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PTSD is so annoying because you could be having a super chill day with absolutely nothing going wrong, and your brain is all of the sudden like, "Hey, do you remember that time-" and then you're stuck disassociating for the rest of the damn day. 😮‍💨

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People need to understand that for those who have gone through trauma experience things differently.

If you went through an abandonment as a child, a breakup others would get over with in months can take years to overcome.

If you went through domestic abuse, even small changes in a loved one's tone can make you anxious.

If you were belittled your whole childhood, being professionally critized at work can feel like the end of the world.

Trauma effects us for a long time after it occurs.

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idk if it’s the mental illness but sharing literally any information feels like oversharing. i’ll be like “i skipped breakfast this morning” and immediately im like “i might as well have told them where i buried the money”

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forgive me father for i have sexualized an older man

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Loving me must be so fucking hard and I'm so fucking sorry

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When recovering from abuse, it's vital to turn around the narrative from "what's wrong with me, why am I not good enough, what did I do to deserve abuse" to "what's wrong with THEM, why do they think it's okay to abuse other people"

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as i get older i really do understand why people abuse substances now

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My biggest fear isn’t dying alone- it’s living unseen and unloved, as if I were never here at all

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I see abandonment in every shadow, hear rejection in every silence and feel unworthy in every moment of love

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i just want to be okay and somehow that feels like asking for the fucking world.

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i dont know if anyone actually likes me

it doesnt feel like they do

everyone seems so close to each other

what if theyre talking about me

do they hate me