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not to sound like kevin day but you two are supposed to be playing exy

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i cant believe that wymack tells the foxes to ignore his unpolished speech and then pulls out the hardest fucking line in modern literature

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“You were supposed to be a side-effect of the drugs” is possibly one of the most heart-wrenching lines of the series. It’s Andrew fighting with every cell in his body not to give into his desire for Neil. It’s Andrew begging himself not to do this, not to get hurt. It’s Andrew trying, pleading to the drugs that no longer cloud his vision to make Neil a part of them, because there was no way he could be real.

Neil, who took Andrew’s words at face value but saw the truth buried inside them. Neil, who knew what Andrew’s promises meant to him, and who kept his promise, for the first time. Neil, who saw more than he should. Neil, who never took more than Andrew gave and knew that no meant no. Neil who fought tooth and nail against Andrew’s defences to gain an inch then worship it like it was sacred ground.

Neil who could not, should not, must not, be real. It could only have been a side effect of the drugs.

No wonder Andrew fell in love.

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no found family ever hit as hard as the foxes when all nine of them slept together at Matt and Neil's room

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a fox ran across the road in front of my car this morning…it’s a sign

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this is so embarrassing but the only way i am motivated to exercise is by remembering neil josten and his commitment to exy 👍🏼👍🏼

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i just had a nap and had an aftg dream it’s now infested my psyche

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i’m going to be the deadliest piece on the board

(i got a queen tattooed on the inside of my thumb so it lines up on my cheekbone, just like my favourite kevin day)

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one like and i’ll get an aftg inspired tattoo

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currently on my third reread in 2 weeks 🙃

“Neil Josten let his cigarette burn to the filter without taking a drag.”