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wesley chapel cemetery

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@3tangmaid

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(Gone gay) (not clickbait)

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Its 4am what

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hey uh quick thing from someone who has hallucinations and delusions of shit

PLEASE don’t tell me they’re real. don’t tell me about your spiritual beliefs while i’m talking about them.

don’t tell me the shadow people are demons or aliens or from another dimension.

don’t tell me the world might actually be fake, or send me real life matrix conspiracy theories right after i’ve told you they’re a trigger.

it may be funny to you, when i have to sit against a wall so i know nothing’s behind me, or when i wear long sleeves to ignore the bugs under my skin, but it’s horrible for me.

it’s hard enough to convince myself that they’re not real, i don’t need someone else telling me i’m just seeing into another dimension or some shit and ending up back in a psych hospital.

(ok to reblog just don’t be shitty)

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i cannot make this any clearer to apsychotic people and people who don't experience paranoid psychosis: one of the WORST things you can do for paranoid psychotic people is try to give a reality check unprompted. reality checks ARE a very useful tool when used correctly, but if i don't know you or trust you implicitly and you attempt to reality check me, i will simply assume you're in on whatever delusion i'm experiencing. it's literally that simple. you are not able to reality check me or any other stranger because you are not inherently a trustworthy source. attempts to give reality checks completely unprompted, for many psychotic people, just solidifies the delusion

this includes posts that say shit like "no one is reading your mind right now. your thoughts are your own" "no one is watching you right now" etc. if you reblog that sort of thing as an apsychotic person untagged you are not an ally to ANY psychotic person who has chronic and/or easily triggered psychosis. chances are, when you put that on my dash, i most likely WASN'T in that moment thinking someone was reading my thoughts. but you put a mention of mindreading on my dash completely untagged and NOW i sure as fuck am. and if i WAS already thinking that someone was reading my thoughts, some rando telling me otherwise is not gonna help ground me or bring me back to reality. unless it's coming from myself or from a specific trustworthy person who has permission to give me a reality check, that reality check is only gonna make me more paranoid, and i know this is the case for many other psychotic people as well

i've seen some people claim that reality checks are never helpful, and that's definitely not true imo. reality checks are an important part of recovery and symptom management for people with chronic psychosis (people with schizophrenia, for example), but they should ONLY ever be done by the person experiencing the psychosis, or someone who has been granted permission by the person experiencing psychosis. a random reality check on a psychotic person's tumblr dash is quite literally useless and 100% performative

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cw: moderate blood/gore

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you know what fuck it

tiny bateman

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Christian Bale promotional photos for Velvet Goldmine by Robin Hollande (1998)

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(touches the ground) something really lgbt happened here....

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i am So Normal :)

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🌸💕 Age Regressor and Age Dreamer Riamu Yumemi icons requested by @cupidnpc (please reblog if you save)! 💕🌸

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which one of you did this

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if nothing really lgbt happens to me before the end of the year im running away. foreverr.

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"I don't know how else to bring this up. But there's been something I've been worried about. Yuri has been acting kind of strange lately."

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I really don’t want a boyfriend. Just wanna hang out with Dina.