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spiralling about the very real possibility that i can't finish my bfa with one term to go and then i remember that a bfa is genuinely basically meaningless useless and worthless. yay!

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wowwwww love to get to my final term of college and suddenly be expected to shell out 12k$ for it. jokes on you suckers i'll just kms instead!

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cursed as hell that i fell off my bike (kid style) but didn't get any skinned knees (kid style type bike injury) just got sore kneecaps (old ass fuck type injury). fml

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Feeling an incredibly weird specific nostalgia but what piece of media defined 2020 for you (as in you spent that year with it) mine is mtv's catfish

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gonna be so crazy when i graduate cuz then i can lose my mind with fewer consequences(?) and also then finally maybe relax a little bit

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i'm fetishizing professionalism. i'm sleeping naked on weeknights. i'm making big decisions about footwear. i'm riding bicycles in new ways. i'm being paid for unique skills. i'm wearing clothes with more words on them. i'm threatening passersby. i'm bringing back male intimacy. i'm choosing certain brands of mineral water over others. i'm forgetting my change at the self checkout. i'm pulling things off walls. i'm considering lasik. i'm learning about new ways to smoke weed. i'm still not smoking weed. i'm renewing my promise to never wear "fun socks." i'm playing chicken with automatic gates. i'm working damp. i'm clipping my nails. i'm cleaning up after executives. i'm forming opinions on different sleep aids. i'm writing in all caps. i'm listening to three six mafia. i'm paying skilled labor to put my plans in motion. i'm getting more aerodynamic. i'm making rude gestures. i'm setting up an escape plan. i'm hedging my bets. i'm creating a terrible precedent.

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The problem with playing smash or pass is that there's a lot of characters which I'm not sexually attracted to but I would fuck in a heartbeat out of sheer curiosity and ego, like I don't find Mickey Mouse attractive at all but if he approached me at a bar and went "Hey sexy, want me to show you my mouseketool?" I would say yes because then I get to tell my friends I fucked Mickey Mouse

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life update:

not on here much due to only having desktop and also doing other things with my life

baked ziti type dinner

went out for drinks with some straight guys and didn't even biff it at all afaik

gardener now

my bones hurt more than they used to

collapse of western civ?we can only hope

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kathy i’m lost i said though i knew she was sleeping i’m empty and aching and i don’t know why

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i've also replaced my hobbies of watching tv, doomscrolling, etc, even watching movies to an extent, with like. going to performance art, and reading, and sitting in my garden drinking a beer, and riding my bike. truly living my middle-aged semi-retired art teacher dream (my budget absolutely cannot support this oh my god)

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I guess that cunt gettin eaten

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on the topic of trail mix, the latest entry in Developments of Becoming More Annoying:

eating trail mix and thought to myself it would be vastly improved by better quality nuts, a wider variety of dried fruits, and dark chocolate

previous developments include:

having strong enough opinions about espresso that i almost couldn't finish a particularly unsatisfactory cappuccino

feeling bad about listening to good music on a mono speaker

telling everyone i know about how much i'm cycling these days

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leaving to visit my mother tomorrow morning has got me succumbing to the classic fallacy of if i stay up really late it will take longer for tomorrow to come. i'm cracking open a second cider and feeding myself trail mix horse-style . surely nothing bad could come of this

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yesterday was going to the river and trans people skipping stones like little kids and passing around a bottle of wine as the sun started to set and we started putting our clothes back on. yesterday was riding a motorcycle holding the waist of a transbian i love and wanting to say so but getting scared. yesterday was sitting in someone else's apartment, a little drunk, while their cat purrs and purrs in my lap as if i live there too.

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navigating student/teacher relationships is so needlessly complicated like there is really such a divide and hesitance around what appropriate interaction looks like which i absolutely understand why that is the case – very very easy for power to be abused and many cases where that happens – but at the same time like we are all just people and i have heard about and personally experienced many academic dynamics where profs and students are all hanging out having dinner or whatever meanwhile i've experienced many other contexts where even just chatting up a prof casually feels like crossing a boundary. like again i understand where the abundance of caution comes from but it also feels like another manifestation of the erosion of intergenerational relationships which is symptomatic of the erosion of meaningful community in general ..... i could go on ... all this to say i just want to get coffee with my professor but it feels analogous to propositioning them for sex and that sucks!!!!

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how it feels to send my favorite prof an excerpt from a book i'm reading that i thought he'd like and not only did he respond but then responded again citing a quote that he particularly liked meaning he actually read it and THEN sent me something else he thought i'd be interested in