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now that i think about it ive never really been that good at anything cooking, drawing, sewing, fashion, looks, writing, ceramics just totally mediocre at my best and dogshit awful at worst i hate it

i need to find something to do

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i need to find something to do

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I was so close to falling asleep but my mind got ahead of me and I couldn’t stop thinking about how badly I’m doing and I felt so awful I knew I wouldn’t be able to sleep with my mind in such a state but I feel so lonely on my phone too there’s nobody who. I can talk to, I feel so alone. My eyes hurt from staring at the computer all day and phone screen all night and my head hurts too but it’s all I can do to keep myself from going crazy

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got yelled at yesterday. it doesnt happen often so it was an unpleasant surprise. mom and dad are stressed from work.

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i always feel the need to eat something sweet before bed. and i need to feel full before I can fall asleep too

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feels like i can barely do anything except for the below minimum these day

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fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

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spirit hunter NG wasnt all that long ago really, but it makes me feel sort of nostalgic when I think about it. it reminds me of summer break for some reason

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Too stressed to sleep

I guess

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aokigahara

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oahhhhhh help help me help me im so scared i hate it i hate this i can feel myself sliding down and i dont know how to stop

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ive been thinking about cutting myself like crazy these days. whats up with that

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i wonder if people are averse to me because they can tell I'm not going anywhere in life everybody moves on and yet i remain stagnant in this current state

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im so even if its wrong i cant stop feeling this way although i really do wish i didn't

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i cant help but be myself, just as much as anybody else cant

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fuck i posted on my main i deleted it quick but i hope nobody saw sigh now i dont feel like re-typing it out again

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insane cuz i havent eaten insane cuz i havent eateninsane cuz i havent eaten insane cuz i havent eaten