darkemptymoon

[darkemptymoon]

✨you know, i look back on all those moments he made me doubt myself, or kinda slipped into the conversation that maybe not everything was entirely right with me ✨and i feel relief all over again that there’s an actual word for that feeling when nothing feels real and you feel like you’re having an out of body experience, or everything’s all floaty ✨it’s so easy to think he was right about me not being all there and that, therefore, he wasn’t lying when he said i only thought he did some of that awful shit that i know he did ✨but then i remember there’s an actual word for some of my less sane moments and it’s a documented medical thing and it doesn’t make me crazy, and i’m still right about that shit he did even though he swore up and down he never did it ✨i guess i’m just grateful that i can feel a little less crazy and wrong

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✨things go numb after awhile ✨if he'd said all that the first day and i logged on i would've cried ✨too close to home too upsetting ✨now i see it and sure the fear and reminders are there but it's like an undercurrent ✨mostly i just feel like rolling my eyes?

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✨healing usually feels nice but i hope its realy really painflu for him to regro w that head

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✨hedid waht

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✨theres got to be a way ✨there has to be ✨i believe in you felly ✨you can find away out of this

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✨the world still has his soul just ✨hasnthe suffered enough?

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✨okay i lied but when he’s apologizing like that i cant ✨its not like i didn’t say the same thing overandover

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✨im so glad hes okay and hopefully he can get home now ✨im crying and i feel kind of stupid because i dont know him but on the other hand ✨why do i need to to be glad he’s not being held captive anymore by his brother ✨i just hope he can figure out how to get home from here ✨gonna back off a bit and let everyone he was close to respond to him first for a little while so i don’t overwehlm him or creep him out

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✨right?

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✨wait i just refreshed the dash and ✨that’s gotta be him

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✨ ✨im afraid that he's cracking and i wouldn't blame him ✨two months it's been two right? ✨but on the other hand there's a surprising amount you can do with a bottle ✨blunt force object or breaking it to make a sharp weapon comes to mind ✨or maybe he figures getting drunk will get him to let his guard down ✨that's waht i ✨he can do this

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✨he better not he better not he better not ✨don’t you dare don’t you dare ✨i’ll rip you apuart

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✨maybe i should brush back up on my taco making skills for when he comes back ✨and make him a present ✨becas e he will come home ✨he will he will h ewill

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✨i hat blogging like usual ✨hate it hate it hate it ✨but what am i supposed to do ✨vanish from the undernet forever? ✨at le ast this way i can keep tabs on everything

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✨can’t do this c an’t cant cantcantcant ✨wanna comfort sharky and jellie cant ✨would just fall apart on them ✨can’t keep someone else glued when im comin g undone

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✨nope npenopenopenothappeningnope ✨this ins;t happening

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✨n ononononono ✨hesgoi ng to do bad things to him he will that’s what they do ✨i s hould’ve said something? ✨m aybe if i’d paid attention and said something he might? ✨notve gon e?