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Will you teach me when he’s not watching? It could be our secret.

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can’t wait to see more of this little menace in action next book

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neil throughout the entirety of aftg

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neil josten btw

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The time Neil and Aaron got along best was the time it was actually Andrew off his meds that Neil mistook for Aaron. I think about this daily

Also love the fact that Neil and the other foxes can easily tell the difference between the two and this is the only time Neil mistakes them.

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Do you think Jeremy would get a wedding fever? Mb someone from the team is getting married and throws a wedding party so Jeremy and Jean attend it and that’s when the fever hits him hard. Poor boy becomes obsessed. Wearing that dreamy expression, being a little jealous every time he sees someone in a white wedding dress suit, looking at his ring finger imagining a beautiful wedding ring on it.

Oh Jeremy wait until you get intense baby fever…

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Jeremy Knox has the time to customize everyone in his phone's ringtones because when he is alone in his room in his frigid house, that phone is the only thing connecting him to the outside world and his friends and everyone else.

So of course he gives them cute little sounds. Or ominous sounds. He can't verbalize how he feels, but he can still express it. And that little electronic in his hand is his last connection to and reminder of life outside the Wilshire estate.

Jeremy's phone is an extension of him.

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Thinking again about the tenderness of Jean. How he carries a little bit of everyone he loves with him at all times. His collection of items from the Trojans, the haunting notes and reminders of the Nest, the postcards from Kevin. He holds fruit gently to make sure it doesn’t bruise. He loves gardening. His favorite color is brown because of the people he loves and garden dirt. He keeps a list of all of his favorite things that make life worth living.

His life has been outrageously horrible, but at his core he is full of love.

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neil's sexuality is so interesting and complex, i love it so so so much. he doesn't swing. he has trauma from his mom trying to beat all interest in women out of him. he experiences a degree of attraction to women but doesn't feel anything kissing them. he jerks off sometimes and basically sees it as system maintenance. it never would have occurred to him to be attracted to andrew if andrew didn't bluntly say he'd blow him and then later kiss him. he doesn't think to initiate anything sexual, it just doesn't occur to him to do so, andrew has to cue him in and then he'll drop everything to make out. he still doesn't swing, it's just andrew.

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everything starts and ends with kevin day. do you get it? everything starts and ends with kevin day. of course everything has to start and end with kevin day it could never be any other way

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I’ll never be over Jean pulling his phone camera up and just casually taking a picture of Jeremy like it was nothing. Or him sending it to Renee like she wasn’t going to call him out on how down bad he is. Jean baby boy you’ve never been subtle about anything ever why would you think that you could start now?? Poor boy.

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never moved on from this

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reading the sunshine trilogy is really just whiplash between wanting to sob over jean or laughing because he does shit like replace kevin’s vodka with tap water and tattle on jeremy

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i know laila saw immediately the truth of the blue shirts in jeans hands and her best friends favourite colour (and doubled down at the thought of the brown eyes of her best friend when jean says brown is his)

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thinking about the emotional range of “say ‘yes jeremy’”

oh how i need this to be implemented at every inappropriate opportunity;

- jerejeans second kiss and this time it’s jeremy leaning in to take jeans breath away with a soft “say ‘yes jeremy’” and jean kissing him to bury his smile

- jeremy telling jean not to go after faser when they meet him with the same turn of phrase

- jeremy being so careful with jeans consent while he kisses along his jaw that when jean only offers pleased grunts as approval, jeremy reminds him what to say instead

- jean speechless seeing jeremy on their wedding day and jeremy gives him this reminder at the right moment

- jeremy’s observant “you like this” when he notices how much jean is enjoying his tongue // jean completely speechless with jeremy’s mouth on him and jeremy’s gentle teasing “say ‘yes jeremy’” // and jean would laugh if there was anything funny about it, but only manages a chocked “yes jeremy”

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keeping this here to scream about

>>> the perfect court the foxhole court the raven king the king's men the sunshine court the golden raven the broken cage >>> the queen's game

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thinking about the emotional range of “say ‘yes jeremy’”