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me: oh yea it's been years I'm over it

also me: *was actually irreparably changed to the point that my personality and the way I interact with others and my insecurities are, even today, a direct result of what happened*

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me: oh yea it's been years I'm over it

also me: *was actually irreparably changed to the point that my personality and the way I interact with others and my insecurities are, even today, a direct result of what happened*

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meirl

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“I finally returned to Heaven. Of course there isn’t one Heaven, each soul generates it’s own paradise. I favor the eternal Tuesday afternoon of an Autistic man who drowned in a bathtub in 1953.”

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new years has always been my favorite holiday. for me, it has always represented hope. a day that gives you the chance to say ‘this is a new page’ even though really, it’s just any other day.

but this year i am full of dread about the new year.

2020 was absolutely horrific.

i lost a friend overnight. one day i just woke up to the news that she’d killed herself and just like that someone whom i’d had in my life for 18 years was gone. no chance for a last goodbye or a hug, she was just dead and it was irreversible. i couldn’t even have the illusion of closure because she died close to the start of the pandemic so i couldn’t visit her at the hospital. that experience of losing someone so permanently for the first time absolutely broke me.

i wasn’t as close to this other person, but yesterday i found out a resident at the building i worked at died alone from COVID. i had just talked to her this weekend and she was fine. she was fine, looked like she had the sniffles, she was fucking fine. monday evening she’s just...dead. this experience is also one i’d never had and was different to that of what had happened with rachel. I have never had someone i had  so recently and regularly seen die. how could she be fucking dead i just fucking saw her and talked to her and she was fucking fine.

they were both young. rachel was just a month shy of her 25th birthday and Beth 43. they had no business dying in 2020, they were so young.

what the fuck will 2021 bring? more death? even more instability? i’m scared and i don’t want to know. i’d rather stay with the devil i know which is 2020.

at the end of the day, when the clock strikes midnight it will just be any other day. but what it represents, a brand new chapter, scares me so so so much.

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$1,932,589/4 br

1960 sq ft

Oakland, CA

A well done remodel of a 1911 craftsman!

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muffled jazz music in the bg ✨

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Bby Di Angelos, which my scanner completely murdered I’m sorry (not that they were very neat to begin with, oops)

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I remember first learning that you can cry from any emotion, that emotions are chemical levels in your brain and your body is constantly trying to maintain equilibrium. so if one emotion sky rockets, that chemical becomes flagged and signals the tear duct to open as an exit to release that emotion packaged neatly within a tear. Everything made sense after learning that. That sudden stability of your emotions after crying. How crying is often accompanied by the inability to feel any other emotion in that precise moment. And it is especially beautiful knowing that it is even possible to experience so much beauty or love or happiness that your body literally can’t hold on to all of it. So what I’ve learned is that crying signifies that you are feeling as much as humanely possible and that is living to the fullest extent. So keep feeling and cry often and as much as needed

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I’m sorry you were not truly loved and that it made you cruel.

Warsan Shire (via wordsnquotes)

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I need help to describe face expression and the voice of my characters.

Words used to describe facial expressions:

Absent

Agonized

Appealing

Beatific

Black

Bleak

Blissful

Brooding

Bug-Eyed

Chagrined

Cheeky

Cheerless

Choleric

Coy

Crestfallen

Curious

Darkly

Deadpan

Derisive

Despondent

Doleful

Downcast

Dreamy

Ecstatic

Etched

Expressionless

Faint

Fixed

Glazed

Flowering

Grave

Haunted

Hostile

Impassive

Jeering

Languid

Meaningful

Mild

Mischievous

Mobile

Mona Lisa

Pained

Pitying

Pleading

Quizzical

Radiant

Roguish

Sardonic

Set

Shamefaced

Slack-jawed

Sly

Smiley

Straight-Faced

Sullen

Taut

Thoughtful

Tight-Lipped

Unblinking

Unreadable

Vacant

Wan

Wanly

Wide-Eyed

Wild-Eyed

Withering

Wolfish

Worried

Wry

Words to describe voices:

Adenoidal

Appealing

Breathy

Brittle

Croaky

Dead

Disembodied

Flat

Fruity

Grating

Gravelly

Gruff

Guttural

High-Pitched

Hoarse

Honeyed

Husky

Low

Matter-of-Fact

Modulated

Monotonous

Nasal

Orotund

Penetrating

Plummy

Quietly

Raucous

Ringing

Rough

Shrill

Silvery

Singsong

Small

Smokey

Soft-spoken

Stentorian

Strangled

Strident

Taut

Thick

Thin

Throaty

Tight

Toneless

Tremulous

Wheezy

These were my sources. Visit them for more information on these words and a wider variety of words.

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why would you throw a bucket and a cinder block

why would you even have those thinGS ON HAND 

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