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maybe if he had one drink less , remy would have had it in him to follow their usual routine : grumble some lazy mess of words that made no sense , reassure that he was fine and more than capable of getting himself ready for bed despite the bent arms that would get trapped in his shirt sleeves and let silence wash over them until sleep finally overtook him . maybe if he had any semblance of self - respect , he would have already found someone else to sit adjacent to him . anyone else that could wear a mask of disappointment so he could breathe a little easier .
‘ yeah . ’ falls in sync with an exhale , sweating palms pressing flat against his face like physically shielding himself from the moment would somehow absolve him from any responsibility his words may hold him to . ( but he’ll tell himself it’s to keep the space still , even if only for a moment . a simple act to keep nausea at bay . ) hands eventually fall to rest against the mattress again as his posture flattens with a sigh . ‘ why else’d i do this dumb shit all the time ? ’ slips from his mouth before he can think better of it , dull gaze further keeping his body separate from the atmosphere creeping into the bedroom with shut eyelids . his smile is sinister and pitiful , too inebriated to bother wiping it from his lips . ‘ the only way you can stand to be around me , isn’t it . ’
she shuffles to her knees and crawls over to him , setting a forearm flat against the egde of the bed and lying her head against it . what should she make of it ? alcohol is liquid courage for most , but seeing as lucia rarely gets more than a few words out of him at a time she can’t be sure that’s the case in this situation . her face transitions from curious sleepiness to disconcerted doe eyes and a flustered smile . ‘ what , completely trashed ? ’ she muses , ignoring the way the room is getting hotter and it feels like someone’s sitting on her chest . ‘ no . it’s the only way you can be around me . ’ damnit . shouldn’t have hurt as much as it did to say it out loud . she feels a nasty bout of self-pity threaten to put a frown on her face but she refuses it . ‘ you only remember i exist when you’re like this. ’
‘ hey . ’ she blinks sluggishly and puffs out a yawn before a hand comes up to pull one of his from his face . has maybe closed on the decision that this isn’t the truth , it’s just a bunch of rubbish coming from a boy who’s seen much better nights and won’t remember a thing tomorrow morning . she has a habit of looking people in the face when talking but she’s not sure right now it won’t backfire and make her feel even smaller in front of him . ‘ i care about you and everything remy but don’t .. treat me like your per diem babysitter then tell me you love me just because you’re especially fucked up one night . that’s not fair . ’ tender and polite . self assured , though , because if she isn’t she’ll end up melting into putty beside his bed and hanging off his every word .
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“thanks.” jason smiled brightly as he wrapped his arms around the cereal protectively. “oh yeah. i like puffs way better than pebbles because pebbles get soggy fast and i’m a slow eater.” he explained. “i always get distracted by the back of the box.” he added, just to prove his point further. “but it looks like you’ve already read everything on the box. it felt like you were never going to make a decision.”
damnit. he’d just made a very good point and now she was back to the drawing board. she found her smile falling some as she placed the other box back on the shelf as well and tilted her head over at the cereals. ‘ well i definitely don’t want to eat soggy cereal ... ’ she huffed, turning back to face him briefly. ‘ this is hard. i hate picking things. maybe ... i should get frosted flakes like i always do and just buy a kit kat since i’m craving chocolate so bad. what do you think? ’
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@curdld liked THIS for a brody starter
brody sighed as he looked down at the gash on his hand. one of his students had brought him flowers and when he was putting them in a vase at home he accidentally dropped it, then proceeded to cut himself when he tried to clean up his original mess. this wasn’t exactly his night. now he was sat on a bed in a hospital room, waiting for someone to take a look at his hand, seeing a woman walk past he quickly got up and headed for the door where she was. “hey ––– excuse me, i was told someone would come and check on my hand an hour ago, i don’t care too much i just have papers to grade at home.”
lucia’s stress levels always skyrocketed during clinicals. running around with two, three patients trying to follow exact protocol wasn’t a walk in the park –– not with a slew of other responsibilities clouding her mind. nothing really ever was. what made matters worse were the patients that fell through the cracks every so often. ones that she constantly found herself assuming responsibility for, fearing if she didn’t they’d sit there for hours unattended to. and tonight it was the man that’d stopped her on her way to clock out. had her turning on her heels to face him with a genuine albeit exhausted smile, granting him her full attention. the plump nature of her lips fell to a frown as she spoke and she nodded in complete understanding. “ oh god, i’m so sorry. ” wide eyes flickered down to his hand and she took a brief glance around her before biting her lesser lip and giving a nod toward his room. “ you go back inside and i’ll be right back, okay? promise. i just need to grab some paperwork. ”
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he’ll nod his head before looking around at the rest of the patrons there. doesn’t seem like it’s going to be a terrible night. ❝ nobody throwing people over counters ? no drunken fights or arguments ? ❞ but then a pause, smile widening ever so slightly. ❝ until you saw me. ❞ he repeated, waiting until she brought back another beer ( which he offer his thanks for ) before he spoke again. ❝ you should know i’m not that special or entertaining. only thing i got going for me over these guys is you know i’ll tip & won’t harass you in the process. ❞ now that was generalizing everybody in the bar, jackson. maybe they’re not all bad ! ❝ i think i can manage that. — for the free drinks. ❞ to which he’ll raise his glass & take a sip. expressive sigh after he’s gulped it down, gaze remaining on her before arms are folding across his chest. ❝ i don’t know how you work here. ❞ jackson’s not sure if he’d be throwing customers out left & right or banging his head against the wall from their sheer stupidity.
lucia had to breathe out a giggle , eyebrows furrowing as she eyed him to decipher how serious he was . ‘ jesus , where do you think i work ? prison ? ’ mouth mirrored his in a smile and she watched him wondering how out of touch he really was . in one light she might assume he knew so much more about the world than he did , forced to be a sharp observer and all . but in another she couldn’t help but to think he spent so much time shadowing others that he never really got enough firsthand experience himself . ‘ you only see the bad in it . watch too many movies or something . i’ve been working here three years and have only ever witnessed ... maybe twenty fights . ’ she turned her head to get a look around the bar , all familiar faces and slumped bodies . decided she had at least one good thing to say about each patron . be it her extreme naivety toward their obvious misogynistic attitudes toward her or her built up tolerance for them , she’d come to grow comfortable in this environment . content , even . ‘ so mean to yourself . i think you’re great company , that i rarely get to have . ’ she uttered out the last few words in dismay , eyes flickering over his features before breaking into a more playful look . ‘ and i don’t know how you’re a bodyguard . literally sounds like hell . ’
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‘ my god –– i’m so sorry ! ’ serves her right for looking down at her feet while she walks. always has been her worst habit and now it’s gotten her into this position : kneeling to pick up the books and pens she’d dropped bumping into the stranger on her way out of the library. little hands scramble haphazardly to collect her just borrowed copies of jane eyre and the thorn birds. her face is all hot red cheeks, disconcerted doe eyes and a tight, embarrassed smile. ‘ really i should watch where i’m going, ’ she utters to herself, glancing briefly at the boy as she stands with possessions hugged tighter to her chest. as though loosening her grip might have them flying back to the ground and doubling her humiliation. ‘ i’m really sorry. ’
@hcpelessromantic / starter.
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jason stared silently at the stranger as he watched their hand hover over his favorite cereal. the anticipation inside of him was building as his nerves began to take over. he could no longer wait for them to make their choice. “excuse me..” he coughed as he stepped closer. “that’s the last box of coco puffs.. and this morning i woke up and someone had eaten all my coco puffs. so i came to the store just for coco puffs and i’d really appreciate it if you didn't’ take the last box.”
groceries were so tedious . especially for someone like lucia, who was a pitiful decision maker . minimum of ten minutes was spent at each and every aisle she went down , checking , double checking , and triple checking ingredients . wondering whether she needed or just wanted it whatever was in hand . debating how worth it the purchase would be , how much she’d really eat of it or if it would just end up going to waste . at that particular moment it was between two cereals : cocoa pebbles and cocoa puffs . both viable options to satisfy her recent craving for chocolate . eyes were flickering back and forth between boxes and she felt herself leaning more toward the latter when she heard the stranger next to her speak up . her head turned to face him with a look of curiosity that slowly melted into one of sheer compassion , corners of her lips turning up to a sweet smile . ‘ oh ... um –– sure ! ’ she held the box out to the other . ‘ sounds like you like ‘em way more than i do . guess that makes my decision much easier . ’
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@curdld ┊ LUCIA & JORDAN.
“ —— you look like shit ” she greeted the female when she opened the door . for the past few days , the other seem to be troubled . she held her tongue back for the past few days but she felt like she at least need to say something . she poured a warm cup of tea for the female before taking a sit . “ when was the last time you slept properly ? ” she curiously asked after taking a sip of her morning tea . “ is there anything you’d like to share with me perhaps ? maybe i can help . ”
she’d been propped up on the kitchen counter , restlessly swinging her legs for the last hour . half-lidded eyes were down at her lap , blinks slow and heavy in complete exhaustion . if it wasn’t already difficult enough fitting resting time into her demanding schedule , lately lucia just couldn’t fall asleep . it had been weeks since she had gotten a complete cycle of shut eye and it was evident . eyes carrying dark bags , lips cracked and skin pale . even her smiles weren’t the beacon of light that they usually were . god , she hated the winter . ‘ hm ? ’ she yawned as eyes flickered up to find the other , not a single change in her expression . her head leaned against the cabinets lined up to the right of her and she shut her eyes , not standing to keep them open more than she had to . ‘ i can’t remember , ’ the words came out a sloppy murmur , mouth barely moving to form audible speech . ‘ i’m ... i’ve ... i can’t sleep . i just can’t sleep . i don’t know why , just can’t and i feel like complete garbage . ’
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couldn’t help the quick laugh that came through; wouldn’t bother hiding the fact that it felt nice for someone to want him around. wasn’t very often that he had the time to actually make friends, let alone more time to spend around them. ❝ i guess i could stay. ❞ he stated, feigning reluctance as he seated himself in the chair she was just standing in front of. eyes tearing themselves away as she had to walk over & serve a drink to another customer, resting on the shelves of drinks behind the bar as he brings the beer to his lips again. slight smile tugs at his lips ( feeling so foreign ) as he shrugged in response. ❝ i’m okay. — how’s business tonight ? ❞ then he nodded at her inquiry, lazily holding up a finger as he drank the rest of his nearly - room - temp beer. he didn’t really have a reason to drink before, not having nearly as much of a fun time as he’s beginning to have. ❝ i’ll just have another one. please. ❞
nimble fingertips drummed against lucia’s cheek as she took him in , her doe eyes swimming in a gaze of sheer delight with no attempt to mask her excitement . ‘ it’s ... okay , ’ she shrugged , teeth tugging on her lesser lip pensively . ‘ pretty slow . kind of a drag 'til i saw you . ’ the turn of her body was swift in fetching a second bottle and cracking it open for him . ‘ drinks on me long as you keep me company ‘til my shift’s up . ’ a honeyed smile paired with a promising look though lucia really wasn’t holding her breath that she’d get to have him much longer . she didn’t know enough about him outside of his incredibly demanding choice in careers , couldn’t decide if he was the type to spend more than just half an hour out before calling it quits . perhaps that’s what drew her to him ; what had her leaning back over to him all wide eyed after sliding the beer across the bar . the mystery of it all . god , did she love a good mystery .
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me, pulling up to the mcdonald’s drive through at 1 am, mascara tears on my cheeks and SOS by ABBA blasting through the speakers: 40 nuggets and an apple pie plz
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im….real? my existence has… impacts? i touch things and they move, i breath in and out and the air buzzes around me? the sun rests on my skin…. grass is crushed under my toes… people see me and have an idea of who i am… my name is on papers….? im sorry this is… this is too much….
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