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i just had a smol revelation that my inside out character might just be the derry girls themselves.
#i love derry girls#which is why i could relate to them that much????#i am delusional as much as erin is#i am anxious as much as clare is#i am that girl as much as michelle is#i am also quite frankly like orla#and i am as much of a romantic and the beat up joke of the group as james is#😌#what a nice combo#🪶 . chitter chatter#🧸 . misc
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should i consider writing this? cuz this was supposedly the fic i should post before may i have this dance. i already have a scene inspo for this but i dont know if i could give it justice ���
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OKAYYYY NEW THEME ATEEEEE
thank you for noticing cielle!

i actually thought changing my theme into this one cuz everytime i opened tumblr and see my blog, it looked kind of messy. so i ended with this one. i still lack with my graphic design skillz but im glad it ate. period 😔💅
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hi :D i dont remember ever sending you an ask yet but consider this my formal greeting!!!! i think u might be my first mutual on this blog & i love u already:> (thank u for tagging me in all those games btw i felt so touched... sorry i havent gotten around to doing them t_t)
hi naira!! <33

i am so happy that i'm your first mutual on your blog >><< and i think i love you too! (*≧ω≦) i think we started being moots when i commented on your jaemin fic, which was chapped lips! i just couldn't get over with the writing it was so fluffy and cute. and don't worry about not being able to not get in touch because i'm delighted to know that you feel touched being tagged in those and i just also wanted to interact or know you more with those games too... ><
i hope we'll be good friends ^^ let's interact a lot more too (人´▽`*)
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beach shenanigans w/ bf!dream⠀( a series )
▬⠀content יִ،⠀mark. renjun. jeno. haechan. jaemin. chenle. jisung.
pairing/s יִ،⠀bf!haechan lee × gn!reader
genre/s יִ،⠀fluff.⠀established relationship.
warning/s יִ،⠀pure fluff.⠀bulletpoints.⠀lowercaps. ⠀mention of the word war.⠀profanity.⠀
wc יִ،⠀0.9k
a/n יִ،⠀listen to loved you first by one direction when reading this! (this was the replaying song as i wrote this hc) i hope you'll enjoy reading ^^⠀
prompt יִ،⠀"having a bf is like having a misbehaved child." and it is certainly true, but you just couldn't resist watching when bf!haechan is having a petty fight over you with your nephew.
“nuh uh. y/n loved me first, and we fell in love before you were even born!” haechan fought back, sticking out his tongue in front of your nephew's face
“well, i'm going to marry y/n first.” your nephew ended, crossing his arms and looking away from him
two high-pitched voices rang into your ears. ear screeching, and, unbelievably, from two different ages
the one standing on your left is your bf!haechan, and the other on your right is the nephew you’re babysitting
now, you're questioning yourself about how this feud between them fighting for your love started
ah
now you remember
when your sibling and their significant other offered you to join them on a beach vacation, even inviting your boyfriend to join them, you greatly accepted the offer with open arms, and so did haechan
he was thrilled, even prompting that he was going to spend the few days of summer vacation before going back to the usual routine of daily life
until he saw your nephew
inviting the both of you was your sibling's bait to babysit their child
you didn't mind at all since you loved to take care of kids especially your nephew
but haechan
oh haechan despised it
the little devil
the one who could possibly steal you from him
with those two chubby cheeks, arms, and legs, sparkling round eyes, and petite figure which was the most adorable aspect of a toddler
(not in that way)
haechan could only scoff and agree that your nephew was indeed cute
but what he couldn't forgive
was him also competing for your love
when you and haechan (and nephew) were playing around with sandcastles, swimming by the shore, and shell-finding quests
all of those activities involved you to tickle and tease with your baby voice to your nephew only
saying to him that he was too cute to be true, that you wish you could bite their cheeks off from cuteness aggression, and laugh at every oblivious and nonsense talking a toddler usually does
haechan was offended
those things
those were the things you also did to him
and him only
he tried his very best, okay
to get along with your nephew but
when haechan would get closer to you and be whiny about also wanting your attention too
your nephew would cry all of a sudden, and you'd carry them
pacifying them to stop crying and doing your baby talks again, asking them who made their cute little baby cry
and he cunningly pointed his chubby little fingers to haechan, rubbing his other hand to wipe his crocodile tears
“bad haechan.” the two words that you uttered
words that made him shrink on the white sand and stare into the blinding sky
was he replaced to bad haechan and not anymore to baby? nor babe?
even pookie?
and you couldn't believe what was happening right now
it didn't really occur to you that haechan was genuinely jealous and was just simply teasing a toddler
but for them, it was more than that
this was war
“you can't marry y/n with that age.”
your nephew looks at him with his adorable pouty lips and cheeks
you wanted to pinch it at that moment, but it could only get between them
you wouldn’t want to risk your current amusement to end. you wanted this to continue
“why not?” your nephew obliviously asked
“because you're too young.”
“then when i grow older, i will marry her!”
haechan snickered and looked down at him with a smug grin
“when you get older, you say?” your boyfriend also crossed his arms, mimicking the toddler he was facing
“your so-called promise will no longer exist because we—!” haechan grabs you by the waist, and you're speechless, not one word to even spout just to let this petty fight flow
“will get married even before you're an adult!”
you choked on your own saliva at this proclamation
“what?” you managed to ask
“what—no!” your nephew's eyes welled with tears. “i lost,” he mumbled and soon ran to where his parents were, wailing in defeat
“mommy, i lost!”
“tsk. he deserved that.” he clicked his tongue, smirking to himself as he was finally pronounced winner
“what the fuck, haechan?”
haechan’s smug expression softened, turning to face you, now both his arms wrapped around your waist
the teasing and arrogant haechan was long gone, now softened and intently showing affection
“i was a bit dramatic, but… wouldn’t it be nice too?” he grinned sheepishly
your heart fluttered at his words
it was tempting
spending and committing to the man in front of you has passed your mind more than once,
but you wouldn't let him off the hook so easily
“proposing to me during a fight with a toddler, my nephew, to be exact. don’t you think i deserve more than that?”
haechan eyes lit up, and he placed his hand behind your head
pulling you closer to him as he kissed your forehead chastely
“when the time comes, baby. i’ll do much better than this.”
“i’ll expect it.” you kissed him back on his cheeks, pinching it after as your lips left his skin
and he laughed, closing his eyes from the pain
he kind of deserved that, he admitted
“am i back to being your baby?” haechan rubbed your waist, a ticklish yet careful feeling
anticipation of your consent evident in his eyes
you chuckled at this and cupped his left cheek, prodding him to be buried in your touch
and hopefully, your source of affection too
“you've always been my baby.”
this gave him a signal
a signal for him to pull you in and place his lips on yours
you placed your hand on his chest, the other on his shoulders, kissing him back with fervent
and he pulled away for a moment just to say—
“good. because i loved you first.” and you chuckled, both returning back to each other’s touch
smiling in between the kisses at this peculiar situation, bringing you both closer
and much closer to each other
mastertag (still open)⠀:⠀@hoshipills
© written by CUPOFWYN. 2024.
#세트 . 🏝 — beach shenanigans#nct dream fluff#lee donghyuck fluff#haechan fluff#nct dream#nct#haechan x reader#lee donghyuck#haechan#haechan imagines#haechan headcanons#nct imagines#haechan scenarios#nct dream x reader#nct fluff#nct x reader#nct scenarios#nct headcanons#haechan drabbles#dnghyuck.lee#손가락 사이에 . ☕️
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Haechan dancing like his life depends on it and never missing one beat 😎🙌👑
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he sure is 😔 and i'm glad i gave his cuteness justice bcuz i didn't feel very content with this fic >< tysm for reading!
⌕ — his set of rules & you ( n.jm )
na jaemin!coworker x f!reader. jaemin has a set of rules he must abide for him to avoid unnecessary problems in work and personal life. after all, work and personal life should be two separate entities, shouldn't it?
genre/s. fluff. yearning. a bit of angst(?).
warning/s. jaemin being assuming and doing things on a whim (my spirit animal).
wc/s. 0.93k
note/s. this is inspired by that one scene in the yumi's cells webtoon! did this on a whim... i got so distracted cuz this graduation prac is stressing me out. i might actually just melt by the heat. how'd you think of it? reblog/comment to show your reactions ^^ *i promise im working on the jeno fic ( ω-、)*
Jaemin's Rule: Strictly never mix up personal and work life.
Fleeting moments of bliss and the cold air of a Saturday night felt more like a warning to Jaemin than it ever did in his life.
The glowing overview of the city despite the current time on his balcony harshly reminded him that even in this late hour, there was no way that you couldn't have been not awake.
Tonight is Saturday, and you're probably working on your manuscript, which he told you to finish by Monday.
He knew that with the immediate deadline he set upon your final manuscript for your book publication, you would be squeezing your wits out in hopes that you would finish it by his set deadline.
Maybe it was your frustrated grumble under your breath or the dreaded look on your face filled with hatred for him that he found secretly delightful, though he still couldn't bring up the fact that his set deadline would be the final time he would see that reaction from you.
After all, you were almost done and only had a few revisions to the final chapter of your book.
Tomorrow will be Sunday, and Monday will be the next day after tomorrow.
He still didn't want to let you know he was going.
Jaemin's Rule: When the consequences are conflicting and unsure, never take the chance.
Jaemin could see the umbrella you lent him that one rainy night last Friday in his peripheral—that umbrella of yours that would always worsen his thoughts of you.
There were other places to leave that umbrella out of his sight, but contradictory to himself, he wanted to torment the memory of that mere umbrella.
That one rainy night to which he thought would not ripple with raindrops.
He was never the type of person who often forgot his umbrella. Being someone who was always updated on the weather forecast, he knew that the rain wouldn't come on that day.
That was what he believed until he was caught in the rain after an unexpected overtime in the office. Coincidentally, he saw you on the bus waiting shed as the sky poured rain.
You were there, eagerly looking like you had somewhere and had something to do, your umbrella behind you as you looked around and back to the office building when you met his eyes.
And his heart, he swore he could hear it foolishly skip a beat when your nervous composure disappeared as you beamed in his way.
His legs hopped and sprinted unconsciously towards you, and the urge to be within the vicinity of your presence on that growing cold night was all he could remember when he thought of that moment.
"Why are you still here, Ms. Y/N? I thought you had already left a while ago?"
You gestured for him to hold out his hand, and he followed cluelessly, taking your opportunity to drop the umbrella on his hands and take off your way to the next street.
"Return it to me on Monday!" You shouted at him as you left with a wave, only covering yourself with the hoodie you brought with you and riding a cab that you hailed.
Honestly, he was very annoyed and mad that you were risking yourself by catching a cold just for his sake.
Though he wonders if there was such a reason why you did so, and he hoped it was what he hoped it would be.
It was Sunday today, he remembered, and he should give you back your umbrella by tomorrow.
Maybe tomorrow wouldn't be Monday if he wouldn't return your umbrella.
Jaemin's Rule: Never make unexpected visits.
For all that he could remember, the driving force that made him end up in front of your place was to bring back your umbrella. Nothing more.
Biking on a Sunday night was part of how Jaemin would enjoy weekends before working into his harsh corporate life for the next few days.
But he never thought that his Sunday night biking would lead to his desperation to show up in front of your place—breathless, hands holding the lent umbrella, just in his comfy pajamas and ruffled down hair, which was all ready for slumber.
He didn't think of this through. This is an invasion of privacy, and he didn't have any sensible reasons why he should be in front of your place other than to return your umbrella.
Why was he desperately trying to bring back your umbrella when he could return it the next morning?
Moreover, he never even wanted to bring it back to you tomorrow.
At this moment, when he was in front of your place and mustering up the courage to message you that he was in front of your place and that he had something to say, he couldn’t tell if his heart was beating harshly because of the fact that he was almost on his limits or this unfathomable lingering feeling.
"Sir Na? Did something happen? Why are you here at this hour?" You come out, your hair tidied to a low tie and eyes still brightly alive.
"I came here to bring back your umbrella." Jaemin mustered up while still catching his breath.
"You could've given it to me tomorrow, Sir. There was no need for you to give it back in this ungodly hour." You cracked up a joke, only to fail since he couldn't bring himself to give even a slight chuckle respectfully.
Jaemin knew that all too well.
"Was that all you had to do here, Mr. Na?" You looked up at him with curiosity after noticing him shaking, his eyes wide open, and his mouth dry as he attempted to mutter a word.
Jaemin's Inevitable Rule: Never like someone from work.
"I—I think I like you, Ms. Y/N."
© written by CUPOFWYN . 2024
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LOLL i actually find myself needing to express my feelings more using those pics so i end up using those ( ´_ゝ`) if you're interested in using some, you can search on pinterest "korean memes" ^^ i find korean webartists to be hilarious in making the most unhinged and expressive memes ive seen in the internet (≧∀≦ )
I loved your fic " May I have this dance?", it was really well written!! If you are planning to make a taglist, please add me!!
hello love! do you mean adding you to the master taglist? if so, then i would be very delighted to add you on it!

you'll be the first one to be part of my mastertag >><< thank you for taking an interest in my work, dear reader <33 (〃´ω`〃)
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I loved your fic " May I have this dance?", it was really well written!! If you are planning to make a taglist, please add me!!
hello love! do you mean adding you to the master taglist? if so, then i would be very delighted to add you on it!

you'll be the first one to be part of my mastertag >><< thank you for taking an interest in my work, dear reader <33 (〃´ω`〃)
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IS THIS FR ???? TYSM CHAT 😭😭



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thank you for your kind words ^^ i'm glad you liked this fic >><< i also hope you enjoyed reading this :>>
may i have this dance?⠀( l.jn )

pairing יִ،⠀lee jeno!prince × fem!reader
genre/s יִ،⠀fluff. a tinge of comedy. bridgerton period. royalty!AU. rofan.
warning/s יִ،⠀profanity. little to inaccurate representations of the regency era. being chased. overpraising of jeno's beauty (not guilty).
wc יִ،⠀10.3k
a/n יִ،⠀i might have underestimated the word count—i thought it was going to be short for a oneshot but oh well. THANK YOU FOR THE LONG AWAITED ANTICIPATION. i honestly couldn't have done it without you guys. if u liked it, i'd like to hear your thoughts about it thru reblog, comments, or even an ask! tyvm for waiting <(_ _)>
synopsis יִ،⠀it was all self-inflicted pressure when the spotlight finally turned to you as the final member of the family to experience a love story—the miracle that has been passed down from your parents down to your siblings and the privilege of love in marriage that has been jealoused upon the ton of high society. though the world might have run out of love stories available for you when your family took it all to their delight, or so you thought.
IT'S DAUNTING TO BE IN THIS SCENERY. The mere presence of the most extravagant things seen by spectators of this ballroom and the contrasting sentiments you had within it.
A rush of cold blood runs from your head down to your fidgeting fingers, though you can’t quite pick on your fingers like how you’d used to without gloves.
Everything here is tremendously uncomfortable.
After a few gentlemen who asked for your hand for a dance after conversations, to which you’ve escaped with excuses of going to the powder room, an imaginary friend calling you from afar, and many more lame reasons you could come up with, you’re back to the place where your mother left you a couple of songs ago.
All the sharp eyes that hid uncomfortable curiosity and the reoccurring implicit words that only let you converse about anything but yourself.
Inheritance and fascination about your family’s wealth and the sudden showers of compliments and two-faced flirting tactics—it was getting repetitive.
How could it be not known that the youngest daughter of the emperor's most influential and right-hand man and adviser was to debut in this season? Every man that you approached and conversed with would immediately recognize you and call your name before you even introduced yourself; the striking appearance of the marquess passed down to yours and feminized. No noble nor commoner could not recognize a child of the man whom the ruler of this kingdom entrusted and was well-endowed by every fertile land and mine.
Despite this, there was a more interesting mystic that involved not only your father but your whole family.
Love and marriage.
The oddest and rarest words that could be found together, as marriage is only ever seen as a necessity when a noble comes of age. Politics, business partnerships, and also harshly done to pay for debts, so there was no chance that marriage could turn into something romantic when it is established outside of those forms—yet bizarrely, your family is in a different light.
Your parents, the marquess, and marchioness were wed out of political convenience and yet ended up being the love match of their season, leading to their children being raised with it. Your first-born older sister’s husband might come off as someone who forcefully wed your sister to marriage but was wed out of love at first sight; your older brother with scandalous womanizer antics in the circle and yet is trying to bury the fact that his childhood friend from across our manor's street is slowly becoming the person of his desires and is oblivious that it is also reciprocated.
Love is contagious in this family, and you hate that it's a standard in your family to be wed out of it.
It is incredibly obnoxious. All you knew was that it was the oddest feeling you've seen from your family after seeing those subtle gestures of endearment they shared with their partners. There was always that softness and warmth in their eyes whenever they looked at their significant other despite them looking away.
How powerful is love that it makes a person pacify and willingly consign themselves for the other?
Perhaps you were the end of it.
Such a thing couldn't be held within a grasp of hand if you wanted it right this instance, but in every attempt for you to engage and entertain such thoughts with other gentlemen—something sparks different in their eyes.
Deceitment. They view you as a spectacle—the love that surrounded your family was their tool to win you over, and it terrifies you.
To achieve love, did it have to be this manipulative and hurtful?
Your expectations crashed down with every interaction you had with every man in this hall.
You were simply a target in their eyes.
The uncomfortable hunting gazes they shared with you and their presence alone induced such an invasive depth of cautiousness in you.
To be perceived without any control of the situation, far from the peaceful environment you had within your own confinements before you debuted. The tightness you endured from your corset is nothing more than what your chest and breathing had right now. With a frantic heartbeat and the cold pump of blood rushing into you, you don’t notice someone calling out for your attention.
“Dear?” A firm hand wrapped around your arms, and you jumped from the sudden contact until you recognized your mother's voice, disrupting the unconscious well in your eyes.
“Mama,” you replied.
“Are you feeling well? You've been here ever since I talked to the whole ton of this banquet. I’ve been looking everywhere for you.” Your mother rubbed your arms firmly.
“It's nothing, mama. Just the nerves.” you returned.
“So, how are things going? Have you enjoyed the evening with a charming gentleman, perhaps?” she told you with a teasing tone, beaming a smile at the view of dancing couples and the beautiful quartet's piece gracing the air.
She trusted that with your lively nature, you would talk to any gentleman without any push of encouragement from her, so she left you alone to fend for your own partner. With your pesky and womanizer antic of your brother, what would go wrong when you were left alone in your first debutante ball?
Alas, she forgot that you were a shut-in marquis’ daughter and that your brother is the exact reason why you can't continue to converse with any gentleman in this banquet. Violence and disgust were the only emotions you ever had with the opposite sex in the comforts of your own home, but to be faced with strangers and to be expected to converse well with them? Indeed, different emotions other than what you feel around your brother were reeling in—most of it anxiety.
“Oh, yes! The gentlemen are very charming and very pleasing to look at while I am dancing.” you strayed a forced laugh by the end in an unstable voice, and you coughed to clear it, now grinning to your mother's way in hopes that she'd not find you suspicious.
The marchioness heaved a joyous chuckle at herself as she looked at you proudly, wrapping her arms around yours to link it.
“I am so happy for you, dear.” she embraced you and pulled away as she looked at you adoringly, “If you're feeling more enthusiastic, I could interest you with other gentlemen—”
“How delightful!” An annoying pipsqueak cuts out mother and has snuck through you from the crowd of desperate and awestruck women frolicking at him, inducing you to roll your eyes at him—the rightful heir of the marquis-dom and your older brother, Haechan.
You were at the least thankful for his presence right now, as your mother could’ve suggested something preposterous if he didn’t interrupt.
He cheekily greeted you with a grin and bowed mockingly.
Those familiar eyes of deceit always brought a chill to your spine.
Don't tell me.
“Good evening, missus debutante. Still not up to the offer that this fine brother of yours will be your first name on your dance card?” The marchioness pinched his arms, and he winced, breaking his dashing persona as he woefully looked at your mother beside him.
“Haechan, have you no concern? Your sister is actually having the time of her life, enjoying the lining lords for her hand tonight while you have been out here, just making your chances with another set of women for you to play with.” Haechan rubbed his injured arm and formed a slight pout.
“What line of suit—” he did not finish as you immediately pinched his side, making him snap his head at you with bloodshot eyes.
“Make yourself useful and go out there. I have someone I want her to be introduced to.” your mother insisted.
“Mama, please. I don't want any of this bloody extravaganza,” you said through gritted teeth, and you likewise got a tug from your mother on your sides, her eyes wide openly glaring at you.
“Y/N! Language,” she whisper-shouted, and you mumbled an annoyed apology in return.
“I should tell you, Y/N,” Haechan spoke up, looking at you with mischief in his eyes, the corner of his mouth upturned.
“Don't you dare.” you mouthed at him.
“—A dance! A dance doesn’t really make them your definitive husband, dear sister.” he apathetically commented and crossed his arms, giving you a smug look.
You furrowed your eyebrows at him. You could even feel your ears and nostrils shooting out warm air.
“That is true.” your mother replied. “Although it truly matters who you're dancing with at your debutante gala.” The marchioness starts, and you can shoot a look at her and sigh that she's even doing her sermons at this event. “It resembles the refined attitude and talents of a noble lady. In short, it defines their role in society. For example, your older sister’s husband, the Duke of Rogan. He might be considered the tyrant who mercilessly killed a thousand of the enemy’s army last year, but he is devilishly handsome. You wouldn’t want your sister to be looked upon as with plain rigid taste in marital circles because her first dance is with someone like, well—”
“Like Lord Hopworth.” Your brother continued.
“Hm. Yes, a gentleman with a love for his horses that he only smells of stables and dirt.” Your mother helplessly agrees and fans herself in shame, discussing such gossip circle topics with her children.
“Comparing sister’s husband to Lord Hopworth…they are both in different leagues, mother. I, on the other hand, have no issues whatsoever with the man's hobbies and his reputation in the marital circle. Still, he has already danced with all the women in his family during the past three marital seasons. Might a miracle of a chance would only appear if a distant cousin would appear out of thin air or if Y/N had the wits to ask him a dance.” Haechan chuckled to himself proudly, uttering from you a gasp.
Your brother has been testing your waters ever since he joined your company, and this growing annoyance soon turns into an outburst.
“Explains why women who danced with my unwed brother for three years are still not wed by now. You're just trying hard to hide the fact that you have feelings for your best friend.” you retorted back.
“Y/N! That's crude.” your mother criticizes your sudden remark.
Haechan's eyes grow open in every passing second, and his breathing stops. In a while, he snaps his head away, half-suppressing a snicker.
“Well, look who's talking. See, mother.” Haechan started, and you could feel your chest suddenly heavy.
“I heard from the gentlemen's circle that my dearest sister kept on escaping dance offers from several gentlemen, saying that she would make lousy excuses to reject their dance offers tacitly—!” he ended with a huff. Your mother was frozen on the spot. She finally lets go of your linked arms, looking at you with disbelief.
"Mama, I can explain."
“Is it true, Y/N?” She suddenly asks with a firm tone.
“I…” You’re left speechless. The disappointing truth of your dance affairs is now out in the open, revealed to your mother. At any moment, you’re almost about to be eaten up by guilt at your attitude, especially in your debut.
While rejecting dance offers is rude, the fact that you have dismissed a number of offers from gentlemen of this banquet and have been talked about in their circle was more destructive to your family’s reputation, but most importantly, your reputation.
“Yes, I admit it,” you admitted, your eyes lowering away from your mother.
“You should have just told me, dear. There's no need for you to lie about it.”
“If I would admit it, then I’ll only place you on the burden that I’m carrying. I—” you choked on your own voice, and your eyes grew well with tears.
“Mother, I have been only looked at as an object by all the men here. I tried my best to engage in a conversation, but all that I get are harsh eyes and insincere words, and I believe it is because they only see me for what I have—what our family has! Mama,” the last word strays like a plead, and you continue with choked tears.
“I’m sorry. I need to have fresh air.” You turned your heels away and left the front doors of the palace, leaving your familial company stunned.
“Y/N!” Your brother almost followed along but was stopped by your mother, her hand placed on his arms, and she shook her head.
“Leave your sister alone for now. She needs time to adjust.”
“But Mama, she was being rude!” Haechan grimaced.
“You have to understand that your sister must be faced with expectations not only from others but herself. She must have gone through so much when I left her.” The marchioness released a heavy sigh, burdened with guilt for having left you unattended.
“Oh, what have I done to her?” she brought her head down in defeat, and Haechan rubbed her arms for comfort, unable to speak anything and partly guilty of his behavior towards you.
“Check on her after a few minutes.” your mother pleaded, but it took a few minutes before he could respond.
“Alright.”
THE TEARS IN YOUR EYES FELL STRONGLY DOWN YOUR CHEEKS AS YOU LEFT THE SCENE. Your vision starts to get blurry, and you pursed your lips in hopes that these tears may come to a halt, but you know it isn’t that easy.
Humiliating. Pathetic. Your family has finally discovered your true intentions. You knew that the only people to blame were the men you interacted with and not yourself, but in the end, you were the one who was more affected by their treatment of you. Their simplistic perception of you as nothing but the daughter of a marquess that could bring them to their own prime and financial risings to the society, and it drove you mad.
You were furious about your status, yet, at the same time, conflicted that maybe you were a bit too sensitive and could not stand your guard.
But was it wrong to be hurt? That even with these privileges, you were viewed as nothing but that as soon as you left home.
Debuting into society wasn’t all what you thought it was. It isn’t romantic nor the slightest bit magical. It is war only disguised as something pleasurable with performative beauty in one place.
You desperately tried to hold back your weeping, hiding under the garden’s fountain, not the slightest care that your dress would be dirtied with the grass you laid on, clutching your chest to ease the heaviness. You thought that the fresh air and the silence of the outside gardens could appease, though now it is only the opposite. The vulnerability that you hid as much as you could only cease to hide and break down.
What a waste. That you were just crying in this beautiful scenery.
The serene lush of green and the silence of the night, flickers of stars shining bright in the night sky, bearing witness to the presence of a distraught lady sitting alone under the water fountain.
You look up to the night sky and wipe the falling tears with your arms, another set of tears only falling as you wipe your cheeks.
But there was no time to waste, you knew. You sniffed in all your snot, removing your gloves and disregarding it as it was moist from all the wiping, and let yourself calm down, hoping that there were no further moments that you’d cry again.
Don’t try being a coward this time, you demanded to yourself, quickly huffing out a breath as you slapped your cheeks.
There was no other choice but to go back inside and dance to any man that your eyes would first lay on—no matter their perception of you.
“Let's do this.”
However, a disruption comes.
A shuffle of running feet is suddenly getting louder by any minute closer to you, and you snappily bring your head to the source, seeing a young man with jet black hair and clothes with a ruby red suit running towards you, occasionally looking behind them as if being chased.
Only one thing and one matter came to mind when you saw that scene: To run.
You wasted no time, got up from the fountain's edge, and you hit your head on the edge. You hissed at the impact, slowly standing up as you clutched your head.
“Please!” A young man's voice called out, and it was from the gentleman running towards you. “Please, hide me.” he huffed.
Before you could run away from him, the man finally reached you and immediately hid behind the bushes near the fountain.
What...what was that?
You stood there with nothing in mind and confused about the sudden role given to you.
After a few seconds, another gentleman ran towards you, and this time, you were prepared to run away.
“My lady, halt! I only have a question to ask you.” he stops a few feet away from you and bends, his arms holding onto his knees as he catches his breath.
You stop in your tracks, obliging, and take two steps back.
He fixed himself and stood up straight, a foot tall from you. A refined man with rounded slit eyes and a timid demeanor stands before you, the same age, you guessed, as the man earlier, who is currently hiding in the bushes. He plastered a kind smile, eyes disappearing as he took his barnacle from his suit pocket.
The man cleared his voice and bowed down to greet you, and you do the same.
“Good evening, my lady. I am the son of the Viscount Huang. Renjun Huang, from the House of Capri. Pardon that I rashly made a bad impression on you during our first meeting.”
You greeted back a good evening, introducing yourself and your house, bowing again, and stood up, raising your chin slightly as you carefully asked. “What of I could assist you, Sir Huang?”
“There seems to be someone I am looking for but had run away, rather—” the viscount chuckled to himself and reiterated, “My company has left me alone.”
“Have you perhaps seen a young man with this stature,” he gestured inches above his height. “Wearing a red suit and has black hair?” he finished, and you froze at your spot.
His descriptions of the gentleman he was looking for were precisely like the man you saw speeding towards you, asking you to hide him from someone, which you presume is this person who introduced himself as the son of the House of Capri, Renjun Huang.
You thought deeply, trying to recall any memory from your social etiquette classes that made you memorize and recognize the names and history of each noble family in the kingdom before debuting, as it was essential to have one before entering society.
Viscount Huang from the House of Capri. Weren’t they a family of butlers who have served the imperial family from generation to generation?
"Hmm, a gentleman with that stature has a red suit and black hair?" he nodded at your question, and you wandered off, looking around as you faked an attempt to deeply think about his inquiry when you were actually in a dilemma on whose side you should pick.
Obviously, you had no relations with both gentlemen, and only a huge silence engulfed you as your own conscience measured the rightful decision in this situation.
You gulped and looked back at the man before you and immediately looked away as you saw the desperation and that hint of insanity in his eyes, vividly seeing those dark circles beneath them.
To which gentleman do you trust and help out?
“…I think,” you crossed your arms, rubbing your arms with your hands to appease you as you thought deeply of your choice. “I think I saw that man went that way.” you nervously pointed to your left where the gates leading to another part of the castle are.
The viscount mumbled to himself that he thought right and bowed his head to you. “Thank you, Miss Y/N. Have a good evening.” Sir Huang paused for a moment and smiled gently, adding. “I also hope you are feeling well, my lady.” and he ran in the direction you pointed.
And you were grateful for the sentiment that he shared with you; as short as it was, you felt that he was worried about you. Your eyes must be so swollen from the crying that you took no care to care about your appearance to anybody else. Now you felt guilty for deceiving him.
You waited until his figure disappeared from sight as he entered the castle, and you heaved out a big exhale you had unconsciously held earlier.
You should never be left unchaperoned in another social gathering, you decided.
Though, you can only wonder. Why was the son of a viscount, the son of the current imperial butler, so hung up on this person behind the bushes to the point of chasing him?
Oh, gosh.
You might have chosen a criminal.
A threat to the royal family, perhaps?
Speaking of the devil, the bush near the fountain rustled, and you turned slowly to the bushes, quickly seeking any sort of weapon you could find, and you saw a twig. You picked it up, bent it a little, swung it around to test its firmness, and finally decided that it was good for defense as it was durable.
It is better to have one or nothing, you thought.
You suspiciously walked near it, which is the most reckless thing to do right now, but the twig you held right now gave you that foolish, courageous act. That it could give you full defense against a possible criminal.
Then comes out the man from earlier, his broad back and his clean-cut hair in your view, startling you as your shoulders jump, causing you to clutch your chest and pacify your pounding heart.
“Thank heavens.” a deep voice unveils out of the mysterious man, and he sweeps the dirt and leaves on him, soon turning to you with a troubled face.
You swore you could feel your jaw getting loose as you froze in awe of the man before you.
Chiseled face made of strong facial bones, nose perfectly angled to a degree, lush pink lips of a distinguishable cupid's bow above it, and those long set of lashes, low as it veils his dark eyes, deep yet shining underneath the yellow dim lights of the nearby lamp post around us; it's almost like the porcelain statues and paintings of the imperial ancestors from the palace has come to life—the most significant artists and poets combined to forge imagery of a rightful muse to every medium and ink that praises a divine being.
And that mole, placed under his eyes.
His eyes stare back at you, only delving you to say.
“Wow.”
“Pardon?” The man raises his brow, his lips upturned to amusement.
Your cheeks get warm, and you immediately shake your hands in the air, correcting yourself. “I mean, wow—no, I mean,” you paused and thought deeply to yourself as you looked back at him with seriousness. “I'm afraid there are no present expressions to describe it.”
The man blinked, dumbfounded, and his cheekbones started to define, soon bursting into a fit of laughter at your reaction, holding his stomach as he bent down to laugh more.
The urge to be eaten by the ground was more tempting than ever in your point of existence. You lightly smacked your lips with your hand to punish yourself for your intrusive thoughts winning before you just by the presence of this captivating being.
He finished as he calmed down, ending it with a smile as he stood tall.
“Thank you. I've never been complimented with that expression before, at least not in a first meeting—wow.” The man snickered to himself, his eyes raised to the shape of a crescent moon, and you almost melted to your knees.
The imperial court should consider banning that charming smile; you finally kept the thought to yourself.
“I am deeply grateful for your kindness, miss. I would have understood if you had chosen Sir Huang instead of me since I am, after all, still a stranger to you.” he bowed to the highest degree, his upper body lowered straight as the ground, and you nervously assumed the same greeting, stunned with this deep gratitude.
You realize that this man is still a potential criminal, and you discreetly hide your weapon (a twig) behind you.
“Why were you chased by the viscount, my lord?” you backed off a few steps from the mysterious man as you stood before he did.
“Well, if I were speaking truthfully,” he whirred lowly, trying to find the right words to reason his circumstance. “I would have been forced to enter the ballroom to which I have been warily hiding from my chaperone—I don't want to go through this dancing propaganda, you see.”
“Oh,” you relaxed a little, the grip on your weapon (still a twig) becoming less firm. “I guess I understand.” you engaged.
“You do?”
“Do what?” you looked up at him cautiously, and he walked close to you.
“You also dislike this conviction behind the dancing and the desperation for marriage.” he reiterated, adamant sparkles of enthusiasm in his eyes, still not taking a hint of your obvious nervousness.
“I don't think we're meant to talk so freely about that.” you attempted to retreat from the topic, or moreover, from him, and the sparks were lost as he lowered his eyes and he finally stopped.
“Oh. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that.” The gentleman begged pardon, sincerity clear in his apology, and you notice it, bringing you to look at him and shaking your head.
“No! It's just that...” you hesitated. “I believe my opinions and criticisms of society, as a lady, would be frowned upon. That's why I responded that way.”
The young man looks at you and eases, assured that you are not opposed nor baffled by the conversation's topic.
“Well,” he looked around. “We are the only people present here, aren't we? You're free to tell me things without feeling drawn back, and I assure you that I intently outcast myself from society.”
“You have such grand privileges, my lord. I feel envious of that freedom.” you professed, smiling at him green-eyed, and he shrugged his shoulders, crossing his arms as he looked far and sighed, sitting on the edge of the water fountain.
“It's not always thrilling. My siblings are wary of me because my father favors me more than they do. My father also insisted that I marry and take his stead immediately. With my escapades, I am never to be left alone again when I leave my chambers,” he shared.
He noticed the silence afterward and soon came to regret his actions again.
“I apologize. I may have overshared—”
“I also have a conflicting problem as you do, but more personal.” you also opened up, also sitting on the water fountain's edge, still keeping a good fair distance from him. “I am the youngest and the last of my family to come of age, and I feel like I am not suitable to be here. This dancing and its etiquettes.” you stopped.
He remains silent, eyes now focused on you and every meaning that is present on your face as you're looking away, noticing the tears welling in your eyes.
“If you know my family very well, then you could probably guess that I am very privileged and that everybody wants to get close to me.” you chuckled to yourself, looking down and bringing your hands in front of you, now fidgeting on the twig. “It's funny how I hate that kind of attention because that means I can easily make friends, but it's not genuine.”
The cold air breeze caved between you, and there remained silence. The man keenly waits for another word from you, but there is a look of hesitance present on yours, and before he opens his mouth to talk, you continue.
“I hate it. Everything there reminds me that I could be easily eaten up if I'm not careful, and I’m scared to take any dance offers that could possibly have a hidden motive.” you wept yet again, the warm tears now falling on your cold hands, and you wiped it away.
You say nothing. In your peripheral, you notice a white thing hanging in the air, and you look at it, seeing an extended arm from the stranger who is reassuringly smiling, handing you a handkerchief.
“Here.” the man said, and you hesitated, staring at the handkerchief.
“There's nothing on the handkerchief. I swear on my family's name. It's yours to take.” he reassured, and you felt found out from your cautiousness.
“Thank you.” you mumbled under your breath and accepted the handkerchief, wiping every tear and snot on your face.
You have never thought to receive such understanding from a stranger this evening or be listened to without any judgment and malice. This interaction is what you hoped to receive from all of the conversations of the past gentleman—to be simply heard.
The man secretly grins to himself, finding the scene endearing and relaxed as you were freely talking to him.
“...If it assures you, I experience the same thing as you do ever since I was aware of it.” he sympathized with you, and you looked up at him, finding him smiling though opposite from his eyes, pained as he looked at the sky.
“People looked at me and treated me kindly, but they secretly plot things behind me just to use me, using their closeness to me to satisfy their selfish desires or to raise their rankings. My parents were wed out of convenience just to make an heir, and ever since then, I have lived my life carefully—I rarely find people who I could lean on and depend on.”
“That's why I don't bother myself attending the dances or any party, and I just stay outside of it when I'm forced to attend one. I realized if I even find this occasion tempting to join, then I'll only add more unwanted attention to my life.” he ended, and there came again the silence, but now you're sharing eye contact.
It is comforting this silence you shared this time, pleasant and easy to bear, and you can't help but break in a smile, a stray tear coming down your cheek, and he chuckled, rubbing his nape timidly at this progression.
The mysterious man sitting far away from you had more depth now that you knew behind the charming and gleaming factors that there was vulnerability and the capability for sympathy.
Would it be too much to ask for more of him?
“Would you care to share some refreshments with me?” you confidently sat a bit closer.
“I—”
“Your Highness!” Before he could answer, a distant voice shouted, and both of you looked at the familiar figure, Sir Huang, running towards you.
“What did he say?” your eyebrows furrowed as you watched Sir Huang getting closer.
“Your High—”
“Not important.” he interrupted, now standing near you as he held out his hand. “I'm sorry, but we must run, my lady. Please take my hand.” you can't help but accept it, and the both of you dash away in the direction of the ballroom's entrance. You run behind him, completely confused by your necessary involvement with this escapade and threatened that you are also now being chased.
“What is happening, my lord!” You shouted at him.
“I know a secret passage to the ballroom. Just follow me.” he looked back at you and quickly glanced at the growing tired viscount running after us.
The evening wind was cold as it slapped across your body and created a mess out of your hair, your breathing slowly reminding you that you are not the athletic person to run away with a chasing situation and definitely not with the evening gown and shoes you are wearing. You might need to lie down on the cold floor after this inevitably.
On the other hand, the lord, who is still firmly holding your hand, drags you both to hide any block and bushes, and after puzzling the frantic Sir Huang, the both of you proceed to run, him noticeably slowing his pace to match yours from time to time.
You were starting to lose your breath, and the both of you were finally on the grounds of the outside gates of the ballroom.
“It's truly incredible how you're still not catching your breath, my lord, but may I remind you,” you inhaled in more air and wiped the sweat off your forehead while he was tensely looking for whatever he hoped to find. “I am simply not built for running. I don't even like running at all!”
He quietly shushed you, and you pursed your lips to refrain complaints from coming out of your mouth, and you noticed that he still hadn't let go of your hand.
You flushed from the continual contact, and he dragged you away from the gate, leading you to the right side of the building, where a door meant for the servants and the noticeable clinks of pans from the inside. He doesn't hesitate to open it and bring you inside quickly, walking past the servants who are startled by the sudden presence of nobles in the dirty kitchen.
“Where are we going?” Your knees still feel weak from running, and outside of the kitchen, there is a stairway that leads upstairs, to which each noble was not permitted to enter at all costs as the ballroom grounds and the gardens were the only places that one was to enter.
“We're not permitted to enter this place, my lord!” Your hand dragged him down as he stepped on one step of the staircase, and he looked at you with a glint of hurry in his eyes.
‘Would you rather be seen with me by the viscount or continue running away with me?” he probed, lowering his chin to look down at you at the end of the stairway.
“Look,” you paused to make a statement. “I don't know why I am running with you when this is not part of my concern. You can't possibly think that I would run away with someone I just met!” you exclaimed, wide-eyed as you looked at the unnamed lord, finding his suggestions reckless.
The man was stunned by your reaction, visibly hurt by you berating the connection you made after all of those conversations, and you can see it, the guilt of your outburst at him gnawing at you.
“I seem to have chosen the wrong words. My butler—” he sighed, massaging the bridge of his nose. “The son of the viscount rather has seen us together, and you would be the prime evidence and witness of my last presence in this event, which he would never let go of, my lady. So choose. Would you rather be with me and slowly part our ways or be seen with me by the viscount and hear rumors of us being alone and unchaperoned?” the man paused, looking intently at you as he waited for your response. You, who had nothing to say and were ashamed of your earlier response, just nodded and agreed.
“Alright.” The both of you then walked up the staircase, his grip on your hand still unceasing, and you're slowly becoming bothered by it.
“You can let go of my hand already, sir.” you said.
“Sorry.” he quickly let go as the two of you reached the second floor.
The surrounding frames of eerily familiar faces of royals on the walls urge you to avoid any eye contact with them, their faces now barely comfortable to stare and adore at, and the clanking of both of the soles of your shoes on the wooden platform floors, loud, awkward, filling up the silence that the both of you shared only heightens the apparent climactic end of this camaraderie you shared at the garden—your blunt take on how your meeting was simply empty.
You can't help but feel hurt that you haven't considered the sentimental and unexpected companionship with a man you helped for unknown reasons was the best part of this nightmarish marital circle.
The man was clearly hurt by your words earlier and he still inevitably did not leave you alone to be spotted unchaperoned alone with a man. He helped you and listened to you without you asking of him. Your response earlier was ungrateful, responding that you were bothered by it.
You bit your lips, clasping your hands in front of you as you walked behind him.
“My lord?” you called him, and he answered with a gentle hum, continuing to walk.
“I'm terribly sorry. I didn't mean to dismiss our meeting we had at the gardens.”
He stopped and looked back as he smiled reassuringly.
“There's no need for you to apologize, miss. I have inconvenienced you after all. Our meeting earlier was certainly unexpected and troubling for you, so I understand.” he turned back and continued to walk.
After a few walks, the muffled music from the ballroom slowly got louder. The ballroom was near your vicinity, and you tried to strike up a conversation.
“Are you still not interested in dancing, my lord?”
“Not really. I'm still not interested in being on the dance floor,” he responded shortly, and you take it as a sign not to continue, but he added after a second.
“After the past two seasons, my father is determined to marry me to any woman he'd find me dancing with,” he added, and you hummed thoughtfully.
“So this would be your third season in the marriage circle?” you asked him, and he nodded.
“Indeed.”
His answer made you think deeply, slowly coming up with crafted advice in your head. “Huh,” you responded as you came to a thought, and he looked back at you, puzzled.
“What do you mean by huh?"
“I think you’re missing the point here, my lord.” you slowly caught up to his pace. “If I were you, I'd be setting up a forged relationship with another noble lady just to keep off those kinds of intrusive parents, and then we'd keep the contract for a few years at the least,” you suggested with not much thought.
“Hmm, wait. But it would also not last that much—”
“...I see.” the man replied.
To your dismay, the person chasing you might have finally found out your presence, a set of running feet suddenly getting nearer, and your companion panicked, quickly moving both of you toward a nearby narrow corner, enough for both people to hide.
“Hide in that corner quickly.” He placed you in the corner and helped to hide you, but he didn't bother to hide with you.
“My lord, you should also hide.” you caught his arm and nudged him to where you were hiding too.
“My lady.” he suddenly said, a hint of mischief in his voice.
“Yes?” you replied carefully.
“May I ask for your hand for the next song?”
“What?” you almost shouted out, and he just grinned.
“Your advice was brilliant.” he complimented, and you furrowed your eyebrows.
“I'm saying I would like to make an alliance with you. I'll ask for your hand, and you'll be the center of attention by tonight's party.”
“But wouldn't that risk me being your prospect partner?”
“Unless you'd be proposed to by a ton of suitors by the next morning, there'll be no chance of me winning, and there would be a delay in their enforcement of me to get married. Wouldn't it also be romantic to be asked by many men after dancing with a fine bachelor like me?” he joked by the end, and you scowled in reaction.
“I am not so certain with your plan, my lord. You, who I realized I am not aware of your name yet, and the noble family you belong to wouldn't possibly cause that much ruckus. Unless you are one of the royal princes, then that would make a lot of difference.” he evidently feels startled by your suggestion, and he shakes his head in denial.
“What? No—! Pfft. Why would you assume so?” he waved his hands in the air and continued. “But still, I'll make sure that I will help you feel less burdened with your situation. It's a win-win situation for both of us. At least for a while, when you don't pick me.”
“And how are you so sure I wouldn't pick you?” you answered quite quickly, and the young lord was startled, and so were you by your boldness.
The two of you spend a few seconds just staring at each other, and he breaks eye contact, looking away as he clears his voice.
“My lord, please,” Sir Huang coughed. “Please show yourself! I can't do this any longer!” he complained.
“What's your answer, my lady?” the man before you finally asked, holding out his hand, and you paused for a while, still a bit embarrassed.
Your act of boldness was unexpected of you. That plan you proposed was just a way to converse with him, but it made you look interested in your newfound companion. You just hoped that it wouldn't make both of you awkward, but that doesn't seem to be the case, as he was still willing to do it with you.
This alliance would be all in your favor. You'll finally show your mother that you have enjoyed tonight's party and won't place any more worry on her, but why would he assume you would want more men by the next morning? You don't want any flock of men by the next morning. You didn't like that he said that.
“I'm in.” you agreed and accepted his hand to shake. “This better work, sir?”
There's nothing wrong with accepting it either way, is it?
“Jeno.” He joined your hands and firmly made a handshake. “Call me Lord Jeno, my lady.”
Sir Huang still complains about his missing companion, Lord Jeno. His sneaking footsteps become louder, and Sir Jeno hid you properly for once.
“I'll show myself to the viscount, and you wait for a while until we leave. I'll see you downstairs.”
Then he left.
THIS ALLIANCE. THIS PLAN. You could immediately feel that you might soon regret agreeing to that ridiculous suggestion you made with that man. It was rebellious and certainly not fitting for someone who just entered the society. The man you agreed with has been in the season for three years, and you're barely keeping up with this hectic day a noble lady could have for just coming of age.
You waited a while after you heard no mumbling noises in the hallway and slowly got up, holding on to the wall as your knees weakened from all the running and the brief relaxation your legs had to take. You grunted as you fixed and swept your skirt clean, fixed your hair in place to a nearby mirror, peeked a little from the corners to investigate your surroundings, and left as you determined the place clear.
The music from the ballroom comes to a halt, the quartet resting for another set of music for tonight, and you start to get nervous as you encounter the stairway leading down to the ballroom.
You grumbled to yourself as you descended the stairs, questioning your actions and wondering about the identity of the mysterious man who finally introduced himself as Lord Jeno.
Everything about him exuded aristocracy, so you had no doubt that he was a noble and definitely wasn’t a criminal. But what was the deal of the son of a viscount chasing him like hunting prey? The son of the viscount whose family are butlers of the imperial family?
You almost scratched your head in this situation you've put yourself in. While you were grateful for the unexpected companionship you made with a handsome gentleman tonight, you had just dragged yourself into another complex obstacle you have never faced. More worse than arguing with your mother about your lying.
Who was Lord Jeno?
The ballroom doors swung open, and the gleaming yellow lights of the ballroom soon entered your vision. You stepped down to the final step of the staircase, near the refreshments where the people took their rest after a dance—and you attracted too much attention.
They must’ve heard your issue with accepting a number of dance offers from the noblemen, and you were gone by the following few songs when you conversed with the family you brought tonight.
People in society are quick to judge anyone who acts differently from the must-followed social etiquette you discovered. They're quick to spread words, to create a transparent wall they could ridicule anyone who is not doing the norms.
You couldn't bear but notice and catch all of the glances, and the whispered conversations shamelessly out loud in front of you, and your eyes desperately searched the room, looking for familiarity, looking for a place you could very much hide.
“Y/N!” you snapped and looked in the direction of the voice to see your brother walking towards you grumpily.
“I thought that you were outside, and I came out looking for you only to find you nowhere! Where have you been!” Haechan nagged, placing his hands on his hips as he exasperated an annoyed groan.
You looked down in defeat, not having the energy to fight back like what you usually do with him, not in this place. You could only give them another thing to talk about.
“I'm sorry I made you worried.” Haechan's gaze towards you softened, with the hands on his hips soon placed in his pockets.
Seeing you in a state where your usual reaction was to fight back was unusual for Haechan, and instead of anger and frustration, his emotions subsided into pure concern for you.
“Hey, I'm very sorry earlier. I shouldn't have told mother about your situation. It wasn't my right to do so.” Your brother apologized, and you looked up at him to see him with sympathizing eyes. You smiled knowingly, slowly turning into chuckles.
“You don't look good acting kind.” you teased, and he gently nudged you in response, shrugging off your comment.
“Shut up.” he irked and crossed his arms as he smiled by the end after the two of you shared a laugh.
“Say, brother," you said.
“Yes?” he replied.
“If a person was ever chased by a son of a butler, a known imperial butler to be exact, what does that mean for the person chased?” you asked hesitatingly.
“Pardon?”
“Nothing.” your immediate reply only brings him to suspicion by your sudden behavior.
“Y/N,” he started. “What did you do this time?”
You avoid eye contact with him as you start to fidget, your heart beating anxiously as you count as the seconds that pass by, observing how the musicians slowly approach their instruments and flip their music sheets on a standee.
“A man was chased by the son of Viscount Huang.” you gulped, and Haechan remained silent, pausing to come up with an appropriate question as he observed your frozen figure.
“And?” he asked.
“I made an alliance with said man.”
“Y/N,” he said with gritted teeth as he sighed in defeat. “What have you done!”
“I know, and I have my suspicions too! Alright! But I swear the person has only given me infinite kindness from the beginning…If you exclude the part that I helped in hiding him from the son of the royal butler.”
“Sweet heavens.” he places his palm on his forehead, shaking his head in distress.
“All we agreed was to have one dance, and that's it! I promise there's nothing more than what we have agreed. But listen, this man,” you stopped, looking around you, and got nearer to him as you whispered. “We might be talking about the kingdom’s prince here.” you reasoned with him, and he thought about it, looking at you still for you to continue.
“That’s ridiculous,” he commented. “There’s no way a prince would be asking you out.”
You gasped and hit him on his arm. “You know insulting me is also insulting our parents and yourself too.”
“I had my doubts.” Haechan joked, and you hit him again, earning from him a ‘hey!’.
“You have to take this seriously. This man has been acting suspiciously from the start. Look. He was chased by what I presume, his butler. I heard quite faintly a ‘Your Highness!’ when we were chased down by his butler, and he…” You looked at him, dead in the eyes. “Was a terrible liar. He had quite a violent reaction when I suspected him to be one of the princes.”
“You know, the youngest prince was supposed to debut on my season, but he hasn’t shown up ever since. No one knows his face or name.” Haechan whispered back at you.
“And when did you enter high society again?”
“This is my third, so the past two seasons ago.”
“Oh, dear,” you said as you stared at the ground from your realization. “Where is mother—”
“Lady Y/N.” An ardent voice called you from behind, and you looked behind you, and you saw your expected person.
“Lord Jeno?” you uttered his name, and upon release, the weight of the atmosphere became heavier with his simple presence alone.
And everyone notices. The notable stranger, who was never seen through the night until now, approached the debutante rumored upon and best known to reject several dance offers curtly.
“Y/N?” Haechan asked, staring at Lord Jeno.
Jeno notices your brother and bows, greeting him.
“Good evening, sir.”
“Good evening…” Haechan wandered off, and you were wearing the same expression as he did. Bewildered. Intimidated. Awestrucked.
Shushed conversations and murmuring circles surround the both of you, but despite this, the lord in front of you is composed, poised straight, a firm hand holding out to ask for yours and the other behind him—too firm and frozen you notice. His hand shakes, and so do his eyes, looking at yours as he awkwardly smiles.
“Will you have this dance with me, Lady Y/N?” Lord Jeno asked hesitantly, and you gulped, offering out your hand to touch his, barely placed on his palms as you felt that if you touched his hands again, you’d taint him.
"Yes…my lord," you lately answered the last, not knowing how to address him. He breathed out a sigh of relief, too nervous as if there was a never-agreed-upon alliance behind this.
Shouldn’t you be the nervous one here?
Jeno leads you to the dance floor, and he is still stiff. The pressure of the many eyes is troubling him, especially since, out of his three seasons, he is officially marking an entrance into high society.
Everything he avoided was present in this banquet. Crowds and circles of people and their eyes—free to perceive him as a subject of talk.
He can barely breathe in air, overwhelmed by consciousness by the piercing stares now placed upon him, unaware of you calling out to him, and you tugged him down only to startle him, finally looking at you with anxious eyes.
You gestured for him to bend down, and he followed, whispering in his ears as if he were down at your height. “Are you not feeling well, my lord?”
The ticklish air on his ears from yours gives a ginger warmth to his ears, seconds late to answer you with a simple nod and smile, and you squeeze your clasped hands with him, giving him a feat of courage with your eyes. His heart flutters at this small gesture, the nearness of you making him feel warm but when he looks into your eyes, he notices a glint of something more to it.
Your eyes only show curiosity—more like suspicion.
“My lady, is there something you want to say to me?” Jeno asked, and the glint vanished as you shook your head.
“No. It’s nothing.” But nothing always had something.
You might already have guessed it, but you’re just keeping it to yourself.
The both of you finally take the dance floor. Jeno holds your hand and places the other one on your hips, and you place your free hand on his arm nervously. The quarter starts with the bass, plucking it, and the violin strung after, a cheery tune playing into the dance floor, positioning you both in a waltz.
There is a noticeable space that is around the both of you and Jeno notices it, giving you a sign about it.
“We're like a deadly disease on this dance floor.” Jeno joked, and you looked around you and chuckled along, too occupied by your reoccurring thought.
You reflected on the times when you interacted with him and thought deeply about the things you did ungraciously in front of him.
Well, you complained to him. Talked back at him. Held his hand. You also wiped your snot and tears on his handkerchief—a handkerchief that could possibly cost more than what a normal handkerchief is. After all, he is the prince.
Could be the prince, for now.
“Lady Y/N? What’s the problem? You’ve been staring at the air for quite a moment now. Is there any way I could help?” Jeno asked, concerned.
You don’t respond for a few seconds. “Lord Jeno.”
“Yes, my lady?” he replied lowly. Your mind only drives chaos at his tender reply.
“Are you really not one of the princes?” you ended, and his face tensed at your question.
“If I said yes…” he paused, his face softened, eyebrows brought together as he looked back at you hesitantly. “Will you avoid me too?”
Your heart dropped. Hearing him say ‘too’, only made you realize about his past situations that pained him and made you think about yourself. The memories of your interaction with him came crashing into you as you realized that you were acting and thinking the same as what he told you about the people who interacted with him. And he has probably felt lonely his whole life with this.
But with you, he felt seen and understood—just like what you felt about him too.
“No.” you immediately answered this time. “I won’t, my lord.”
Jeno doesn’t respond, only looking at you bewildered, and he smiles cheek to cheek, reassured by your sincerity.
The next dance segment pulled you near him as the strings modulated and came to a halt. He puts his face close to you slowly, moving his face on the side of your face as he whispers in your ears, the proximity of the both of you close—too close.
“That’s a relief.” you touch your ear as he pulls his face away. “I’m so glad it’s you that I met.” he said, still brimming with joy, unaware of the effect he had on you with that action.
The warmth of Jeno’s whispers remains for a while, and it’s ticklish, and for a moment, you forget the crowd watching you both, unaware of the stir that caused that simple action that took you off course too. The words he has spoken echoed through you, filling you with confusion and butterflies.
The music swells in, and Jeno gracefully leads you across the dance floor; the room is out of focus, other dancers and onlookers fading in the background as you only look at the man you’re dancing with—moving in perfect harmony.
There remains an unbroken eye contact, silence, and the strings from the instruments swarming between the both of you in glee rendition. Looking directly at a prince, you should be nervous and uncomfortable, but none of that is present in your mind. What you saw at the moment wasn’t the prince.
It was Jeno. The mysterious man that you helped and approached recklessly. The man who listened to your story with no prejudice. The man who offered his hand out to you when you were stuck in your own thoughts.
The friend you made out of this treacherous night.
As you continued to dance, you tried your best to gather yourself. You might not have heard him say yes to your question yet, but you can only wonder what it means for your future—what exactly would happen after this alliance was done and gone?
“Lord Jeno,” you said softly, breaking the silence.
“Or should I say, Prince Jeno?” you asked carefully, and he chuckled, nodding in agreement.
“Yes, Lady Y/N?”
“It feels weird addressing you like this. It’s like I’m speaking casually, but I’m actually formally treating you.” you commented, and he laughed at this.
“You’re the only one who I hear calling me in that way. Even if you’re already properly addressing me,” he replied. “I much more prefer it.”
He’s doing that again. Commenting so easily about things that make you feel weak on your knees.
How can he be so oblivious about it?
“What were you going to tell me?” he asked, bringing you back to your question.
“I was about to ask about our alliance.” you finished, and he looked at you anticipatingly.
“Yes?”
“What would happen after this?” and the question comes out.
You already knew the answer to this since you had already talked about it with him. The advantage you’d have after it is his succession in making his own parents, the king, and queen, less nosy on him and going in your own peaceful ways. Though, you want to hear a different answer from him this time.
Despite everything already clear as day, you want to know what runs in his mind.
Where would this lead to?
Jeno thinks about it too.
Too hardly.
“How would you want things to happen?”
The question remains in the air and the music becomes less louder in your ears.
“I don’t want it to happen. I don’t want to wake up the next morning and be filled with other men asking for my hand.” you answered.
Oh.
Jeno remembered he said that. He thought about the moment he said that and soon came to regret when he suggested that as a situation that was sure to happen and not as a joke, not when you told him what you did at that moment.
“You?” you asked, almost like a plead, yearning to hear something different than what you were negatively thinking he would answer right now.
“Me too.”
His words remained ceaseless as they left right through him, the simple words underscored by the weight they carried. The dance continues, and your mind is racing, your heart thumping loudly as if to break through your chest.
Was it really possible that Jeno, the man you stumbled upon in such a bizarre way, felt the same wave of uncertainty about the future ahead of you as you did?
You studied his face as you slowly moved across the dance floor as the final segment came near. His expression remained calm and, when you hardly look, vulnerable.
As the music began to slow down, signaling the end of the dance, Jeno’s grip on your hand tightened slightly, as if he too, was reluctant for this moment to end. The quartet played the final notes, and you both came to a gentle stop, facing each other; the contact pulled away for the final bow. Applause erupted around you, but it felt distant.
After bowing, the both of you hesitantly leave the dance floor but this time, Jeno wasn’t the slightest nervous about the eyes that still remained on the two of you. Rather, he felt more clear about his thoughts and what he wanted more than what he desired in his life.
“Lady Y/N.” Jeno began, his voice low and earnest. “I do not wish to make you feel more uncertain for what is ahead of us after this alliance we made.”
Your heart skips a beat. “I do not understand, my lord.”
“If the morning comes tomorrow and you are filled with letters that ask for your presence, do not read anything that doesn’t have the mark of my family’s crest. The answer to your question you asked me when I told you about the alliance,” he paused as he smiled softly. “I hope that you are certain to choose me, my lady, as I am certain to pursue you in the future and the moment that we step out of this dance floor.”
The sincerity that spoke through his eyes was unmistakable, and you felt relieved and exhilarated. Your anxieties all vanish away in the face of his answers.
“Looks like I would only be expecting one person’s letter tomorrow.” you smiled at him and chuckled, looking at the ground as you felt timid before him.
The quartet plays another yet song, and the both of you are startled by the sudden start of instruments playing, making you look at each other and burst into laughter.
Jeno holds out his hand at you, and you tilt your head in confusion.
“What is it, Your Highness?” he snickered at the way you addressed him, the lining of his eyes prominent into a crescent shape.
“The imperial court should consider banning that smile. You’re too captivating.” This time, you let your intrusive thoughts reign, and you and Jeno laugh at your absurdity.
“Lady Y/N?” he asked, still holding out his hand and you hummed in response.
“May I have this dance?”
“Yes,” you accepted his hand. “Yes, Your Highness.”

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just literally saw the cutest ultraman: rising edit ever. emi learning how to play baseball and the audio used is there she goes 😭😭
#WHO THOUGHT THAT#imma need to cry about this one#i love emi and ken sato#they're literally father and daughter#🪶 . chitter chatter#🧸 . misc
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recent mark 📸
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ngl, this kendrick and drake diss battle is so entertaining. i literally am updated about it.
tw: grooming & cursing
drake's disses r ass but KENDRICK??? now which rapper drops a diss track that just literally say "i hate you, you suck, you like kids, you're an ass dad, and you don't deserve to be in the black community AND YOU DON'T EVEN DESERVE TO SAY THE N WORD."
I BELIEVE THAT NCT (specifically mark, jaehyun, johnny) (basically the foreign swaggers) ARE UPDATED ON THIS DISS BATTLE, AND THEY DEF PULL UP ON KENDRICK'S TEAM.
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