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unfortunately i got extremely sick this weekend, so i haven't been able to finish the fic ... i apologize everyone TT once i feel better, i'll finish right away !!!

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currently making a playlist for 'when it happened to me' ... my chest hurts already sighs

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thoughts on a male!reader x sunghoon fic based on fable by gigi perez .............

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if anyone has any confusion ... i switched accounts >_< i wanted to make my old one my primary but you rnt allowed to do that so i js made a new tumblr !!!

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when it happened to me ᯓ★ teaser

↪ lhs x f!reader

pairing — heeseung x fem!reader ... childhood friends to strangers to lovers, heavy angst, happy ending ... est w/c: 20-25k synopsis — after ghosting you five years ago, lee heeseung shows up in your life at the worst time possible. trying to balance a still broken heart, your senior year, and unspoken words? a recipe for disaster. disclaimers — intentional lowercase, profanities, heeseung kind of sucks for a while, jealousy, miscommunication, one-sided love, depression, drugs (weed + vape), insecurities, both in their senior year of university, feminine terms for reader, they both need therapy, suggestive content, mdni now listening to ... we hug now by sydney rose ; memories by conan gray ; waiting room by phoebe bridgers release date — march 31, 2025 teaser w/c — 1.3k

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that was the first thing you noticed as tears began to cascade down your soft cheeks. your hands desperately cling to your mother as you try to convince her that you don't need to go to kindergarten. no, you were far too overwhelmed to be near other children, much less people you had never met. your mouth moves before you can stop it, trying to convince her as much as any five-year-old can convince their parent.

her soft voice tries to coax you to look up. warm hands suddenly touch your round cheeks, holding them with the kind of care only a parent can give. your mother smiles at you gently before wiping your tears away, your breath eventually evening out as she whispers words of encouragement.

with a determined nod, you slowly let go of her hand before staring at your new teacher. as you begin to take slow steps away from your mother, you suddenly hear a loud laugh before you feel a hard surface touching your hands. you find yourself wincing in pain as your eyes begin to water. taking a deep breath, you look up in confusion as you try to understand what had happened.

your eyes widened as you saw a young boy, most likely a classmate, staring at you with worry. his small hands quickly reach to grab your own and help you up, apologies slipping through his mouth before anything else. you stare at him with wonder, his big eyes reminding you of your favorite movie bambi.

you slowly take his outstretched hands, gasping softly as he pulls you up. he smiles at you sheepishly before muttering a slight apology, bowing his head at the mistake. you shake your head, knowing it had been an accident, before telling him it was okay.

"heeseung." you tilt your head in confusion before he continues, "my name is lee heeseung, and im five years old!" he says this proudly as he holds up five fingers.

you smile brightly at him before telling him your name. he hugs you without a second thought and nods, stating you two will become best friends. you hear your mother laughing gently, a woman close to her age smiling as she stares at the two of you. turning your head away, your new friend grabs your hands and softly tugs at them, urging you to follow him to class. your mother notices your hesitation before she nods warmly at you, a soft 'i love you' and 'i'll pick you up later' falls from her lips.

that day was the beginning of the end. it was the day your life began to intertwine with lee heeseung, for better or worse.

throughout the following years, you had only grown closer. your parents had proclaimed the two of you as soulmates, two people constantly orbiting one another. promises of being in each other's lives lingered throughout your teen years. they continued intertwining themselves, even when you began to realize you felt more than friendship for lee heeseung. you fell in love before you even knew what that word meant.

the first year of high school was lonely. not for lee heeseung, never for him, but you had never felt so out of place standing next to him. throughout the day, other 14-year-old girls would follow him around, shooting you a confused glare as you stuck by him. heeseung paid them no mind, carefully watching over you the entire day. you had eventually excused yourself, deciding to settle in the dance studio.

you take a slow, deliberate breath before closing your eyes. you're soon awakened by a quiet voice and the sound of feet shuffling around the room. you look around, confused, before you spot a very concentrated individual. you stare at him silently as he turns on a slow ballad, arms being stretched before he begins to freely move. your eyes seem to become captivated, finding it impossible to look away. his eyes fiercely staring at the mirror as he tries to correct his mistakes.

your phone suddenly rings, breaking the silence in the room. the only noise previously was his deep breaths and the soft music playing in the background. your eyes snap towards him, silently mouthing an apology before checking your phone. one missed call: heeseung 🤍

you sigh softly as you text him, confirming you would meet him during lunch. your attention turns back to the dancer, startled as you see him still staring at you. he tilts his head before nodding, walking up to you as he introduces himself.

"hey, my name is park sunghoon." he introduces himself, humming as you state your own. you two speak for a while before the bell rings, indicating that the lunch period has started.

you slowly get up, handing him your phone to punch in his number before excusing yourself. though the crowded halls provided a difficult challenge to get through, your eyes somehow quickly fell onto heeseung's. he smiled warmly at you before he put his hand out, urging you to come over quickly. as you reach him, his smile only grows, arms wrapping around you as he asks you where you had been. you find your cheeks slightly flushing as you answer, telling him you had made a new friend. as he led you through the cafeteria, your mind couldn't help but notice his fingers slipping into yours.

your stomach flipped as you let out a shuttered breath. quickly inhaling before staring at the back of his head. your body warming as you began to feel the proper weight of his palm in yours. thoughts racing as you tried to put a name to the new feeling.

you only began to understand what you felt after months of flushed cheeks, hand-holding, shared secrets, and memories being made with him. you only began to understand when lee heeseung was first confessed to.

someone who wasn't you had confessed to heeseung. she confessed to him, and you felt a pit in your stomach. you felt it when he accepted it, and it only got worse after you saw the two of them holding hands. after a week of hand-holding and soft giggles on both parts, you turned to the only person you could trust aside from heeseung. your mother.

you remember the day marking a week of heeseung being taken. you walked over to your mother in tears, falling into her arms as she rubbed your back. you let out a shaky breath before explaining everything; you explained the weird feelings you had on the first day of freshman year and how they only got worse every passing day. you explained the unshakable sadness when you heard heeseung raving about his first girlfriend. you explained that your chest felt heavy every time you saw them together.

your mother gently touches your cheeks, using her thumbs to wipe away your tears. you close your eyes momentarily as you're reminded of your first day of kindergarten. you let out a soft sigh as the tears slowly stopped falling. your eyes flutter open as you stare at your mother, her soft smile bringing you instant feelings of safety. you stare at her before she begins to speak.

"sweetheart... i want to explain what being in love is like." your mother gently whispers, as if she's afraid you'd break at any moment. of course, you knew what love is; you knew what having feelings for someone meant. you had multiple crushes throughout middle school, but none felt like this. confused, you tell her to continue, your voice shaking slightly.

she explains how she felt around your father, your nose crinkling as you heard too many cheesy details. but then she begins to explain how it started and how she felt when the feelings began to blossom. your eyes widened as you felt her words' familiarity resonating with you...

fuck. you have feelings for your best friend.

author's note — hellooo ^-^ i hope you enjoyed the teaser !!! this is my first time making a reader fic, but if yall enjoy the full fic ill definitely make more :D lmk your thoughts so far !

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pairing : loser!jake x fem!reader

tw / content : NSFW /// dacryphilia + overstimulation + creampie + pet names (reader calls jake 'pup' / jake calls reader 'angel' and 'baby') + biting + soft dom(?) reader + SENSITIVE jake (he is so whiny) + fluff at the end ! mdni

word count : 1.4k

note : first time writing smut ... but loser jake is ruining my mind currently ..💭

simply put, you felt insane.

jake looks good. of course, he always looks good, but today? you just want to devour him. you can't take your eyes off of him as he shakes his wet hair, acting like a fucking dog. you bite your lips as he runs his fingers through the hair sticking to his face, your thighs pressing together as you continue to look at him.

jake wasn't stupid. he saw your glaze lingering on him, and what did he do? he laughed. a soft smile plays on his face when he realizes you're being turned on by his existence.

your hungered stare turns into mild annoyance as you glare at him. mind becoming more horny with every moment that passes by.

"come here baby," jake says, lust dripping from his voice. you stare at him for a moment, judgment becoming clouded, before nodding and slowly walking over to him.

the moment you invade his space, your fingers begin running across his chest, lingering at the crevices on his stomach. you pull him into a hungry kiss as you whine in his mouth. jake's voice is caught in the back of his throat, his mind becoming mush as you take control.

he ruts his hips onto yours, soft cock quickly hardening against you. you bite his lips as he cries at the sudden spark of pain, whining that he wants more. you find yourself taking off your shirt, quickly grabbing the waistband of his shorts, pulling them down. your mouth moves away from his as he mutters a soft protest before moaning as you suck on his neck.

his hard cock rutting against your skirt, tears welling in his eyes as he tries to get any relief. your hands quickly find his hips, stopping him from moving anymore.

"be a good pup, okay?" you rasp out, continuing your attack on his neck as he quietly protests, wanting to get a release quickly. after a few minutes of marking him, you pull back with a lazy smirk before kissing his tears away. "you did so good pup." you whisper before kissing his mouth, "let me reward you, okay?"

you pull him to the bedroom and gently push him onto the bed. when his back hits the mattress, he can't help but let out a whine. "baby, please touch me..." he cries, tears once again welling in his eyes. you pout somewhat mockingly at jake before nodding.

your knees hit the soft carpet as your hands find their way onto his cock. you slowly begin pumping him, making sure to tease his tip. he hisses at the contact, sighing in relief from finally being touched. your face moves closer, slowly licking his tip. you smile at the moan he produces as you begin to kiss down his hardened cock. his breath quickens the moment you begin to spread his precum, adding your own saliva into the mix.

you find yourself moaning at the taste of him, the salty and musky scent making your eyes roll back as you take him in your mouth. you hold his hips down, forcing him to let you go your own pace. he tries to wither, crying that he wants you to go faster, but you simply take your time. you inhale his scent as you take him deeper, moaning as you feel him hit the back of your throat. faintly hearing his whines at the library, you begin sucking him harder. you make sure to moan onto his cock as he cries from pleasure.

as you begin to feel him pulsing in your mouth, moans increasing as he tells you he's close, you reluctantly pull away. as you stand back up, you see his eyes widen before tears start falling.

he babbles semi-incoherently, begging you to let him cum. you laugh softly as you wipe away his tears, your eyes lighting up at the scene before you. you grab his hands and place them on your hips as you push your panties to the side. you place yourself on his lap, sighing softly as you feel his pulsing, hot tip against your entrance. you bite back a smirk as you hear him complain, wanting you to put his cock inside of you.

you slowly lower yourself onto him, moaning as you begin to feel full. his grasp on your waist only tightens the lower you get. once he's fully inside of you, you both let out moans. pleasure seeps through both of you as you try to accommodate the stretch, and he tries not to cum right away.

"such a good pup for me." you whisper in his ear, kissing his marked neck as you lift yourself up before pushing yourself back down. he whines at the simulation, panting from the amount of pleasure.

the sound of skin slapping fills the air, along with labored breaths, as you begin to move faster. your mind hazing as you find your mouth on his. he quickly reciprocates the kiss as he tries to stop himself from moving his hips up. after a minute of neverending torture, according to jake, you finally allowed him to move his hips.

he gasped in relief as he quickly snapped his hips against yours, your jaw dropping at the feeling. he fucks like a dog. he continues pushing into you, tries to make you take him until you can't. moans fill the room as you both feel yourself getting closer.

after a few more pumps, he releases inside of you, filling your womb with his cum. you whine loudly as you find your orgasm washing over you simultaneously. after he pumps you full, he sighs in contentment. his cock slowly softening inside of you as he hisses from the sensitivity.

once you come down from your orgasm, you bite your lip and begin moving up and down on him. his eyes widen as he feels you move, cock quickly hardening.

"baby, wait." he whines, hands finding your hips once again, " 'm sensitive right now, angel." you hum in acknowledgment as you continue to move.

"just one more load jakey, you can do it," you rasp out a soft encouragement. "do it for me, okay pup?" he whines before nodding, agreeing as he allows his still sensitive cock to fully immerse in you.

your continue to ride him, even as his eyes begin to water again. his cock numbing your mind, wanting to continue to fill yourself with his hot cum. you bite his shoulder as you begin to go faster, his gasps filling the room at the sudden spark of pain. you lap the bite mark before continuing to do the same once again, your pace never faltering.

after biting him a few more times, he shoots his load into you without warning. his eyes roll to the back of his head as he feels how snug you are around him, his previous creampie finding its way out as he gives you more. you whine at the feeling of being so full before you feel yourself orgasm again.

after a few minutes of silence, only the sound of heavy breathing filling the room, you slowly get off of him. he whines as the cold air touches his soft cock. you bite your lip as you stare at both of your fluids painting him.

walking to grab a towel, you carefully clean him up before cleaning yourself. you stare at him softly before kissing his forehead. "you did such a good job pup." you smile at him before humming. "let's get some rest now, okay?"

he nods tiredly as he puts on his boxers, slowly turning towards you with his arms outstretched. you laugh quickly as you walk up to him, sighing as you find yourself enveloped by his scent. his arms providing a comfortable place as you slowly tug him to the bed.

he laughs softly as he moves impossibly closer to you, kissing the top of your head before sighing softly. "i love you angel," his face takes home in your neck. "thank you for making me feel good." you smile softly before running your fingers through his hair, your eyes slowly closing as you whisper the words back to him.

both of your breaths finally even out as you fall asleep in each other's hold. a smile adorned on your face at the feeling of your boyfriend cuddling you.