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I feel like I need to actually post a proper update, in case anyone is still actively following this blog.

tl;dr : The past year has been absolute chaos for me and while I'm fine, I'm fucking tired.

So, as I think a good chunk know, my life got turn on it's head, early July of last year. That was just the beginning. I packed up my entire life, moved many states away from my home, and got a job. All in just July. From there, the only big thing of note was November, when I started testosterone, until we got to just before Christmas and into the New Year.

Turns out, when my workplace was robbed just prior to Christmas, it was my (at the time) brother-in-law who did so. He lied to us until he was forced to come clean because they had proof it was him. From there, he started showing his true colors. He became very... mentally and emotionally abusive. There's no real way to put that. He became a very shitty and cruel person who is still convinced we're out to get him (we're not, we literally don't want to think about him). The following months of him in the house were absolute hell.

So, they got divorced in July. He moved out in August. And not even a week later we had to call the cops because he was stalking her and showed up and refused to leave. It's genuinely just been entirely too much.

All of this has been on top of my body not regulating the testosterone well, working a not-quite full time job (but the commute is between 2 and 3 hours round trip), and trying to maintain some kind of social life.

I'm fucking tired, y'all. I want to try and get back here in some capacity, even if it's just like answering ask memes or silly quick shit I can do on my phone, but I'm not going to promise anything.

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reblog if you've made a good friend on tumblr.

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Body said if I wouldn't rest on my own burnout was gonna kick my ass and make me and I don't approve.

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I genuinely hate my brain sometimes. Especially right now. I can't sleep. A plot I was super excited for in a group setting is a wash because the player left. Logically I know this has nothing to do with me. Brain has decided that it's somehow my fault. On top of that, I'm in serious burnout. And that's not even considering everything else going on in my personal life. Fuck Fuck fucking Fuck.

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Pete is pretty sure that this is... bad? Is uncertain. Field needs plowing. Also has too many bones. Also apparently is desert and night time?

Pete thinks should avoid bones, and maybe places with three suns? or moons? perhaps circles are bad.

Also maybe pick up litter?

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This whole thing has just activated my cuteness aggression

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"who knows what they still do on tumblr"

us:

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Can I just "aggressively" boop the same person repeatedly? Will it yell at me for doing it too much? Am I going to try and find out?

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*flops* everything going on irl makes me want to just give up trying to revive this even though it could probably help.

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Okay, here's the deal.

I have cleared my drafts, my open starters tag, and my inbox. I updated my google doc but I will admit my muse list is incomplete and may end up changing completely moving forward, just because I'm not really sure which ones I actually want right now.

With that said, I'm going to try and be on here more often. I can't promise I'll be fast, in truth, I have a lot going on irl that can be very draining, but I'm trying to not let it consume me, which is honestly why I'm giving this a shot again. I created this blog as an escape and I'm definitely going to try and do that again here.

With that said, if you wanna add me on discord, let me know and I'll send it your way, cos I'm always around on there for writing and stuff.

New open starters will go up at some point, but I'm unsure exactly when that will be.

In the meantime, however, if you'd like a starter, reply with who you'd like it from. Any version of Joss is going to take priority, I'm thinking of trying my hand at Rogue from Cyberpunk 2077 or I'm up for giving any of my muses a Cyberpunk verse. Sam Arias may also get you a response, same with Magda, but especially topsy turvy/mob Magda. You can also just shoot me a message if you want to plot something out.

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Oh, all that I did to try to undo it All of my pain and all your excuses I was a kid but I wasn't clueless (Someone who loves you wouldn't do this) All of my past, I tried to erase it But now I see, would I even change it? Might share a face and share a last name, but (We are not the same)

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HAYLEY ATWELL IS GRACE in Mission: Impossible - Dead Reckoning [2023]

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not my friends getting me back into league and me actually liking chem tech mommy enough to consider buying her skins

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Kinda have muse for Joss In-Ze and Sam Arias, but not enough of either to work on the fanfic that exists in my phone... I'll see if either will do replies to what I have in my drafts, but feel free to reply to this or message me if you want threads. I have more muse for Joss, either the version with or without a kid, just specify.

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I would like to know what is the poros least favorite snack. obvious all snacks are good, because they are snacks, but not all snacks are created equal.

The poros have never considered this before! Shall have to call a poro moot, and ask the questions, and do the chitters, and eventually come up with an answer.

Many moons come and go. So many that the poros got sidetracked many times, as it the way with poro moots.

The poros cannot come up with any real thing, but have decided that any snax that were made with the poison water (alcohol) would have to be the worst, probably, or perhaps one made of non-edible things.

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It's my birfday!

I'm going back to bed.

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So, we're calling this an update.

I'm not back yet. I want to be, and I hope to be soon, but I'm not.

I'm trying to adjust to having a day job that has me up at 6 am (work is at 9 but I catch the bus at 8 and need those 2 hours to get ready so I'm not rushing) and is physically demanding on a body that is not used to that. When I get home depends on when I get out of work and if I'm riding the bus or getting picked up. I can get out as early as 4 pm or as late at 7, depending on the day, meaning I can be home by 415 or as late as 8, and I have to be in bed by 1 am. It doesn't leave a lot of room for hobbies and my days off, at least right now, are filled with me trying to recover and get anything important I need done.

I'm hoping that once I get a full month under my belt my body will have had time to adjust and I'll be able to be back on here, at least a little.