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sorry for being gone for so long! replies are queue'd and all,,

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hear me with an honest heart quiz result 

people hear without really listening, most of the time, and you hate it. you know that your words are falling dead from your mouth in a conversation as the other person just sits and waits until it is their turn to talk again. you crave more, you want to be heard with a purpose and an honesty of intentional knowing. because you are so many things, and they live within you, and you want to share them, but it is hard, because to speak is to allow someone to listen. to speak is to chance being heard. and if you are heard, and if they listen, then they will know. my darling dove, you deserve to be known. you deserve to talk until your voice gets rough and to have someone listen to every word. you deserve the kindness of an active investment by another in what it is you have to say. it isn't selfish, i promise, i swear. tagged by my best friend: @etherealve​

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Yuri

“I didn’t ask you if you wanted a drink because you had that – Now I feel silly for not asking. You know how carbonated drinks are damaging to your bones and stomach?” Yuri shook her head as she made her way to the coffee shop, already feeling like she knew the other for years, when they actually only were together for a few hours, plus the other time by the other coffee shop they both went to. She did worry of the other as she seemed a bit lost as she revealed to her the photos, but supposing she could just be either tired or studying her work, she set those worries yet again to the side.

“Then yeah, I also am not one to talk when I like coffee so much and won’t mind my son drinking lattes. Coffee can have its own perks as well.” Yuri widened her eyes slightly in surprise not feeling human contact for a good while, due to the issues going around the world, but she knew the other meant no harm and it wouldn’t be a friendly touch that could get them infected, she thought at least, so she eventually relaxed and smiled as she entered the place. “Should we choose a booth?” She nervously questioned, still feeling a little shy about it. Since even with this, she also was reminded of her ex somehow that used to lace his arm around the lower of her back and wrapped his fingers around her waist. Certain things still certainly triggered emotions and memories. It was silly to still feel like this for a man that even still by her side already had decided to move on from her.

"Pffft...Well aren't you the dork you always were..." Daiyu muttered under her breath on last part there, not wanting the other to hear exactly what she said, maybe just a little bit though. The attorney chuckled; her heart felt too tingly and warm from finally being able to reunite with her long lost friend. Daiyu noticed the sharp reaction that Yuri had; the attorney noticed the expression on her face. "Yeah, yeah sure. A booth would be nice." Fast forward a few moments until they actually managed to get coffee and finally sit down properly, the lawyer brushed her hair to the side. Grabbing the coffee cup had apprehended her from pulling her hair back every once in a while, causing strands of hair to cover her eyes.

"Anyways, sorry for shifting the topic a bit." Daiyu decided to defer from the small conversations that she and Yuri had on the way here and during the line for the coffee, "--I recognize the expression on your face. I once had a friend who had a toxic husband. At the end of the day, divorce was the only option. At the time, I remember the days she would sink herself into silence. She was strong, stronger than anyone I know. At the end of the day, I hope you can find the strength to get through it all."

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HAPPY EARLY TURKEY DAY you frickin dorks omg i love you all today is a happy happy day for me

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Minami

Celebrate the living, huh. Funny. Funny that she never thought of that whenever she consumes alcohol into her system. For whenever she does, her mouth would only spit nothing but the bitter taste of Life. Was it the exhaustion of work, her relationships, or was it the living itself? Or everything.

Manami was tired; They were all dressed in their black attires, in a space crowded with familiar to non-familiar people, and wailing echoed everywhere. The gloomy weather then didn’t help. It was her friend that was no longer with them, the life that has already decayed and taken from them. She felt sad and she was crying, and at the same time her thoughts had wandered if she was in that placeーwould people have come and gave the same warmth and echoing cried?

"Cheers.” With a bitter smile, she raised the glass in reciprocation and lightly pushed it to Daiyu’s as a way to toast their drink before she gulped down the drink that burned down her throat. Bringing the glass down right after and finally speaking, “Wellー aren’t you dramatic?”, she teased with a small smile, her eyes centered on the empty shot glass she played around with as it sat empty on their table. “But you know, you owe me too much for me to forget youーdon’t even get me started. Although, ” Her following words were meant to lighten up the mood that hanged around their gloomy apartment paired with the stillness of that night. “Make sure to do the same for me.”

It was with Minami that Daiyu found a decade of true friendship. After 35 years of being alive on this Earth, Daiyu's acknowledged the fact that the proportion of friends a person may have only decreases as one gets older. The attorney could feel the warmth of the alcohol stinging in her throat, yet at the same time, she appreciated the sweet flavor of Peach Soju. It was one of her favorites. Regardless, she's accepted it-- her fate. It was already late November and she knew the inevitable was going to happen since the age of 25; too much time has passed for her to care except make the most of the remaining time she still has. 

Daiyu glanced over at the bottle, preparing two more shots for the two of them as she continued speaking to her confidant. "Yeah yeah, of course I owe you! Remember two years back at Eunchae's birthday party? That one time I got my stupid ass drunk and became a horny mess, because the expat by the corner was soooo hot?" Fingers wrapped around the bottle, Daiyu poured the sweet alcohol into both of their glasses. One shot isn't enough to even get them tipsy, am I right? "Look, all jokes aside Minami-- thanks for being there for me. Cheers to good health!"

And with that, Daiyu slammed the shot glass into the others happily, swallowing another whole shot as she breathed out the tingly feeling in her throat. The attorney slammed the shot glass down onto the table as her tone shifted into a more sincere voice. "-- You were there for me when I went into shock. I was only 25 then, but I'll never forget that. You were there for me when everyone else was 'busy.' What a fucking excuse... I remember when I cried for hours into the night, but you willingly put up with my shit and let me cry into your shoulders until I fell asleep despite having work the next day, and the day after that, and that.. and so on." The mood shifted, a slightly somber atmosphere crowded the dim-lit apartment. Daiyu stared at her shot glass in a trance-like state, perhaps brooding over all that Minami did for her, as light reflecting off the rim of the glass. 

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Trading and stuff been busy these past few days, replies this weekend hopefully.

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note: if you need help because of COVID, let me buy you a meal.

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YURI

“It’s okay.” Yuri again offered a small smile and was thankful that she had the mask to hide behind, although still certain that her sadness would still show through her saddened eyes. Somehow the small gesture pulled out the pain out of her and it wanted to slip out by her eyes in the form of tears but she held them down. How embarrassing would it be to cry her heart out in front of a client when she was there to simply care for their work and take their pictures?

Maybe she would take the chance to invite her for a coffee or anything at all to talk more and get to know one another, seeing that it seemed to be a path both of them wanted to lead to, as they kept talking about personal matters and being so close, so Yuri surely wouldn’t mind to find herself a new friend and confident, but at this time she needed to focus. 

“Thank you and maybe by the way, if you’d want to go for a coffee together after, I could have the time. I feel like we been wanting to talk and all, but I should focus now on work, but after we could hang out together, if you’d like.” She suggested, letting herself perk up, as if her own soul knew that this was what she needed and would want. Without knowing, she already missed the other and wanted to share a lives’ worth of adventures, but until then, she was only just indication what poses the other should do for the pictures to be their best and snapped the photos, making her questions on how she would want to rather appear in them and to also not be fearful to experiment with the poses, as those also a lot of the times were the best. She would only give a few indications of things she could do better on those too on the meantime.

 "I'd love to." Daiyu responded immediately to her generous offer. Sure, the photographer didn't know any of the memories they've shared together, but the attorney does. She wanted them to meet again in the time that Daiyu has remaining on this Earth. How selfish of her though.. for her to meet Yuri at the age of 27; Daiyu knew the inevitable. In about 8 years time, the attorney’s gone. She could feel her heart sink at the thought of leaving Yuri alone again as her mind went on autopilot in front of the camera. 

Suddenly, her mind snapped back to the moment; they finished shooting. Daiyu looked at Yuri in a bit of a shock. Taking the time to adjust and look at the image previews that Yuri generated on her laptop. With a quick nod, Daiyu signaled to Yuri that she was very satisfied with the photos before responding to Yuri's suggestion. "Yes, let's go get some coffee. There's this new place two blocks away from your place. It's quite nice and well-lit there." The raven haired woman suggested with a kind grin, moving over to grab her coat. The other hand reached for the LaCroix quickly drinking a few more sips before disposing of it in the trash can. Yes, she wasted the remaining carbonated water but who cares? Daiyu actually hated LaCroix, she just cared about maintaining an image, but this was her old friend in front of her! 

Anyways, fast forward to the coffeeshop, the ladies already were caught in a flurry of fun conversations on the walk there as Daiyu cheerfully opened the coffee shop's door for Yuri, "Yes! Like, oh my god, can you believe it? LaCroix-- fucking everywhere, bro! It's insane and it's soooo disgusting; the fizzy, bitter, weird taste. But it's all they have at the client dinners at the law firm I'm working at!" She jokingly chuckled a little bit before extending her hand in the rush of excitement. Her fingers wrapped around Yuri’s wrist so gently, grabbing onto the other's hand and leading her into the shop. "Come in, come in."

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"At least remember me, don't just forget this friendship the next day?" 

Daiyu joked around with the junior. Imagine, being 35 and just about to pass onto the next life, yet she's still joking about death with her best friend. The attorney's lived such a fulfilling life too; a life full of interesting debacles and fanciful relationships. 

After 25, Daiyu stopped making friends; she didn't want anyone to get attached to her, and she couldn’t see the point in making too many. Attachment would only lead to more pain after all. So, she decided to nurture the relationships she’s made until this point in time. The raven haired woman stared at Tokioka with a bright smile as she got out a bottle of peach soju and two shot glasses, placing them onto the dinner table. 

"Let's drink and celebrate living, yeah?" The comment parted her lips with such distain, as if vodka was burning inside her mouth. Chuckles followed as she slammed a shot glass in front of Tokioka. "Drink up! Let's drink," A sharp fizz, followed by the pouring of soju into both of their shot glasses echoed across the apartment. 

"Cheers." 

She raised the shot glass towards the woman, waiting for her to reciprocate. ( @etherealve​ )

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⚠️

⚠️ What is one thing the muse wishes the mun could have warned him/her about?

"Bro, as if dying at the young age of 35 wasn't bad enough! I'm waayyyy too young for this kind of death you know? 35 and I don't have wrinkles yet. Look at me, do you know how much money I spend on skincare?? I mean not to mention the shock I got from receiving all my past lives' memories at once at the age of 25. That kind of a thing can really send someone into shock! Shame my mun didn't choose the premed route to learn more about that and incorporate it into my bio better.” 

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MUNDAY QUESTIONS Muse answers the questions about the mun

☕️ How does the mun like his or her tea/coffee/hot chocolate?

✈️ What is the mun’s dream vacation?

⚠️ What is one thing the muse wishes the mun could have warned him/her about?

👋 What was the mun’s first impression of the muse?

📝 How did the mun react when he or she realized they wanted to write the muse?

👥 What is your favorite experience together as mun and muse?

💭 What does the mun typically dream about?

⏰ What is the mun’s ideal evening spent alone?

🎬 What is on the mun’s Netflix “continue watching” list?

💙 What photos does the mun typically share on Facebook?

📱 Does the mun take their phone with them to the bathroom?

📖 What is the mun’s favorite fanfiction about the muse?

👩‍👩‍👧‍👧 What is the mun’s relationship like with his or her family?

👶 Does the mun want kids?

👀 Would you classify the mun as an extrovert, introvert or ambivert?

👣 Describe a time the mun took a lesson from the muse in a real life situation.

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Yuri:

Yuri widened her eyes and her lips parted only the slightest at the almost comic yet iconic sight of the latter reaching for her own drink and cracking the can open with her legs crossed, giving out a vibe of higher standards at the same time it felt like a no-name person she could relate with and relax with. The young mother felt like she could thus skip the offer of a drink and smiled in amusement, also not so sure if she should offer a cup for her, not wanting to again sound unprofessional or perhaps even condescending, when she just meant indeed to just absorb the interesting moment for what it was and to make he other feel more at home.

“Oh. Guess I may had worked with your firm before then, or maybe you just remind me of someone else as well then. I used to, but not anymore. Still don’t regret it one bit through, since I got to meet the most important person in my life along side my parents, which is my son, of course. Either way, enough about me – Want to get started? We could start by those ¾ shoots and then get the desk ones either here with a few props or at the office on another day or later on, which way you prefer.” Yuri smiled, although the mention of her supposed husband dug deep within her core, reminding her that instead of being busy as work as he should, he rather usually used that excuse to have his time with other people he had been seeing behind her back.

Not wanting to let the conversation distract her from the task at hands, she adjusted the lenses and zooming within the cameras and all details that had to be ready for the client and smiled to the other, as if to say that she was ready for her. Of course she needed to do a few more things, but would be easier with the female on focus in front of her and the camera.

Daiyu kept her eyes on the other person as she watched Yuri pace around the studio looking busy as always. Taking a few more gulps of the infamous imported LaCroix, Daiy calmly placed the can back on the table. Noticing the forced smile come out of Yuri hurt the attorney on the inside, not this life too...? She thought before quickly standing up and hanging her jacket onto the coat hanger. 

The attorney stared at the mirror provided inside the studio to make sure her foundation didn't look too cakey and that her suit was well adjusted for the 3/4's shot. She didn't take off her mask though, not yet. Not until she actually got in front of the camera for safety sakes. She wouldn't want to cause Yuri any sense of fear, especially hearing how mothers with younger children are often overprotective of their kids with right reason. After taking a brief pause to adjust her suit, she walked over to the mother. 

Walking around her to get in front of the camera, Daiyu felt Yuri's uneasiness after bringing up her husband. She couldn't help but naturally wrap two of her fingers around a strand of Yuri's hair. Just like in their former lives, she would always do that. It was almost ingrained into Daiyu's instinct. When the time Yuri bursted out crying in front of Daiyu about the pains that her lover brought her, or the time when Daiyu arrived to a Yuri sobbing on the ground of her former home. She'd always play with Yuri's beautiful hair; she'd keep playing with it as they talked until Yuri eventually calmed down or fell asleep, whicheverone comes first after a heart-wrenching day. 

Daiyu always comforted her-- Then she snapped back to reality (oop there goes gravity), trying to find an excuse, "I-I noticed something on your hair. Sorry about that, I was just trying to remove it." Daiyu immediately turned away to avoid any further eye contact with Yuri, one hand pulling off her mask and shoving it into one of her pockets as she walked towards the center of the camera. 

"Let me know how I should properly pose.." 

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ask-bonnefoy​:

Asks to muse (or mun)

Muse and mun: 👀 = What is the most beautiful thing you’ve seen today? 👅 = What would satisfy your tongue at the moment? 💌 = *Makes the muse (or mun, if specified) write you a love letter* 🦄 = If you’d be any creature you could be, what would it be? 🕊 = What makes you feel free? 🍿 = Are you often salty or sweet? 🖼 = What art inspires you? 🌌 = Would you wear anything with a galaxy print? 🔥 = Hottest fictional character? 🔕 = What song/genre of music would you never choose listen to? 🎶 = What’s your jam? 🗑 = Are you trash? 🎩 = Do you prefer to dress chique or casual? 💘 = Are you in love? 👑 = Do you more often feel in charge or more often powerless? Just the mun 🦉 = Whooo’s a really awesome blog that deserves more love? 👾 = Where are you from? 🏴 = What languages do you speak? ✍️ = Do you roleplay?

General comments: 😍 = I love you senpai! <3 💣 = You are dah bomb! 💓 = I enjoy seeing your content 💕 = I wish we could be friends. 💖 = I am a shy kouhai, don’t know what to say… Even so, I hope that you will notice me today! 🐠 = Fish.

😫 = I wish your blog content would change. 👽 = Your blog changed so much, we are strangers now.

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just an update but i added some more info to my about and verses pages hehe uwu and maybe some other overhauls later  

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misc prompts for your feels

“ unique just means alone. ” “ i’m not afraid to die, just wish i could live a little first. ” “ i know i’m a monster, but you look at me like i’m a man. ” “ there’s nothing i wouldn’t do to keep you safe. ” “ we all have sins to pay penance for. ” “ don’t look at me like i’m a hero. you’ll only disappoint yourself. ” “ sometimes when you look at me it’s like…it’s like you’re staring straight past my flesh and into my soul. ” “ you make me want to live. ” “ i know i don’t deserve forgiveness, but i like the idea that some people think i might. ” “ i trust you with my life. ” “ you’re more like family to me than my own blood. ” “ i’ve never had any sort of family before. ” “ your life is far more precious than mine. ” “ i don’t care what happens to me. as long as you’re safe. ” “ i need you to live…cause if you’re gone then, i don’t know what the point of it all is anymore. ” “ i know i’m not the person you want, but i’m here. ” “ i love you, and i know you may never feel the same. but i’m okay with that. ” “ i couldn’t say no to you even if i wanted to. ” “ you’re worth more than this. ” “ why do you walk around as if you’re somehow less valuable than the rest of the world? ” “ please, let me help you. ” “ just let me do this for you. ” “ you do have something to live for. you have me. ” “ you’ll always have me. ” “ i see you. i know you feel so invisible all the time, but you’re not. not to me. ” “ it’s okay to be angry, you’re allowed to be upset about what happened to you. ” “ don’t you realize you deserve more than this? ” “ you’re not a machine or— or some thing. you’re a person, and i’m sorry anyone ever made you feel otherwise. ” “ please, just hold on a little longer. i can’t lose you too. ” “ this scar..what happened? ” “ if you won’t do it for yourself, then do it for me. ” “ you’re bleeding— how long have you been hiding this?! ” “ sometimes i realize one day i could die, i could just disappear and the world would be none the wiser. there’d be no one to miss me and that terrifies me more than death itself. ”  “ i’m not sure i know who i’m supposed to be anymore. ” “ my mind is so loud and i’m afraid it’ll never be quiet again. ” “ when i’m in a crowd i just want to melt away and yet, when i’m alone it’s somehow worse. ” “ loneliness is a poison and i’ve been drinking it for so long, i don’t there there’s an anecdote to save my soul. ” “ i don’t care if the world knows my name, i just want you to remember me. ” “ you deserve more than i could ever give you. ” “ i love you. i know that’s not enough, but i do. ” “ you’re safe with me, you always will be. ” “ you make me feel safe. like i’m allowed to be anything i want. ” “ i’d do anything to be the person you love again. ” “ i’ve got you, you’re safe. ” “ just rest, i’m here. ” “ you can stay with me tonight. ”

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Stranger:

      A simple sigh, fingers barely brush across forehead as she attempted to comprehend what just happened. How a remark could set off such a fuse in someone, she didn’t know, if anything she had more concern about the legalities of using the title of a position the woman didn’t have than anything else. 

        Paused then turned toward her once they were in a less populated space of the museum with an unreadable expression, brown eyes burned darker. “I quite like my job, I’ve always been interested in history and art. The only reason I commented as I did is because that can probably get you and your firm in trouble by misrepresenting yourself as an attorney when you’re only an intern.” This shouldn’t have been something Ji Heng herself thought about either, as it wasn’t her position on the line. 

        Natural colored lipstick covered lips formed a plastic smile. “It’s impolite to ask how much money someone makes, and I’m not going to tell you. That’s my own personal information that I will only tell those I trust or who want to know if they are interested in entering this profession. As you lack respect for this business, calling the art weird-looking and losing your temper, I’m going to have to tell my employers what happened as it seems best for all parties if we work with someone who cares a little more.”

On the outside, she tried to hold onto her pretentious and cold demeanor. However, on the inside, Daiyu was trying to find excuses that was running faster than a roadrunner. 

Shit, this annoying museum worker in front of me is actually yappin' her mouth pretty nicely. What the cr@3$ do I do now?! 

Daiyu actually put in the effort to fake a cough before she tried to find a sassy counter, "I say what I want, plus they only sent me so.... it is what it is." A casual shrug to top it all off. After hearing the other female speak; however, her expressions quickly changed raising her hands at the other almost begging her to stop, 

"Hold on, hold on. Please don't do that, I need the job." Her eyes immediately went full puppydog mode on the other as the façade suddenly broke. "Hey- don't do that please.." Stepping forward, she tried pleading. "Why are you so cold, anyways? Is there a need to act the way you are...? Aren’t you supposed to be a service person?"

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Yuri

“A few minutes early actually, so don’t worry, but I’m ready when you are, my last client left a few minutes ago.” The young mother bowed politely, again showing her smile through her eyes, seeing the mask hid her lips and teeth away.

“Welcome and make yourself at home, yeah?” She added as she pointed at the still slightly wet surface of the faux leather and plastic yet comfortable covered sofa she had for people to seat that she had of course disinfected for the next oncoming visit, which explained the plastic, seeing that many times a day everyday would ruin the couch.

“Thank you! I’m glad you like it.” The female added, again pointing at where she had indicated, but also a few stools nearby if she would prefer, so they could talk. “So, any thoughts of how you would like this photoshoot? I of course can give my intake as a professional and creative input, but always want my clients to have their own vision and dream poured into the photos, seeing that after all its their product after all. Also, I can work after hours as well as I told you, in case you want them in your office. This will permit us to still have safety in the space without overcrowding your work space.” She minded with a small nod and from there looked at the other, waiting for what she would say, still with the same sensation clinging to her skin and bones that somehow she had met this person before and that they had found themselves close to one another and talking before.

“Also no worries about my son, in case you wonder. He can be with my parents, by the way – I’ve been meaning to ask and I’m sorry for the intrusion but – Did we actually knew one another before? Maybe from my son’s school or we worked together before? I’m sorry if we did and didn’t mention it before. I do feel like I knew you before, but can’t recall from where and how quite well.” Yuri didn’t resist to question the reason for the way she felt and hoped that the other wouldn’t call off everything for the way she just sidetracked from business matters to their own personal life and other details that shouldn’t matter for this instance. 

You still don't forget things hmm? Even after lifetimes, you're still the same old you. So inquisitive... 

Daiyu managed a polite nod, trying her best to silently respond to Yuri's answers regarding her son while shuffling herself over to the seat with plastic. Gently sitting down as she grabbed a cup of LaCroix out of her purse. Truth be told, Daiyu got accustomed to the taste of carbonated water after spending so many hours drinking sparkling water at all of her law firm's fancy client-centered dinners. She almost forgot the taste of regular water. 

Crossing her legs, Daiyu comfortably sat down inside the studio. Her right hand wrapped itself around the alumninum can, a method of stabilizing the can to prevent it from falling over as she tried to open it; with her free hand, she grasped the opening of the lid. Snap-- a crisp sound followed as carbonated smoke flowed out of the can. She took a small sip, careful not to tilt the can too much to avoid getting the water all over her former best friend's private photography studio. 

A small pause, before she continued speaking, "Well, I would prefer some shots of me working at a desk, a professional headshot, and then some 3/4 photos of me?" Daiyu glanced over by the clock really quickly, making sure she has ample time to chat with Yuri and learn more about her, before quickly turning her head back to the photographer and giving her a friendly smile, "Ah-- no, not at all. I'm actually-- an attorney. I'm not married yet either. I was just confused the other day, sorry about that!" After all, no one in their right minds would trust the attorney if she told them the truth. 

"You seem like you're a wonderful mother, I assume your husband is busy at work...?" She did mention that her son was at her parent's place after all.