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daily affirmations

i am the unkillable faggot

i can exist in grocery stores

i have the shittiest music taste in any room

i have a gun

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Late night walks hit different when u feel empty and suicidal

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Lowkey don't know how much longer I can keep doing this shit 😆

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it’s always “Horizontal for attention and vertical for results” until they’re vertical and all of the sudden it’s a “Permanent solution for a temporary problem”

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I would really appreciate, just like, dying

Please

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Sesh later

No point in stopping cutting

Ima be trapped in this forever :D

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Ginger snaps is a good movie but 4 minutes in and there's a dead dog (graphic holy fuck that made me sad) and then selfharm

Like suicide and stuff too

But the dog factor is not okay I am not okay holyyyy fuck

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I have one week left to live

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normalize biting people you like

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A minute ago I was doing the maccerana and now I'm crying because I really want to die and there's no fix for this

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Everything's bad

Sleep is shitty and a waste of time

If I didn't sleep earlier I wouldn't have to be alone now

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Can't find my pens

Can't leave a note

But I'm determined and ready and I want this

This isn't an overreaction this is the end

Edit It was the first one someone should take away my Internet privileges

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Starting 2025 off right

(Violently throwing up please send help)

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It's my 1 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

HA

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I'm so cringe

This was what I was born for

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Oh and do I love you or are you really bad for me?

I can't tell omg no wait if we fall for people like our parents (in regards to attachement styles) idk I can't word it - but yooo that'd make sense I mean I hear from my dad more and last time I saw him he asked my name, no not in a trans way - I mean, atleast she still knows my name I think

My internal monologue is in a mood where I feel funny - I'm not funny - I feel very funny. It's all very sad <3

that being said I just wanna say fuck my last camhs guy for telling me I didn't have an anxiety disorder and that it was just due to autism and using that to say they couldn't help. (My anxiety makes my life unlivable. Life limiting. Ayo I thought I was trying to be happy now I'm just sad:(

I got loads of good gigs I gotta die after instead

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Me when I realise my childhood effected me and that there is cause for my issues that can be worked on

Me when I realise my anxiety is stopping me getting help for my anxiety. We love selective mutism holy crappp.

Also like I have hella issues with not being heard/understood - so much so I can't stop thinking on it to the point my words come out quiet and jumbled and it actually makes people stop understanding

I can see the look on their faces as they stop hearing what I'm trying to say

They look at eachover in such a way, like get a hold of this guy

And now I shall stop thinking because it makes me want to roll around on the floor snot crying and I'm just not down for that right now