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I can’t do this anymore

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“can you please call me? I need to hear your voice one last time before I let you go.”

a.a

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"I'm not entirely here

Half of me has disappeared"

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I really hate it when I cry alone out loud

- lil peep 💔🥀

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Based off this post by @somepiecesofmyheartandsoul

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You want nothing to do with my life unless you want to talk to me. I cant live like that nor with my own head. When this Xanax drops. I guess the safest way to die would to put my goodbye into writing and post it. I would have thought youd be over it by now, you literally fucked all the people that i was scared youd cheat on my with straight after we broke up. You forced it to be final. Ive never been more sure in my life of my decisions. Im in the deepest whole with no potential of climbing back out. Youve pushed me away because im so unstable (fair). I hope you stay away from my tumblr

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I btwtter get my rap reco4ded ane upload3d real quixj

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I would but got the FBI on my casee hahahahagsfahahsshha are thwy comijg again, guwss we will find out soon

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Shit ive posted a lot but id say someone feels the same. Just have no one to talk to about it anymore. Tried drowning myself the other week, its a fuck ton harder than i thought. No matter how far i pushed myself i couldnt keep my arms locked above my head.

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Aha just realised its Saturday, best thing my brains done all day. Allows the thoughts her fucking her bf

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I canr fucking believe it, i go to post the most heart felt thing and it doesnt even post. Simplfied version of the 400 word goodbye. I love you and our attachment is broken since that last chat, dont fucking remember me. Swear to god you can call as many people as you fucking want. You have what you 'need' you may not be 'happy' but fuck it, you have your reasons i have mine. As much as it fucking sucks that youre going to go through what you going to go through but thats an after effect of any suicide. Remember everyrhing we used to say to each other? You have the better memory but i still remember. None of it matters anymore. Im going to be gone, no more. Finito, i dont give a fuck anymore. Youre emotions seem fine, youre boyfriends got your back more than i ever did. Your boyfriend can give you the attention you need, can buy you things, you can have an actual life with him. Whether it lasts 2 more weeks, 2 mpre months or the rest of your life together. Just remember, i would and will most likely take out the people that caused harm to you if theirs an afterlife which i dont believe in myself. I just want you to be happy and with me alive causing so much stress on you when i have nothing to do with your life anymore. You say you feel like im more than a friend. WHAT EVEN FUCKING IS THAT. You told me you dont know why youre even with your boyfriend. Fucks that about? Tryna fuck me worse than i already was. Shit i was gonna kill myself without telling you but i felt it neccesary to inform the person that know the most about whoever i could even be. Oh was thwt a bad idea, just made me realise you dont care anymore. As much as yoy say you do, i cant believe it. I dont believe it. Im just another friend, and soon ill just be a memory that youll forget about when you realise that its better off me dead.

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Why am I so attached. I just want to let go

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do you ever just listen to sad music to let it hurt or is that just me

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