laudna, fearne, or a dnd oc. as u might notice, i’m somewhat divorced from the main bookish fandoms rn. this is partly by design. anyway. i dont know what i’ll return with, but i’ll be back eventually. i’m just learning how to have a social life yknow.

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i’m alive. i have porple hair. and my pets keep me awake all night & wake me early morning. when i come back it’ll be like, less than 10 muses.

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sup. i’m a purple haired bitch now.

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huh. smells better ‘round here. anyway who read sunrise on the reaping and cried. bc me.

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hey. so. if you thought i’d have calmed down yet about the whole, people calling our anger at trump voters ‘ drama ‘ and over reaction? yeah no. take a look at his first fucking 5 DAYS IN OFFICE and tell me he isn’t someone who should have been stopped. he’s HARMING PEOPLE YALL. YOU FUCKING VOTEDF OR SOMEONE WHOSE HARMING PEOPLE????? and you told us to get over it. and you told us we were being irrational and angry. you told us we were overreacting.

we weren’t.

so yeah. i’m still not on this blog. until i decide what to do here. because i’m not happy with how fast people moved on. because i’m still here. i’m still angry. i’m still hurt. so yeah. idk. catch me later ~

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hiatus notice:

indefinite until im no longer raging about things.

depression & grief and chronic illness are one thing. logging on and seeing bullshit is quite another. and since i am not good enough person to just ~not~ feel anger, im instead going to remove myself.

discord is the same as always.

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he just thinks ur bad at humaning idk what to tell u bub <3

Has your roommate roasted you today like Jace’s??? @cthoniian

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fourth wing reread starts today. fc for xaden? set. heart broken still over liam? obvs. aight let’s go.

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oh hey there. does the bend and snap.

don’t mind me. just. not being here. im also barely on discord because ive developed a sims addiction bc it makes the agony in my brain chill the fuck out.

2024 was the worst year of my life. and boy have i had some doozies. anyway. life sucks for everyone ik. i just handle it badly. so basically ive been fine? had a nice holiday etc. but i rly need the dr i go to in feb to up my anxiety / depression meds.

bc life no longer feels real ~ and im guessing that’s part of the ole mental health shctick.

so this long ass post to say. my brain is in chaos. im tired. winter sucks. im sad. but i’m fine. sims makes me happy so i play sims and watch critical role in my free time. discord i try on, but i am massively struggling with any socialising so i apologise.

tldr: hiatus until my brain doesn’t wanna jump off a cliff into lava & turn into jerky charcoal and then be ground into ash under the heel of 2025.

[cthoniian]

oh hey there. does the bend and snap.

don’t mind me. just. not being here. im also barely on discord because ive developed a sims addiction bc it makes the agony in my brain chill the fuck out.

2024 was the worst year of my life. and boy have i had some doozies. anyway. life sucks for everyone ik. i just handle it badly. so basically ive been fine? had a nice holiday etc. but i rly need the dr i go to in feb to up my anxiety / depression meds.

bc life no longer feels real ~ and im guessing that’s part of the ole mental health shctick.

so this long ass post to say. my brain is in chaos. im tired. winter sucks. im sad. but i’m fine. sims makes me happy so i play sims and watch critical role in my free time. discord i try on, but i am massively struggling with any socialising so i apologise.

tldr: hiatus until my brain doesn’t wanna jump off a cliff into lava & turn into jerky charcoal and then be ground into ash under the heel of 2025.

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it’s canon edward cullen loved bella more than rhysand loved feyre. one begged to kill the baby and save the girl. the other didn’t tell the girl the baby was gonna kill her. ✌🏻

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tamlin rhys and feyre should be a throuple. sorry.

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im not really here. but i will never feel anything less than incandescent rage for people who make bruce wayne an abusive asshole of a dad. he’s flawed !!! he’s traumatised !!! he’s fucked up!!! he hates himself !!! he hates his failings !!! the only thing about himself that he doesn’t hate? the kids who are apart of his life. and it doesn’t even matter he’s terrified of losing them, he can’t help but love them fiercely and protectively. because it’s how he was raised!! by alfred !!

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if you ever feel safe please remember that im out there

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merry christmas to those that celebrate <3 and to everyone else, may you have joy and hope for whichever holidays you hold dear <3

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🌿🍒 for lowe from misery

there’s a gleam of mischief in forest eyes — something predatory, something glinting in his gaze as he parts from the other company at the party. so far today he’s spent most of his time as a human jungle gym, but he doesn’t mind. but now? a child peeled off one leg, then the other - a firm sound that can’t quite be heard from the distance. but with only one now clinging to his back he makes his way towards her.

humming as he slips an arm easily around her waist, nuzzling at her neck even as the curious eyes of the pup peek over his shoulder. ‘ did you notice where you’re standing wife? ‘

his lips drag up her neck, the softest scrape of teeth a little too long to be human. the heavy brush of tongue along her jaw. thumb and forefinger capturing her chin as he tips her jaw up towards his lips.

a graceful gentle kiss, only the barest slip of tongue, his lip pressing to her elongated fang as a drop of blood beads on the fullness of his lower lip.

‘ merry christmas mrs moreland — ‘

the curious eyes of the cub widening as it casts furtive glances between the two of them. back and forth, eyes wide as saucers and active as a ping pong ball at the court of the masters.

send “🌿🍒” (or "mistletoe") for my muse's reaction to standing under a mistletoe with your muse  ♡