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[damonwhiz]

just for once, let me end it here, my love.

i always wanted to write something for you. something pure, something real - a piece where in i will pour every thing, every thought and every feeling i have for you. but let me tell you this, starting a letter for you is the hardest of all. i don't know where to start, how to begin, how to write it with composition because it might be all over the place and you may not want to read it because of how much of a whirlwind it is to read what i wrote but now that i've started it there is no turning back.

hello. that's how hard it is for me to write a letter for you, hence why the awkward start but for it to flow in easier i would write this with how i say my prayers every night.

the first thing that i do when i pray is to say sorry, be it for something that i have done knowingly or unknowingly, something that i have said, or the way i have acted and all the likes. i want to say sorry for being the person who is so hard headed, everyone always tell me that i am the "makulit" one. even you think that i am and i don't disagree. growing up in a very strict family made me a rebel, i had my freedom or the freedom that i wanted just when i started going to jhs since my mom wasn't here to scold me everyday. i started doing the things that i feel like i have been left out on. i'm sorry for being afraid to tell you things, it may not look like it but i'm not that close to my parents. they know nothing about me, because i don't tell them a single thing because of how judgemental they can get and i have applied that to almost everyone that i talked to and that is one thing that i'm now changing, because i know that it will just give us a hard time in our relationship and is not healthy in all aspects, tho it's been a month ended. also want to say sorry for not being able to update or chat you whenever i'm not with you - now that i'm thinking about it i feel bad but at the same time eager to change myself to be better for you. i'm sorry for being ma-busy and such an over thinker - i just can't help it. i have - experienced so much and i don't want them to happen again hence why i am like this but i promise, i won't bother you as much as how i have bothered you in the past. i'll try harder not to give any motive of hint of negativity and just enjoy every single moment, because i don't actually know what may happen in the following days. sorry for being that "depressed" lil kid who hurts himself just because he wanted to feel pain which looks pathetic and utterly sickening and you may find it hard keeping up with me and all my lost hopes and i am sorry for it.

sorry for being me, sorry if the person you chose wasn't that much of a person, sorry for not being the best, but trust me i'm dying to give you anything and everything. i'm working on making myself worthy for you. after that i always say grace, i have endless reasons on why i wanted to thank you because that's how much of a blessing you are to me. thank you for always being there for me — literally. no matter how long, no matter when and where you i would always sacrifice your time for me, you would always choose to have every second and every minute of the day with me and i am thankful for that, you don't know how much gratitude i have for you in doing it. thank you for not giving up even on the days where in i'm the hardest to love, the days where in i keep pushing everyone i love away. thank you because no one ever did that for me, everyone seems to just turn me down whenever i'm at my worst but you don't. you always make me feel safe, special and happy. thank you for appreciating everything about me, from the simplest things that even i can't notice, to the achievements that i have accomplished. thank you for everything you don't know how much it affects me but it does. you are my source of strength and to not have you on my side is one of the biggest fears i have now, and it ended. i thank you for everything, i thank you for being you and for allowing me to love such a person like you. THANK YOU, IDIOT. LAST NA 'TO BWHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHA DON'T WORRY, HINDI KO NAMAN NA RIN KAYO MA-BOTHER IF MAY NEW KA. BE HAPPY, ALR? ILOVEYOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU! FOR THE LAST TIME, UNTIL THEN :)))

[damonwhiz]

every location, universe, and life will have my adoration. no matter what, i'll always find a way to get back to you, i swear. until then, when the road decides it's time for our paths to meet once more, i'll see you there. THANK YOU.

[damonwhiz]

anyway, i'll stop na muna here tumblr. ang sakit, double na

[damonwhiz]

and i didn't realize how strongly i felt for you until i found myself sobbing in bed at three in the morning, fearing i was going to lose you.

[damonwhiz]

why are you so makulit talaga? bhwhahahhahahha even if i find love again, it will never be the same way i loved you.

[damonwhiz]

hello bro tumblr, jwu BWHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHH bungad

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AAAHHHH, PINAPALUNGKOT MO NA NAMAN AKO SA GANITONG ORAS PUSO AT ISIP OH

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TELL ME, HOW?

[damonwhiz]

how can i move on when you let me realize that love was genuinely worth a shot and restored my faith in it???? :((

[damonwhiz]

you have no idea how desperately i want you to remain by my side forever :(( i simply cannot love another person as much as i love you, idiot.

[damonwhiz]

ISA PA 'TONG UTAK, KALA KO MAGKA-IBA?!?!? BAKIT HALOS PAREHAS NA TAKBO!?!? WEIRD SHITS

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SHIT KA NAMAN PUSO BWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH LAKAS MO

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BAKIT KASI HINDI AKO MAKA-TULOG MAAGA? TRIPPINGS DIN EH

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4 NA, NICE. AGAIN, NICE

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ANO BA KASING KAHINAANNM 'TO DAMON

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THIS IS BULLSHIT, KASALANAN MO 'TO BRO TUMBLR

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HOW CAN I SLEEP? TANGINA NAMAN