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inspired by the extra content where nora says that the first time they hold hands is on the rooftop in the rain.

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Some of my doodles XD

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Jean noticed how Andrew and Neil moved like they were caught in each other’s gravity, in each other’s space more than they were out of it, cigarette smoke and matching armbands and lingering looks when one fell out of orbit for too long. He’d always assumed it was Neil’s arrogance that brought him to Evermore over Christmas. Now he thought it was something else, but it wasn’t his place to comment on it. Nathaniel was his broken promise; Neil’s life was none of his business.

The Sunshine Court p.123

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tsc spoilers

"Nathaniel crossed the court in record time to throw Brayden off his feet," and "Andrew, who threw himself out of his goal like all of hell was at his heels."

i am genuinely ill. they love each other so much

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SPOILERS

protective boyfriends <3

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TSC 103

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, ANDREW FUCKING MINYARD

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Honestly honestly the most romantic moment of the entire series is when Neil talks about how he'd never gotten to travel for fun before and the Foxes are planning to take him to the mountains, and Kevin starts to protest that they can't go on vacation but stops because Andrew is holding a knife on him 😭🥺😩 like I don't know that's just just a sweet little moment to me, Andrew threatening Kevin if he takes this little chance for happiness from Neil

Uhhhh literally Andrew “I-don’t-care” Minyard is the most romantic of ALL the foxes. My line of work revolves around intimacy and from all my training and studying let me tell you that man is a master at his craft.

Andrew’s touch is beautiful and sacred; this thing he does not take easily, or give out kindly whatsoever. Yet with Neil it’s as if he can’t stop himself. We see it in how gently he tapes the garbage bags around Neil’s injuries, wordlessly, without being asked. THAT’S intimacy. How he holds his neck to inspect his eyes when he removes his contacts, how he hands Neil cigarettes without a request, how he doesn’t say a word while touching Kevin with the point of a blade because Neil deserves a fucking break. Sure, by technicalities, the shower scene from TKM is intimate by definition, but really it’s in the kiss he ghosts across Neil’s hip, in how he pats dry his broken skin afterwards. How can you look at him wordlessly dropping keys into Neil’s palms, and think, yeah there’s no way Andrew could be romantic. Is he soft, is he gentle, as a person? No. But his minuscule actions are, his unmentioned gestures are. You just have to look and find them.

TKM just has some of the most subtly beautiful examples of a different flavour of love and intimacy that is so unusual and heartwarming it’s insane. That shower scene drives me crazy when I think about how caring Andrew is in it. He came in with the tape and bags on his own volition, knowing Neil needed a shower and couldn’t do it unattended. How he didn’t take away Neil’s autonomy by assuming he couldn’t undress himself, instead waiting until he paused and couldn’t go any further before he started to help. How he drapes the blanket over Neil’s shoulders, again giving Neil a chance to struggle before wrapping it around him. They practically don’t speak to each other really in that chapter at all apart from a bit of flirting in the shower. Because they don’t need to, because Andrew knows how to love, how to be caring, how to wrap up the boy he almost lost in bubble wrap because if he loses him again, it won’t be pretty. He washes Neil’s hair! He covers his wounds! He treats him gently when that is possibly the last word that could ever be used to describe Andrew. I feel like that scene was in part of course him just looking after Neil who can use approximately two square inches of his entire body, but in another part proving how serious he is about Neil. Everything changes between the two of them then, suddenly their actions more relaxed than hungry, not yet a given but instead now just a want.

I don’t know. I can’t help but see so much intimacy and romance in subtleties and things you’d barely even notice, regardless of the people/the characters and their circumstances. I wouldn’t use the word sweet to describe Andrew at all, but the things he does for Neil? The way that he loves Neil? The absolutely fucking sweetest.

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Andrew kisses Neil's forehead. I do not take criticism.

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first snow

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Okay my hopes and dreams for TSC before it comes out:

jean being grumpy af the first few weeks with the trojans. He can't take their brightness nor kindness and is just in a constant state of wtf??

jeremy being a lil sunshine boy. He sure will have some story to his character but I really hope it's not too fucked up, I can imagine him having a primary postive mindset, leaving jean dumbfounded all the time

jeremy and jean constantly moving tgt the first few weeks bc of the ravens fucked up duo-system (which is still in jeans head), at first it's a little obligatory for jeremy to make jean feel more save in the team but later on he just wants to be with him constantly

new friendships. I'm probably the most excited for the new characters because it's been a while since we got new characters from nora and yeah I love her characters (most of the time)

jean and renee friendship

jean and kevin. I'm ready for that angst.

at least one scene where jeremy calms jean down

I don't need to see much more of the foxes (I know for some a sin but I'm content with all the content we got about them already so i'm more excited for the new characters) BUT I truly NEED at least one scene where jean or jeremy are seeing andreil and be like "huh, that's love" or whatever else. Just a little acknowledgment of andreil as a couple since i'm always a sucker for that

oh i'm excited about the thea scene as well. I'm torn between wanting the scene to be with kevin or not. Bc on one hand i wanna see more of the kevin/thea dynamic but on the other I want to see her individually

I think that's it.

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Character, book, and author names under the cut

Andrew Minyard- All for the Game by Nora Sakavic

Neil Josten- All for the Game by Nora Sakavic

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“aftg fans when they talk about the same scene over and over” “how many times are you gonna bring this back up” “we already had discourse over this” who sucked all the whimsical joy out of you bro

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Neil is there to protect the one who protects them all.

Andrew always knew how to protect. He sure has his own ways that many fail to understand but the bottom line stays the same.

With Neil coming into his life he gets to be something else than just the protector - which I want to talk about here.

The exy obsessed junkie who claims to only care about his own survival is the first one who sees beyond Andrews play - who sees that Andrew doesn’t take care of himself at all. Too busy keeping an eye on everyone to care about what happens to his own self. And Neil hates it furiously.

So Neil puts Andrew first.

Starting with his health. Exy is important to Neil but he knows Andrew needs to get off the drugs first. The foxes found it easier to deal with Andrew while he’s on drugs, so they didn’t put much effort into changing that - Neil though. Neil saw what the drugs did to Andrew. So they had to get rid off it as fast as possible.

So he makes a deal. He gives up a piece of a truth, gives a promise and makes him go take care of himself.

He punches Riko because he couldn’t stop himself.

He agrees to go to Evermore - he agrees to torture just to keep Andrew save.

Afterwards he refuses to back down his care after being explicitly told to. “If it means loosing you then no”.

After being brutally tortured, one of the first things he does is inspecting Andrews bruises. Inspecting Andrews bruises the same way Andrew inspects his. “All that time fighting and you never learned how to duck?”

He told the cops off when they indicated getting Andrew off him “you’ll what, asshole?”

He was there in a heartbeat the second Andrew got pushed in the final game. And only backed off after checking Andrew was really alright.

For the first time Andrew has someone who has his back the same way he had the backs of everyone else for years. Andrew is fiercely protective and for the first time he is fiercely protected too.

“You are a pipe dream.”

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I can’t believe Neil fell so hard for Andrew without realising it this man has literally just returned from torture but he cannot seem to worry about the implications of Baltimore because he’s too busy going “What could he regret when he still felt Andrew's kisses on his mouth?”

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we 100% don’t talk about this enough