d3athstarrx

[d3athstarrx]

Life taught me people are only sweet when there's something in it for them and that shit still fucks with my head every day.

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Becoming yourself means letting go of who the world told you to be.

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Seriously tho how can I live a life where nothing feels fulfilling?

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I feel like I need to constantly apologize just for existing.

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Silent treatment because if I let myself argue I don’t know how to stop.

Silent treatment because I'm incapable of having arguments without being a cunt

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will I ever get over it

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sorry for showing symptoms of the disorder i told you multiple times I have. Do you want me to kill myself?

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What the fuck is going on.

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Current mood: yearning for the childhood I never got.

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✰ New shoes with the same old laces ✰

Moving forward moving forward moving forward Moving forward moving forward moving forward Moving forward moving forward moving forward Moving forward moving forward moving forward Moving forward moving forward moving forward Moving forward moving forward moving forward Moving forward moving forward moving forward Moving forward moving forward moving forward moving

I don’t think I’m moving……

At all.

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And it’s all causing the worst reoccurring panic attacks

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I’m unmedicated, all my thoughts are free range and organic

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Stop having the same standards for me as you do other people. Clearly I'm different, I'm behind on human experiences. I'm not going to be good or right, not in this lifetime.

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It's real funny because whenever things go wrong my brain will automatically think of suicide.

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dry response?? okay so you hate me and want me to die is what I’m hearing

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me saying "well, it could've been worse" 2 months later knowing damn well I tried to off myself over it